honoring my parents

My mother died when she was exactly as old as I am today. My father died when he was the age I was about a month ago. This is hard for me to comprehend. It feels like their lives were cut tragically short. I have tears of celebration and forgiveness as I write. At one time I feared I too would not live past this age. For years I knew this would not be my fate yet still I want to honor this passage. I want to commemorate my dear mother Ann for showering me with all the love she knew how. I want to honor my father Joseph for giving me what he thought was crucial, a good education. He also gave me the financial freedom to get support to free myself from many wounds. I know he did the best he could and I offer my full and complete forgiveness. I am sure it was not easy for him to have a daughter who was so foreign to his way of being. May there only be love between us from this day forward. May these tears release any remaining wounds and allow them to return to nourish the earth. God bless you both.

fog, control, exhaustion, surrender

It is now several weeks with only a few hours and maybe one day where I don't feel either exhausted, fogged, unclear, wading through molasses or just  depleted. Yesterday I was fine and actually enjoyed functioning. I am noticing how desperately I want to control this. I do everything to try to force myself to sleep longer and it doesn't work. It is so frustrating to be so tired and not be able to sleep. This seems very common right now. Here is what I am getting. A lot of it is just what is up. We are being bombarded with light and in some ways it is frying our nervous systems. I know there are those who are already up to speed and they are just fine. Yet for the rest of us it is a challenge. I know I must surrender and allow this to be as it is. The only times I slept longer was when I stopped fighting it and just allowed it to be as it was, I allowed the sleepless exhaustion. Paradoxically but not surprisingly, then I slept deeply and long. I see us as pioneers, crossing unknown lands with no map, no certainty of any type of end point, of relief. It is hard to endure and keep the faith, at least for me sometimes. Know how courageous you are.
I must also be vigilant against thoughts like: this is never going to end, I can' take it, I did something wrong, I didn't try hard enough, I missed the boat, etc. These sink me faster than a torpedo. I can hardly muster the awareness yet I know what I focus on will be magnified. The main point for me is to love myself, whatever shows up.
My dear friend Uschi told me how when she climbs to the foothills of the Alps to get out of the fog, the fog is always the thickest just before she breaks through to sparkling sunlight. That is the image I had already of what is now occuring. I felt so much clarity when Uschi confirmed my inner vision. Hang in there my loves. My sense is, if you have done your clearing, relief is in sight.

This mediation is powerful for me and helped me sleep deeply one night:

Tom Kenyon, Click here to listen to and/or download the Hathor Heart Chakra Healing Sound Meditation ©2013

light beings, focus, staying alert

Yesterday I felt like laying on my hammock and not moving all day. The inertia of my fogged, tired brain was almost too powerful to resist. Yet my intuition told me to follow through on our plans to explore the Table Top Mountain Ecological Reserve (Preserve?) outside of Oroville, CA. Somehow I managed to haul myself out of the hammock and get going. There were some wonderful moments that penetrated the tiredness, some great laughs. There was also an explosive moment where two egos collided. A few things really stand out. Despite much grumblings, there was about an hour of such peace hanging out under some trees surrounded by munching cows with a gentle breeze stirring the heat. Then we decided to take a detour for an adventure to see Oregon City and it’s covered bridge. The little village had some historical interest. We then drove on the small dirt road until it got a little dicey and we wanted to turn back. The turn was tricky and we got a bit stuck. At the same moment a open jeep came by. I hurried my awkward turn so as not to block the jeep. As we passed the jeep, a beaming face asked me if we were lost. A young man with dreadlocks bathed us with his gorgeous smile. His cholate face was the most beautiful sight in the world in that moment. His face literally radiated light. I felt a transfer of powerful Love. It was magnificent and stays with me in this moment.

A few weeks ago I met an equally magnificent man at the Ananda tulip festival. His face and whole body also radiated such love and light. I am so encouraged by the profusion of Love I am witnessing.

