My intention is to recognize myself as limitless and after 10 hours sleep last night, I feel human again and can see how the latest wave is forcing me to witness where I limit and restrict myself. Nonono I did not like it yet thank God I can again see how it serves me in waking up. One of the biggest ways I get tripped up now is when I am tired and feel incapable of dealing with whatever is arising. So just like I have been able to deactivate my nervous system in response to others' behavior (YEA! where is my ticker tape parade?) I can see how I must now deactivate my nervous system when I am in physical states that feel uncomfortable or when things arise I feel incapable of handling, meaning I can witness the discomfort without freaking out. I must come into acceptance of this crazy yo-yoing between clarity and creativity followed by major discomfort, dysfunction and upset. Aye vey this looks like a big mountain to climb yet compared to being calm even when others act in rejecting or angry ways, should be a cake walk.