Saturday, August 11, 2012

personal and general ascension symptoms




I see how people have a tendency to think this is something personal happening to them- we are all being asked to give up our fears and return home to love and that tends to be an uncomfortable process. Someone just told me she can't understand why her fears are greater than ever- because it is time to release them and the Universe is kindly supporting us by bring them to the surface so we can let them go. So here's a short list of some of the circumstances/experiences that have helped me release fear:

- loss of 23 1/2 year marriage/relationship
- loss of a beloved home for financial reasons
- two MAJOR losses of money
- chronic fatigue that had been debilitating for over 12 years
- life long chronic anxiety that created great dysfunction until recently
- inability to keep ANY kind of order
- inability to sleep and/or inability to wake up
- panic
- terror
- lack of desire to live
- acute memory loss
- loss of one of my most cherished dreams
- major power/control struggles with a loved one
- a daughter with a major challenge that is not within my ability to change or control
- loss of my most cherished possession
- extreme sensitivity to noise, crowds, peoples' energies that kept me in virtual isolation
- inability to be with certain old friends
- feeling I was going insane
- serious depression
- unable to do hardly any work or be productive
- apathy
- inability to remember what just happened or what happened yesterday
- profound yearning to go Home that never really leaves me

 These are the major ones I have experienced. I have also experienced lately profound feelings of Homecoming, deep joy, peace and Love, oceanic feelings of unity, incredible energy, astonishing insights, ability to read other's energy, amazing awareness, uncovering the secrets of the Universe and so on. I decided to give  my symptoms, repost general ascension symptoms and give a link to a very well written blog about another woman's symptoms so as to reduce the feelings of being alone. My sense is many of you reading this may be in the second wave of ascension. I believe I was in the first wave. My sense is I went though it so as to be able to shine a light for others. I can tell you for sure that there is miracles on the other side. My sense and direct experience is that I have been through the worst of it and am coming out the other side. Now my life is filled with more love and little tendrils of joy. The feeling of being Home is more frequent, the lack of desire to seek outside myself is more common. I KNOW that being home in one's self, of knowing one's essence as love and joy is worth the journey. Hang in there my loves and know that all will be well. I hope you find this helpful. HUGE GLOBAL HUG!!!