The other important point for me is again about where I focus my attention as it is so quickly magnified. I woke up again feeling unrested and tired. I laid for a few hours hoping to sleep yet felt increasingly tired without sleeping. My day started heading south. I forced myself to clean up the kitchen as it is again in an uproar. Surprisingly, I started to feel better. The same thing happened yesterday. The more I did, the more alert I became. It is so tempting just to lay around and complain in my own mind. I must force myself to move at all. Yet the laying doesn’t rest me. Everyone is unique so see what truly works for you. Just stay vigilant to where you are focusing your attention. My loves, stay calm, know all is well. I send you my love.

Sent from a semi alert being

still befuddled

passing this on in case it helps. I am still in a fog. xoxox s

Aluna Joy

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I have been called out of my little retreat / seclusion zone, to be out in the world to witness and anchor what ever Spirit calls me to do. So we have been called to go out camping on coastal areas in California. Living like a hermit has its benefits, but does have a down side. You loose touch with what is going on out in be world. In the last few days, we can really see the effects this 2013 energy is having on people in the world in general.

The Star Elders say …. We are synchronizers, but also watchers…. and we see that there is a higher percentage of people that are snapping under the Earth’s new pressure cooker energy. Many souls are reacting to the energies with outbursts, anger and acts of violent aggression. We ask you, if you have extra energy that you do not need for your own adjustments, to project a peace to these ones as much as you can. They are your brothers and sisters. This is costing them some karma that will need to be cleared out, but this will be cleared quickly. There is a divine grace and dispensation for these ones, as well as every human being at this time.

Those that don’t release this energy externally (most of which read these posts) are internalizing the energy and are activating themselves hugely! But this also comes with a heavy price as you may already feel. Your bodies are being pushed to the limit and this stretching you so you can contain more and more of this energy without bursting. This is creating a roller coaster, a pressure cooker effect, that is testing you way beyond your normal limits. We hear you cry out for mercy…. and then watch you go inward and beg for release.

We hear your prayers and mantras and mediations to keep yourselves balanced. We are right there with you even though you might not be able to hear us… or feel us…. We know it is hard to know which way is up . . . like if you were violently shoved under the water by a huge wave, and you do not know where the surface now is. We see that many of you worry that you might not make it through this. The release you ask for will come, and you will be stronger than any human race that has walked the Earth. You are already maintaining more energy, light and power than you ever have. Remember . . . YOU are the I AM that I AM … You are presence of GOD within, and that is your unquenchable core that can never be harmed by anything under the sun.

We are there with you, and we see that you are doing this…. To take a physical body into a new realm. It is hard work and urge you to …. Keep on… Keeping On.

~ The Star Elders.

Facebook and a sweet reminder

Beloveds,
I jut took what for me is a hugely brave step and joined Facebook. I am jumping on the initiating wormhole energy to take action toward my darhma and deepest dreams. If you are on Facebook too, please send me a friend request and if I can figure out how to, I will joyfully accept:

Savannah Hanson, Nevada County, CA


and this sweet reminder of Who we are:

http://infiniteshift.wordpress.com

wormhole, intentions, tiredness and antidotes

Beloveds, We are entering another wormhole, a period of three very potent eclipses,  of approximately 4 weeks duration beginning today with a lunar eclipse, then a solar eclipse on the new moon of May 9, followed by another lunar eclipse on the May 24th full moon.

