Finally passed through the minefield of energy that comprised most of my day. Old energies of panic and fear held me deep in their grip. I told myself the energy would pass, I told myself it was temporary yet the truth is in those moments, it feels like it will never end and that I will suffer indefinitely. My body was so tense and tight and resisted no matter how much I told it to allow. It is only when I somehow pass into a state of true surrender and allowance that my body paradoxically relaxes and releases. How to get to true surrender is the million dollar question for me. Now I breath a sigh of relief. I know in time I will see more freedom having passed through this little storm. Still didn't make it any more comfortable. ouch! I did fully recognize while it was happening that it would work for my liberation and that thought did create some spaciousness around the contraction. Yes, definitely interesting times.
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