Ascension Symptoms- post by unknown source (not me)
Know that although our evolutionary process is rapidly accelerating, along with the New higher vibrational energies, we are all experiencing these changes in our own way and in our own time, according to who we are and according to our coding and plan before birth. In addition, generally speaking, our ascension process relates to how we each run our own individual energy, and what our beliefs and experiences are (in other words, how we are wired and how we vibrate). These things can be changed and will also change automatically as we clear and embody more light within ourselves. For the highly sensitive, psychic and those very open to the higher realms, the ascension process can be a bit more challenging.
(Note: Of course, not all of these symptoms can be attributed to the ascension process. Please follow your own inner guidance and consult a health care professional as needed).
*Feeling as though you are in a pressure cooker or in intense energy; feeling stress. Remember, you are adjusting to a higher vibration and you will eventually adjust. Old patterns, behaviors and beliefs are also being pushed to the surface. There is a lot going on inside of you!
* A feeling of disorientation; not knowing where you are; a loss of a sense of place. You are not in 3D anymore, as you have moved or in the process of moving into the higher realms.
* Unusual aches and pains throughout different parts of your body. You are purifying and releasing blocked energy vibrating at 3D while you are vibrating in a higher dimension.
* Waking at night between 2 and 4 a.m. As you progress, waking at 5 a.m. Much is going on in your dream state. You can't be there for long lengths of time and need a break. This is also the "cleansing and releasing" hour.
* Memory loss. Difficulty accessing words. A great abundance of short term memory loss and only vague remembrances of your past. You are in more than one dimension at a time, and going back and forth as part of the transition (you are experiencing a "disconnect"). Also, your past is part of the Old, and the Old is forever gone. Being in the Now is the way of the New World!
* "Seeing" and "hearing" things. You are experiencing different dimenions as you transition, all according to how sensitive you are and how you are wired.
* Loss of identity. You try to access the Old you, but it is no longer there. You may not know who you are looking at in the mirror! You have cleared much of your old patterns and are now embodying much more light and a simpler, more purified divine you. All is in order....you're OK.
* Feeling "out of body". You may feel as though someone is talking, but it is not you. Our bodies are the last to catch up and are not in the same place as the rest of us. In addition, this phenomenon can also occur as it is our natural defense mechanism of survival when we are under acute stress or feeling traumatized or out of control. Your body is going through a lot and you may not want to be in it. At one point, my ascension guide told me that this was a way of easing the transition process, and that I did not need to experience what my body was going through.
* Periods of deep sleeping. You are resting from all the acclimating and are integrating, as well as building up for the next phase.
* Heightened sensitivities to your surroundings. Crowds, noise, foods, TV, other human voices and various other stimulations are barely tolerable. You also overwhelm very easily and become easily overstimulated. You are tuning up! Know that this will eventually pass.
* Dizziness, loss of balance, back and neck pain, ringing in the ears, "gritty" eyes, blurred vision, insomnia, and heart palpitations with difficulty breathing.
*Headaches.
* Crying about anything, whether wonderful or sad.
* Not remembering the meaning of anything.
* Difficulty in remembering what you did or who you talked to a day or sometimes just an hour before. In the higher realms, reality is very much in the moment. If we do not hold something in our consciousness, it simply ceases to exist. We have no attachments. We are creating our own world around us through our beliefs and thoughts and what we do not "hold onto" does not exist. Everything is brand new as we are starting completely over, moment to moment. We can tap into whatever we choose to at any moment and create and experience just that. This state comes and goes, but is practice for living in the higher realms. It can feel a bit creepy when it occurs.
* You don't feel like doing anything. You are in a rest period, "rebooting". Your body knows what it needs. In addition, when you begin reaching the higher realms, "doing" and "making things happen" becomes obsolete as the New energies support the feminine of basking, receiving, creating, self-care and nurturing. Ask the Universe to "bring" you what you want while you are enjoying yourself and having fun!
* An intolerance for lower vibrational things (of the 3D) reflected in conversations, attitudes, societal structures, healing modalities, etc. They literally make you feel “sick” inside. You are in a higher vibration and your energies are no longer in alignment. You are being "pushed" to move forward.....to "be" and create the New. In addition, you may feel like staying home or just being alone as much of everything "out there" no longer matches the higher vibration of YOU.
* A loss of desire for food. Your body is adjusting to a new, higher state of being. Also, part of you does not want to be here anymore in the Old.
* A sudden disappearance of friends, activities, habits, jobs and residences. You are evolving beyond what you used to be, and these people and surroundings no longer match your vibration. The New will soon arrive and feel so-o-o-o much better!
* You absolutely cannot do certain things anymore. When you try to do your usual routine and activities, it feels downright awful. Same as above.
* Days of extreme fatigue. Your body is losing density and going through intense restructuring.
* A need to eat often along with what feels like attacks of low blood sugar. Weight gain (especially in the abdominal area). A craving for protein. You are requiring an enormous amount of fuel for this ascension process. Weight gain with an inablilty to loose it no matter what you do is one of the most typical experiences. Trust that your body knows what it is doing.
(Note: The body seems to need this extra weight for processing and holding these New higher vibrations. In addition, the liver goes on overdrive as it is rapidly processing and detoxing. An overtaxed liver can lead to abdominal weight gain and frequent waking around 3 a.m. (the liver hour in oriental medicine). Liver supports that can be helpful are milk thistle, casual walks, breathing and trusting in the future.)
* Experiencing emotional ups and downs; weeping. Our emotions are our outlet for release, and we are releasing a lot.
* A wanting to go Home, as if everything is OVER and you don't belong here anymore. We are returning to the Source. Everything IS over. (But many of us are staying to experience and create the New World). Also, our old plans for coming have been completed.
* Feeling you are going insane, or must be developing a mental illness of some sort. You are rapidly experiencing several dimensions and greatly opening. Much is available to you now. You are just not used to it. Your awareness has been heightened and your barriers are gone. This will pass and you will eventually feel very at Home like you have never felt before, as Home is now here.
* Anxiety and panic and feelings of hysteria. Your ego is losing much of itself and is afraid. It may feel as if everything is ending (most of everything is!).Your system is also on overload. Things are happening to you that you may not understand. You are also losing behavior patterns of a lower vibration that you developed for survival in 3D. This may make you feel vulnerable and powerless. These patterns and behaviors you are losing are not needed in the higher realms. This will pass and you will eventually feel so much love, safety and unity. Just wait!
* Depression. The outer world may not be in alignment with the New, higher vibrational you. It doesn't feel so good out there. You are also releasing lower, darker energies and you are "seeing" through them. Hang in there!
* Vivid, wild and sometimes violent dreams. You are releasing many, many lifetimes of lower vibrational energy. Many are now reporting that they are experiencing beautiful dreams. Your dreamstate will eventually improve and you will enjoy it again. Some experience this releasing while awake. My mother commented one day that she believed I was having nightmares in the daytime!
* Night sweats and hot flashes. Your body is "heating" up as it burns off residue.
* Your plans suddenly change in mid-stream and go in a completely different direction. Your soul is balancing out your energy. It usually feels GREAT in this new direction, as your soul knows more than you do! It is breaking your “rut” choices and vibration.
* You have created a situation that seems like your worst nightmare, with many “worst nightmare” aspects to it. Your soul is guiding you into “stretching” into aspects of yourself where you were lacking, or into “toning down” aspects where you had an overabundance. Your energy is just balancing itself. Finding your way to peace through this situation is the test you have set up for yourself.
This is YOUR journey, and your soul would not have set it up if you weren't ready. You are the one who finds your way out and you will. Looking back, you will have gratitude for the experience and be a different person.