"http://www.thepowerpath.com/index.php/power-path-home/the-power-path/moon-updates/535-full-moon-eclipse-update-4-25-13" 

Now when I first heard this, I felt like I just couldn't muster up any more energy to get excited and really focus my intent. Yes, I know it is vital and I know this wormhole can deposit us in a whole new landscape. Like something out of the old Star Trek series, it can transport us from one galaxy to another, to an entirely different reality. Yes, I know what I focus on is what manifest in my reality. So I will do my best and know it is good and very good. We as a planet are moving ever closer to the frequency of 528 megahertz, the vibration of unconditional Love. Please remember our tools for getting through these times. MOVE (especially when you only want to huddle under the covers), breath deeply, trust,  spend time in nature, do your best to be around uplifting people and circumstance (another one that is not so easy sometimes), keep your eye on the prize of your heartfelt yearnings and desires, love yourself even if you don't manage to make use of even one of my suggestions; this is the most critical opportunity. I know this is all for the good yet sometimes feels like a bit of a slog. I am recognizing I need to take my focus off the challenge and the tiredness and focus more on the amazing shifts and blessings that are showering my life. Yea, yea, I know and maybe I'll do just that after my nap.

 Beloveds, keep the faith as best you can. Know you are not alone. I have tears in my eyes as I write these words as in this exact moment I feel all of our beautiful heart's and soul's vibrating together in the certainty of our unlimited nature, our Essence as Love and Joy. Join me in that knowing if you'd like and feel free to add your intentions for the wormhole. It is very valuable it you can create an intention and carry it through the wormhole, knowing that intention is  what you can receive with the grace of this powerful three eclipse period. So much love to you.

p.s. I am feeling so much more energized and clear after I wrote this as I was focused on what I want (Love, joy, energy, abundance) rather than what I don't want (scarcity and tiredness.)

dancing unity says:

April 24, 2013 at 4:56 pm

I am feeling extra tired and feels like it has gone on longer than usual, more than few weeks with a few life altering blast of days with hyper clarity and energy. Staying out of the thought “when will this end” I realize is crucial as it sinks me. I absolutely know it is taking us Home but worst thought is I won’t have the energy to open the door when I finally arrive!! Jimmy’s message of how it can happen overnight is staying with me and giving me encouragement. Feels hard to gear up for one more wormhole so I guess I won’t. I’ll just let it be what it is and not be concerned how I get through it. I am teaching a new class next week, only able to get one other together in the last few years. Now it feels almost like Mission Impossible yet I trust when the time comes, I will have all the energy I need to do it gracefully. I want to share with you here my intention for the wormhole is to live in graceful abundance of all kinds, especially financial, joy and love. I release any old beliefs that money or investments are my source and affirm my Essence as Divine Love that connects me to the wisdom of the Universe is my Source. I’d love it if anyone wants to join me in sharing their intentions for the wormhole and in holding together for all our intentions to come alive. Blessings savannah

Aliyah Marr says:

April 24, 2013 at 12:20 pm

Hi Hope,

I experienced a month-long respiratory illness last July, so my experience may be of help to you. I had known since the previous November that I could no longer attribute anything physical that I experienced to solely physical causes. In fact, I had learned to view all so-called illnesses in terms of ascension symptoms. An ascension symptom, in my opinion, is an energetic “discordance” between where you (your higher self) want to go, and what you are holding onto in your body or your energetic field.

Emotions are the sticky stuff–the glue–that binds the ions of matter together on this plane. We remember our story, or history, through our emotions, therefore if we can see emotions as CHOICES instead of being victim to them, we can change the course of our lives.

Going from a 3D description to a 5D description of the world takes an adjustment of view. 5D is very light (excuse the pun) while 3D is very heavy. For an emotion to manifest a physical disease in 3D it has to have either a long (mostly unconscious) history, or be very powerful, or both.

The universe interprets emotion as DESIRE on the part of the emoter. This is one thing that is generally misunderstood, and it is critical to understand this process of manifestation as what it is: a mechanism that works without fail, or judgement. In other words, it doesn’t matter to the universe (read your personal subconscious AND the source) whether you are consciously emitting your emotion through focused intent, or unconsciously repeating the emotions you inherited from your mother, or even whether you really want what the universe devoutly delivers to you as a result of your emotions and thoughts.

On the way to 3D, the desire has to pass through 4D, where things manifest very quickly, but are rather easily changed and are very ethereal. If you think of it, viruses are much closer to 4D than to 3D. This gives us true power when we realize how much EASIER it is to use our power of focus to manipulate anything on the 4D level.

