excellent summary of the Cellular memory release process

Matt doesn't call it this, yet this summarized the work I do:

Violence is fear in action. Fear is an avoidance of sadness. Sadness is an aversion to loneliness. Loneliness is a denial of emptiness. Emptiness is the presence of being. The presence of being is awakened consciousness. Through an awareness of fear, violence no longer becomes an option. As fear is faced, sadness is encountered. As sadness is encountered, loneliness is acknowledged. As loneliness is acknowledged, emptiness is recognized. As emptiness is recognized, a presence of being is discovered. As a presence of being is discovered -- consciousness awakens.

In noticing how the deepest pain inevitably leads to your most profound spiritual discovery, I invite you to support the end of violence by acknowledging any discomfort as a catalyst of your highest evolution. As you take the time to face what is unresolved in your heart, waves of high vibrational energy are sent throughout the field of consciousness. With each wave entering each energy field, it inspires those who use violence to avoid their soul’s journey to come out hiding and surrender at last. This is the heart of transformation www.truedivinenature.com

Heaven, hell, depleted, benevolent, water

Beloveds,

I had two energized and pleasant days with once extremely enjoyable evening. I have had the chance to swim in clear, crystal mountain waters which I swear is a significant part of what keeps me afloat. Then last night I woke up after less than a few hours sleep. I tired everything to go back to sleep from my chi machine, reading The Course in Miracles and then a hot bath. When I tried to turn off the water of the tub, it would not twist off. I tried in a panic for about 10 minutes then woke my daughter as she is generally very clever with these things. She too failed. Then I called my adorable wasband who was awake and helped us shut down the water to the whole house. The valve had changed when we got a water filter and I could not figure it out on my own. The one miracle was I was able to not react one someone was very grumpy and attacking. Yet again I feel so depleted and discouraged. For those two days all felt so benevolent I wondered I could ever doubt. Now the day looms like an endless tunnel to crawl through. One day my energy is pristine and creative, the next flat lined and dead. Schizophrenia anyone? I share this as it is part of my mission to do my best to normalize this journey and lend encouragement.  Yet sometimes the road seems soooo long and soooo arduous. Will it ever be easy and graceful,
P L E A S E !!!! Today I must do my best to love my own discouragement, depletion, exhaustion and indifference.   All while praying I get a Saturday plumber! This is potent energy, may it carry you gently in its waves.

follow your bliss solstice

Beloveds,
Wishing you light and joy for the solstice. For me the energy shifted big time on Wednesday night. I had a gorgeous afternoon today and most enjoyable evening; complete turn around from the previous anxiety/depression. I had a swim in pristine mountain waters, a wonderful dinner outside by a splashing lily pond with soulful guitar music and delightful company. The sense of joy was almost a new experience, perhaps as it is now accompanied by a peaceful nervous system. OMG game changer indeed. 

OMG

Beloveds,
I am sitting out on my deck. A moment ago an owl flew just above my head, tried to land on the dragon heart flag/banner i have hanging just above my head, fluttered there briefly before flying away. Holy moley that is some kind of potent sign. For me it confirms the post i completed just minutes ago. Will look up the symbolism and would love anyone's take on it. What is very potent is that this occurred in broad daylight about 10:33 a.m. Bringing darkness into light? Wow, POTENT!
I just read that the owl is often associated with the Illuminati so very meaningful that it flew, in the light, into a heart embraced by two dragon heads. Will try to post photo of this flag so you see what i mean.

Fun fact: I have been more productive in the last hour and a half then in the previous 8 1?2 days where everything felt like pulling teeth!

Yea, finally got photo posted below. My computer TOTALLY has a mind of its own lately.

game changer

Shew baby this little energetic frequency is INTENSE to say the least. And while i did my best to love the part of me feeling depressed and inadequate, felt so finished with the whole process, i must admit loving my exaustion and depression was basically going over like a lead balloon. I actually popped out of the extreme exhaustion and anxious feeling tone ( i choose to no longer label it anxiety) last night during my Thai cooking class. Was it the Thai coffee or the keifer lime leaves? Who cares? The crippling feeling formerly known as anxiety in my spine and lower back is basically gone. Interestingly enough, I semi knowingly ate some food that was a bit off before the class and so last night I was releasing big time, how can i put this delicately? in the nether regions. O.K. kids, something major is afoot. While i knew this intellectually even s it occurred, i must say that finding it benevolent escaped me.
Yet this is the most potent energy i have experienced in a L O N G time. The grand cross was more intense for a short period yet this one was very intense for  much longer period. I am hearing and sensing this is a major opportunity for those ready to grab the reins and ride this bucking bronco into an amazing future. No, it ain't easy and everyone i speak to with  one exception (the local librarian) has been physically wiped out at one or more points. So my darlings I am urging you to keep the faith, trust and hang in there. Hopefully soon we will begin to get the energetic pay off from this pile of sh *i. 

it's O.K.

The way my body has been feeling for the last week, it would be super easy to go back to my self blame, need to fix this broken me story. Yet  since my rebirth day May 8th I have not relapsed into that old conditioning. Part of me wants to go into victim, the "enough already" saga.
Everyone I ask is needing more sleep, falling asleep suddenly, etc. Something is definitely rock and rolling. Blessings Beloveds on this passage. Doing my best to trust all is well. Finding functioning hard again. sigh... Yet at the same time I have had more social engagements in the last eight days then since college I think and I enjoyed them! So up, down all around. My mind can not grasp what the  *&^%$#$%^ is up so I will use my fall back position, trust, mostly because not trusting is so painful. I don't really have a clue so that will just have to do. hoho

meditation for global prosperity on solstice

Our sister Sanna has brought this to my attention and I encourage each of us to participate in this global effort to bring prosperity and balance to the world economy.

http://www.therainbowscribe.com/solsticeitsbig.htm


for myself, I have been contemplating lately how scarcity is one of my most constant current teachers. Just as I've learned so much from anxiety, overwhelm, insomnia and co-dependency this is another powerful guide to assist me in letting go of outdated conditioning and beliefs and embrace my own unlimited nature. let's join together and break the shackles that have enslaved us for so long.