And that is why the other thing you would have to imagine to get a glimpse of the world in the times of the Sexual Priestess is a world in which everyone felt love. A world in which absolutely everyone had felt love coursing through them, felt truly loved, and knew their essence was love. Imagine.
Because what these Priestesses shared most, sometimes with their bodies in the unique way each Priestess might choose to express this, or sometimes with their feelings, words or other expressions, was indeed pure love. They were fearless with their love, and masters at reawakening people to love when they had forgotten it, again so thatevery human on the earth had the chance to feel loved. Even if someone’s family or any other intimate relationships had seemed to lack true love, these women gave people a human embodiment of the love available to us at all times. They made it bodily. They made it earthly. They were transmitters and love incarnate. While they lived as instruments and musicians of this love, none who had access to them could forget the love within themselves, and everyone had the chance to heal in the all-consuming, warmly bathing, incandescent glow of that ineffable beauty. Love wasn’t just an idea. It truly was a verb.
Certainly we are all love incarnate. And certainly every gender has the ability to share and transmit this love. It is simply that at that time it was most needed through the feminine and in female expression, just as it is most needed now on the earth, once again.
We are meant to be the radiant embodiments of love that we truly are, and women and those of us on the more female side of the gender spectrum especially at this time are meant to be examples of this so powerfully again…shining on everything around us like a shower of golden petals trails behind us. And not just to give and give in ways that may or may not serve us, but to give only in ways that light us up inside and make us overflow with joy. It is the overflow of our joy and pleasure that is the most potent transformational force in our world. I know it’s scary. I know you know how life has been asking you to open to love, and everything it has brought up for you…I know about those most primal fears that were created to protect you long ago when loving from that place of power became dangerous and “shameful”. But it is that love that opens every locked door, to every wonderland we have ever dreamed of. It is that love that opens to the door to the realization of our heart’s greatest desires, and will do so for others around us…
1. Reconnect to pleasure
I mean really feel it. Unapoligetically. And really seek it. And really allow yourself to feel worthy of it, and as if it is a non-negotiable, as if it is a birthright…because it is. It is the serum, and the bloodline. It is the hidden door. It is the path and the passage. It is the wild freedom you crave. It is saying yes to finally walking through the land of punishment and denial, the ruins of your past pains, and yes…perhaps crying…but walking onward through them anyway with the faith, sometimes almost spent to nothing, that something else is waiting for you. It isn’t just meditation, or ecstatic visions, or something you find after twenty years of hard work overcoming your humanness while sitting in a cave and relenquishing all desires. It is rose buds, and laughter with someone you love, and soft skin to skin, and baby lambs in the spring, and warm fires, and cookies and good books and long sighs and deep cries and full moons and breakthroughs and heartaches and new hope and sunsets and starting over and starlight. It is the thousand moments that might capture your heart in a day if you broke open, and let pleasure back in.
I know you have to essentially go through the fires of hell to get to the place where you can allow yourself to feel the deepest pleasures sometimes, but that is only because you have been hurt, in this life and before, and you have to be able to re-visit those fears in some way to disempower them and reclaim your flaming heart.
To be clear there are just a few steps:
a. Find the pleasure in your life (even if it just feels like a mere contentment once a day when you drink your afternoon tea…start anywhere you can.)
b. Let yourself really feel the pleasure when it happens. Focus on it.
c. Repeat. Notice other pleasurable moments. Try to have more of them.
When they lead to through challenging lands, let them. And let the growing healing balm of the pleasure you have been charging yourself with help carry you through.
2. Reconnect with your body
Reconnecting with pleasure will help you do this. Because when you feel any kind of pleasure it is registered in the body, (not just obvious pleasures like sexual experiences, but even the pleasure of reading a good book translates to the body.) When it is a pleasure to be in your body, it is easier to love your body naturally. If you have been in pain for a long time, think of your first movements toward pleasure as tiny sips of water after having been in the desert for a long time, or tiny sips of air after holding your breath under water so very long. They will grow. And if at first you have a hard time finding pleasure at all, start with relief. Start with the things that give you even the slightest relief…like a warm bath, soaking your feet, or cuddling into soft pillows. Laying down. Not pushing yourself. Crying.
Welcoming the animal of your body truly back into your life is a radical and beautiful process. It requires the willingness to meet it slowly, like any animal that needs your love to heal, and grow strong again.
And then, or now if you already have a strong relationship with pleasure and your body, it takes the courageous step of putting your body first, as often as you possibly can. That’s when your animal body, your Nymph-self, starts leading your life. And that’s when the miracles truly begin. Yes, she will take you places you never imagined, and are currently afraid to go, but she will also take you all the places you haven’t even dreamed of going yet, and want with your whole soul’s thirst.
3. Reconnect with the earth
When you can let pleasure move through your animal body and be led by this, as the voice of the whole of your experience and beauty, you need just one more thing…to be able to be in the flow of earth energy too. If you restrict your connection to the life force of the earth and nature, you limit the amount of support you have, and the strength of the connection you feel to all life. To be The Sexual Priestess you are within, you will need that current running through you at all times. It will keep you centered, and your life force will never diminish. It is pure nourishment, and like connecting with pleasure or the body, it is not a one time event but a practice…something you return to again and again. Something you let yourself feel. Something you creatively seek and interact with, continuously.
Some days you might connect to this energy as one might imagine…standing barefoot on the earth or spending some time watching the ocean waves or walking in the woods. But sometimes you might connect with this energy (as well as pleasure and your body) through dance, connecting with your animal friends, or in countless other ways.