I knew that my illness in July was the result of my grief for a life I thought I would have. I was grieving a loss just as if my child had died. In fact, a dream is a child of your mind, just as an infant is a child of your biology, so the grief can be just as visceral and real as that from the loss of a real child.

It took a great deal of patience on my part to deal with this for a whole month, but I knew that the longer I had held this dream, the longer it would take to heal my grief. I had to forgive myself for being ill, for having an impossible dream, and then I had to comfort the “inner child” who still didn’t understand why she couldn’t have what she had wanted. This inner child doesn’t operate with an adult’s sense of time, or with patience, so we have to know how to communicate with it on its level, just as we would have to do with a 5 year old child.

But regardless, I still had a group of psychic healers help me. The last psychic healer was amazing–she helped me break through my barriers. Sometimes you need a little help, so don’t be afraid to ask for it. Ask your guides to deliver exactly what you need, ask for insight and guideposts. Ask for help in whatever form–not as a victim, but in the spirit of willingness to change whatever you need to to align yourself with the designs of your higher self and your soul. This way, YOU are in charge of your healing by allowing the healing when you open up, and decide that you will do whatever it takes to be healthy. In our case, I believe it has to do with aligning all our thoughts, emotions, and desires with our higher selves and our bodies. Surrendering at the level of the self-conscious to the wisdom of the body and the wisdom of the higher self. Using desire consciously without the passion of victim-hood or need. It is taking me a while to fully understand this surrendering of the ego-self.

I hope that my story helps you. You are probably advised to treat your symptoms by conventional means: I am certainly no doctor, and I don’t think I had pneumonia, however I think that it is wise to not overlook the underlying root cause of any dis-ease that shows now, as we seem to be all going through this “purging” of our mental-emotional bodies through our physical bodies on our way to 5D. They say you can’t take it (the dross stuff) with you  Let me know if you need the name of the healer I worked with.

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2. Cindy Mathers says:

   April 23, 2013 at 10:01 pm

   Hi all, I listened to Judy Sartori February Full Moon Transmission several times. Its about self love
   http://www.thesoundoflight.com/index.php?id=486

   In summary there are five things that we need to focus on during this time of major transition
   1. humility – understand and respect our human-ness don’t beat ourselves up!
   2. endurance – keep on keeping on, learn to be and let go of anxiety, we are in the Earth school, relax in the river of light and we will flow down to the sea of light.
   3. compassion – be compassionate to yourself, rest when you need to.
   4. trust – that we have the everything we need to overcome any perceived obstacles.
   5. fortitude – we need to be a rock for ourselves and others and resist the temptation to go back to the old comfort zones and ways of being.

   Judy sees these as the five aspects of being that relate to self love – they all wrap together as one vibration.

   Judy channeled Mother Mary for this information and I was greatly encouraged by it. May it bring hope to those who are currently experiencing the dip, the high will surely come, just remember self love and self nurture. Much love to you all Cindy in Oz

   
   

unclarity and darkness followed by upliftment

Last week I had a clarity that surpassed anything I had ever known. Now for the last few days I am a bit bogged down with confusion and some fear. I am questioning how deeply world events are manipulated by those who are not interested in the highest good. For some time I have also been unclear about my role as a parent as I became aware of how manipulative and controling I could be in attempting to get my daughter to do her school work, because that is my role as a parent, isn't it? To insist she do her school work? Is that for her highest good? I do not yet have clarity so I allow myself to rest in uncertainty, waiting for my inner wisdom to show me how to proceed. There is a certain heaviness to this low grade fear and uncertainty yet this too I must allow.

two hours later:

I see how I was allowing my field to be influenced by outside factors and energies. Happily, I have regrouped and re centered and am slowly again remembering Who I AM, unlimited, untouched, unchangeable. Shew!