link to other blog post:
http://borntopushtheriver.blogspot.com/2012_08_01_archive.html

Thursday, August 9, 2012

the importance of I AM

I have a very important blog brewing in me but not quite ready to be born. For now wanted to share an excellent video with Oprah and Marianne Williamson, below. Also I just hear Wayne Dyer say that I AM is equivalent to calling forward the name of God. Therefore use I AM only for what you desire- not what you wish to avoid. For example- I AM love, joy, abundant, peaceful, on purpose etc. Really not a good idea to say I AM tired, depressed, afraid, broke. If you want to speak of it, better to say I notice a (temporary) experience of depression, sadness etc passing through me. Doesn't that feel and resonate differently?  Even better still, shift your focus to what you intend. All of these are merely tools to move us more efficiently to the I AM Presence- the truth of who we are. In that space, all of this will be meaningless and obsolete.

http://www.oprah.com/own-super-soul-sunday/Full-Episode-Oprah-and-Marianne-Williamson-Video

P.S. This is my 200th post- whoopee!

we are unlimited

I am still watching how the mind rules the body. To repeat from yesterday, my blood pressure was very high and I felt a victim of the energies. But by now when I feel off/pain/bad I immediately search my thoughts and found a stinker- that the energies pressure me. I was locked on the thought that they cause me physical discomfort. I decided to let that one go, despite all physical evidence to the contrary. My blood pressure went down 35 points in 10 minutes. Later my bottom pressure was super high but I still told myself I was free to be relaxed and at peace. By nightfall, both pressures were very low!

Today I got up sleepy and grasped some dry cat food I'd left outside- I stuck my hand in the bag and got stung by a wasp. It clung to my finger as I tried to shake it off. I ran around the house looking for this anti venom stuff I have but couldn't find it. So I decided to instruct my body to have no pain or response and it worked! no reaction, pain, swelling etc.

