Saturday, August 11, 2012

personal and general ascension symptoms




I see how people have a tendency to think this is something personal happening to them- we are all being asked to give up our fears and return home to love and that tends to be an uncomfortable process. Someone just told me she can't understand why her fears are greater than ever- because it is time to release them and the Universe is kindly supporting us by bring them to the surface so we can let them go. So here's a short list of some of the circumstances/experiences that have helped me release fear:

- loss of 23 1/2 year marriage/relationship
- loss of a beloved home for financial reasons
- two MAJOR losses of money
- chronic fatigue that had been debilitating for over 12 years
- life long chronic anxiety that created great dysfunction until recently
- inability to keep ANY kind of order
- inability to sleep and/or inability to wake up
- panic
- terror
- lack of desire to live
- acute memory loss
- loss of one of my most cherished dreams
- major power/control struggles with a loved one
- a daughter with a major challenge that is not within my ability to change or control
- loss of my most cherished possession
- extreme sensitivity to noise, crowds, peoples' energies that kept me in virtual isolation
- inability to be with certain old friends
- feeling I was going insane
- serious depression
- unable to do hardly any work or be productive
- apathy
- inability to remember what just happened or what happened yesterday
- profound yearning to go Home that never really leaves me

 These are the major ones I have experienced. I have also experienced lately profound feelings of Homecoming, deep joy, peace and Love, oceanic feelings of unity, incredible energy, astonishing insights, ability to read other's energy, amazing awareness, uncovering the secrets of the Universe and so on. I decided to give  my symptoms, repost general ascension symptoms and give a link to a very well written blog about another woman's symptoms so as to reduce the feelings of being alone. My sense is many of you reading this may be in the second wave of ascension. I believe I was in the first wave. My sense is I went though it so as to be able to shine a light for others. I can tell you for sure that there is miracles on the other side. My sense and direct experience is that I have been through the worst of it and am coming out the other side. Now my life is filled with more love and little tendrils of joy. The feeling of being Home is more frequent, the lack of desire to seek outside myself is more common. I KNOW that being home in one's self, of knowing one's essence as love and joy is worth the journey. Hang in there my loves and know that all will be well. I hope you find this helpful. HUGE GLOBAL HUG!!!