For me, this is convincing proof of how my mind rules my body. Don't we tend to believe the evidence of our bodies? Now I see I need not be limited in any way. Reminds me of the woman who wrote Dying to Be Me. Once she fully grasped her own magnificence in a near death experience, she was cured of incurable cancer within a few weeks despite being given only hours to live by the doctors. Now that is pretty powerful and limitless. Beloveds, this isWho we all are. I know this is meaningless until you too can have the direct experience of what I am speaking of. My great hope is that by sharing my experience, it will be that much easier for you to KNOW the Truth and to be set free with more ease and less suffering than I had to go through to learn. May the road rise up to meet you.

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

power of thought

I am seeing moment to moment the power of my thoughts. I feel my body tense up and then ask- what am I believing/thinking in this moment that is out of alignment with the Truth of who I am, that denies my own magnificence? I always find a culprit. Just now my body was very tense. I was thinking, these energies really impact my body. I took my blood pressure and then had physical proof I was "right" about these energies flipping out my body. But then I realized I was seeing myself as a victim- nope. So I started saying, my body is relaxed, no matter what. These energies give my body power and strength, my body is calm. I took my blood pressure again, maybe 10 minutes later- it was down 35 points on the top measurement- so now I have proof how powerful my mind is- my body obeys what I tell it. Please do your best to focus on uplifting thoughts- not so easy I know. If this is too challenging, I highly recommend a mediation course to support you in being the observer. Sending you oodles of love.

need a laugh?

if you are feeling gloomy- give this a peek.  many insights arising and opportunities for liberation. noticing an intense need to stay vigilant of falling into old fears. when they arise I allow them to pass by like a branch floating down the river. then is passes quickly. i must frequently shift my focus of attention. one little example- a week of heat over 100 degrees- if I am not careful, i think myself into a state of depletion- no thanks. heat is fine with me- it just is. my loves, may you float gently with these energies. know we are in this together and all is well.

http://www.break.com/index/giggling_baby_is_comedians_dream_audience.html

Monday, August 6, 2012

have faith

Beloveds, I highly recommend todays morning blessing. Below is also a quote that struck me from the post.

http://www.angelaperegoff.com/the-week-ahead-08-06-2012/

Relationship breakups are common as well these days. One soul begins to vibrate 
higher and the other soul usually sets the higher vibrating soul free by 
"dumping"
them. If we can know why, and that the "dumping" soul is doing so because of a 
great
love for us and as a great support for our continued growth, we can then know 
that
all is in divine and perfect order. We will all meet up in the end anyway and 
laugh
and cry and hug each other.

Another scenario which is occurring more frequently now is when two souls 
totally
separate to give each soul an opportunity to find itself entirely on its own 
without
having the support or leaning on one another. When each one learns to connect 
individually
to who they really are, to their souls and to Source, they can then find each 
other
again and re-unite. This is why it is becoming more common now for things to 
separate
completely before they can re-unite one again.

And don't stress if you are experiencing great distress over a strong need to no
 longer be alone. In the higher realms, there is no separation. Unity vibrates 
much
higher. As we begin to vibrate higher, we become wired for unity. Thus, being 
alone
no longer feels good or remotely right. It can feel downright uncomfortable at 
best.
Take the prompting as encouragement to seek out new group connections, re-unions
 with family or perhaps relocations where family and friends are, and the like. 
Innately you know it is time for community



I notice my old fear is trying to trick me again. I must stay very vigilant to let the ripples of that pass over me without hanging on or believing that old lie. For me, I must be VERY vigilant not to fall into the old fear big time. I feel it play out in my body and do my best to remain the witness. More on that later.

I would be glad if you would join me in honoring my daughter's birthday yesterday by sending her a wave of love. I celebrate the joy I feel having her Presence bless me and all of us. I would love the idea that she is receiving blessings worldwide. Thank you.