Ascension Symptoms- post by unknown source (not me)
Know that although our evolutionary process is rapidly accelerating, along with the New higher vibrational energies, we are all experiencing these changes in our own way and in our own time, according to who we are and according to our coding and plan before birth. In addition, generally speaking, our ascension process relates to how we each run our own individual energy, and what our beliefs and experiences are (in other words, how we are wired and how we vibrate). These things can be changed and will also change automatically as we clear and embody more light within ourselves. For the highly sensitive, psychic and those very open to the higher realms, the ascension process can be a bit more challenging.
(Note: Of course, not all of these symptoms can be attributed to the ascension process. Please follow your own inner guidance and consult a health care professional as needed).
*Feeling as though you are in a pressure cooker or in intense energy; feeling stress. Remember, you are adjusting to a higher vibration and you will eventually adjust. Old patterns, behaviors and beliefs are also being pushed to the surface. There is a lot going on inside of you!
* A feeling of disorientation; not knowing where you are; a loss of a sense of place. You are not in 3D anymore, as you have moved or in the process of moving into the higher realms.
* Unusual aches and pains throughout different parts of your body. You are purifying and releasing blocked energy vibrating at 3D while you are vibrating in a higher dimension.
* Waking at night between 2 and 4 a.m. As you progress, waking at 5 a.m. Much is going on in your dream state. You can't be there for long lengths of time and need a break. This is also the "cleansing and releasing" hour.
* Memory loss. Difficulty accessing words. A great abundance of short term memory loss and only vague remembrances of your past. You are in more than one dimension at a time, and going back and forth as part of the transition (you are experiencing a "disconnect"). Also, your past is part of the Old, and the Old is forever gone. Being in the Now is the way of the New World!
* "Seeing" and "hearing" things. You are experiencing different dimenions as you transition, all according to how sensitive you are and how you are wired.
* Loss of identity. You try to access the Old you, but it is no longer there. You may not know who you are looking at in the mirror! You have cleared much of your old patterns and are now embodying much more light and a simpler, more purified divine you. All is in order....you're OK.
* Feeling "out of body". You may feel as though someone is talking, but it is not you. Our bodies are the last to catch up and are not in the same place as the rest of us. In addition, this phenomenon can also occur as it is our natural defense mechanism of survival when we are under acute stress or feeling traumatized or out of control. Your body is going through a lot and you may not want to be in it. At one point, my ascension guide told me that this was a way of easing the transition process, and that I did not need to experience what my body was going through.
* Periods of deep sleeping. You are resting from all the acclimating and are integrating, as well as building up for the next phase.
* Heightened sensitivities to your surroundings. Crowds, noise, foods, TV, other human voices and various other stimulations are barely tolerable. You also overwhelm very easily and become easily overstimulated. You are tuning up! Know that this will eventually pass.
* Dizziness, loss of balance, back and neck pain, ringing in the ears, "gritty" eyes, blurred vision, insomnia, and heart palpitations with difficulty breathing.
*Headaches.
* Crying about anything, whether wonderful or sad.
* Not remembering the meaning of anything.
* Difficulty in remembering what you did or who you talked to a day or sometimes just an hour before. In the higher realms, reality is very much in the moment. If we do not hold something in our consciousness, it simply ceases to exist. We have no attachments. We are creating our own world around us through our beliefs and thoughts and what we do not "hold onto" does not exist. Everything is brand new as we are starting completely over, moment to moment. We can tap into whatever we choose to at any moment and create and experience just that. This state comes and goes, but is practice for living in the higher realms. It can feel a bit creepy when it occurs.
* You don't feel like doing anything. You are in a rest period, "rebooting". Your body knows what it needs. In addition, when you begin reaching the higher realms, "doing" and "making things happen" becomes obsolete as the New energies support the feminine of basking, receiving, creating, self-care and nurturing. Ask the Universe to "bring" you what you want while you are enjoying yourself and having fun!
* An intolerance for lower vibrational things (of the 3D) reflected in conversations, attitudes, societal structures, healing modalities, etc. They literally make you feel “sick” inside. You are in a higher vibration and your energies are no longer in alignment. You are being "pushed" to move forward.....to "be" and create the New. In addition, you may feel like staying home or just being alone as much of everything "out there" no longer matches the higher vibration of YOU.
* A loss of desire for food. Your body is adjusting to a new, higher state of being. Also, part of you does not want to be here anymore in the Old.
* A sudden disappearance of friends, activities, habits, jobs and residences. You are evolving beyond what you used to be, and these people and surroundings no longer match your vibration. The New will soon arrive and feel so-o-o-o much better!
* You absolutely cannot do certain things anymore. When you try to do your usual routine and activities, it feels downright awful. Same as above.
* Days of extreme fatigue. Your body is losing density and going through intense restructuring.
* A need to eat often along with what feels like attacks of low blood sugar. Weight gain (especially in the abdominal area). A craving for protein. You are requiring an enormous amount of fuel for this ascension process. Weight gain with an inablilty to loose it no matter what you do is one of the most typical experiences. Trust that your body knows what it is doing.
(Note: The body seems to need this extra weight for processing and holding these New higher vibrations. In addition, the liver goes on overdrive as it is rapidly processing and detoxing. An overtaxed liver can lead to abdominal weight gain and frequent waking around 3 a.m. (the liver hour in oriental medicine). Liver supports that can be helpful are milk thistle, casual walks, breathing and trusting in the future.)
* Experiencing emotional ups and downs; weeping. Our emotions are our outlet for release, and we are releasing a lot.
* A wanting to go Home, as if everything is OVER and you don't belong here anymore. We are returning to the Source. Everything IS over. (But many of us are staying to experience and create the New World). Also, our old plans for coming have been completed.
* Feeling you are going insane, or must be developing a mental illness of some sort. You are rapidly experiencing several dimensions and greatly opening. Much is available to you now. You are just not used to it. Your awareness has been heightened and your barriers are gone. This will pass and you will eventually feel very at Home like you have never felt before, as Home is now here.
* Anxiety and panic and feelings of hysteria. Your ego is losing much of itself and is afraid. It may feel as if everything is ending (most of everything is!).Your system is also on overload. Things are happening to you that you may not understand. You are also losing behavior patterns of a lower vibration that you developed for survival in 3D. This may make you feel vulnerable and powerless. These patterns and behaviors you are losing are not needed in the higher realms. This will pass and you will eventually feel so much love, safety and unity. Just wait!
* Depression. The outer world may not be in alignment with the New, higher vibrational you. It doesn't feel so good out there. You are also releasing lower, darker energies and you are "seeing" through them. Hang in there!
* Vivid, wild and sometimes violent dreams. You are releasing many, many lifetimes of lower vibrational energy. Many are now reporting that they are experiencing beautiful dreams. Your dreamstate will eventually improve and you will enjoy it again. Some experience this releasing while awake. My mother commented one day that she believed I was having nightmares in the daytime!
* Night sweats and hot flashes. Your body is "heating" up as it burns off residue.
* Your plans suddenly change in mid-stream and go in a completely different direction. Your soul is balancing out your energy. It usually feels GREAT in this new direction, as your soul knows more than you do! It is breaking your “rut” choices and vibration.
* You have created a situation that seems like your worst nightmare, with many “worst nightmare” aspects to it. Your soul is guiding you into “stretching” into aspects of yourself where you were lacking, or into “toning down” aspects where you had an overabundance. Your energy is just balancing itself. Finding your way to peace through this situation is the test you have set up for yourself.
This is YOUR journey, and your soul would not have set it up if you weren't ready. You are the one who finds your way out and you will. Looking back, you will have gratitude for the experience and be a different person.


link to other blog post:
http://borntopushtheriver.blogspot.com/2012_08_01_archive.html

2 comments:

  1. I too have experienced very similar symptoms which have made much of my life feel like a disorienting wreck at times. Frustration comes up when you look around at those not awakening (surface dwellers) that have everything so tightly in order and think life is so simple.

    The blessings that come with this multidimensional expansion far exceed the sacrifices--once you can get to a place of relative alignment. However, life during this nano-second still seems to be packed with energetic and relentless surprises!

    Thanks for the post which is a good reminder that yes indeed we are all going thru a very similar path and we are not just dysfunctional and crazy :).

    Leigh
    www.aspiritfull.wordpress.com

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  2. Leigh,
    Yes, it certainly helps to know we are not alone. My body woke up an unhappy camper and I wanted to go into "oh shit, not again" mode but choose to stay focused on what I know to be the Truth about myself, stay focused on knowing my own essence and that off all those I meet as the love that we are. I am finding I must stay very focused these days not to start down the slippery slope of victim, upset. On days like this it is easy for me to get crazy with the surface dwellers or judge myself as big time dysfunctional. Thanks for dropping by and sharing your experience- gives me the warm and fuzzies inside. Blessings on your journey!

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