dropping into your heart

The Mystic’s Message

by Ray Rolando

DROPPING INTO YOUR HEART –

Have you heard that term before? Do you know what it means? Are you generally a logical person? Yes, you are. You use your mind to get through your day, prioritize things, ensure you get paid, ensure there is food on the table, etc.

However, you are a light worker. Hmmm… what a conflict?! How do you go to work in your daily routine, knowing the things you know about things NOT actually being routine? How do you exist in the workplace with people stuck in 3D dramas? How do you exist around those constantly pointing fingers, blaming others for everything in their life, and taking zero responsibility for anything, including EVERYTHING you have watched them manifest and create? By accepting that this is their journey and that yours is knowing better, staying in your heart.

You might be asking, “But how do I drop into my heart amidst the anger that arises that I must exist in BOTH worlds?” If so, the answer is GRATEFULNESS. Be grateful for “them”. Forget the teachings for a moment that they are part of you, etc, etc. Just FIND happiness in the moments where you recognize how far you have come. They are your best teachers. They are completely serving you, and your light is serving them.

Remember, just to be a human being, with a consciousness that allows choice means that we are ALL enlightened. To what degree? Well, that is where grace and choice begin to come together. You see, you have the grace to have some of the highest teachings on life that exist on the planet. You have the choice whether or not to live by them or visit them every once in a while. If you CHOOSE to live by them, then your brilliance will grow and delight in it. If you CHOOSE not to live by them, then you will suffer.

If you are suffering, then there are basic teachings you need to revisit. Surrendering doesn’t mean looking at someone in your field more successful than you and thinking, “What am I not doing?! Oh well…” No surrendering means KNOWING that you are exactly where you are for a reason, or many reasons actually and that you are burning off karma at a rate you cannot even understand. YES, THIS ABSOLUTELY REQUIRES A FEELING OF UNREQUITED TRUST!!! However, that is just a feeling. In fact, you are being rewarded far more than you most often would like to admit. Isn’t that true? I mean, think of the grace you have because you know the things you know.

Less than 3% of the population of the planet has been exposed to such teachings to date… or at least in a way that they would know it and have the opportunity to say thank you. So consider yourself one of the lucky few. With that territory comes some other things that allow you to feel alone, but ONLY if you choose this. Realize, loved one, that you are absolutely making choices to feel certain ways in every moment.

So, look around yourself now. Find one thing you are grateful for… one thing that has absolutely changed your life in some magical way over the last six months, and say, “Thank you.” from the bottom of your heart. And this action will bring you back there.

When you are too “heady”, find a way to say thank you and this will bring you back into your heart where transformation happens so much faster when you are in non-resistance. Ans, believe us, you are doing SO much better than you think you are.

With so much love in my heart for you,

You are LOVEDLOVEDLOVED……… THE MYSTIC

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Just read and loved this, this is what is up for me. From the mystics message on the cosmic path:

If you are suffering, then there are basic teachings you need to revisit. Surrendering doesn’t mean looking at someone in your field more successful than you and thinking, “What am I not doing?! Oh well…” No surrendering means KNOWING that you are exactly where you are for a reason, or many reasons actually and that you are burning off karma at a rate you cannot even understand. YES, THIS ABSOLUTELY REQUIRES A FEELING OF UNREQUITED TRUST!!! However, that is just a feeling. In fact, you are being rewarded far more than you most often would like to admit. Isn’t that true? I mean, think of the grace you have because you know the things you know.

Less than 3% of the population of the planet has been exposed to such teachings to date… or at least in a way that they would know it and have the opportunity to say thank you. So consider yourself one of the lucky few. With that territory comes some other things that allow you to feel alone, but ONLY if you choose this. Realize, loved one, that you are absolutely making choices to feel certain ways in every moment.

So, look around yourself now. Find one thing you are grateful for… one thing that has absolutely changed your life in some magical way over the last six months, and say, “Thank you.” from the bottom of your heart. And this action will bring you back there.

When you are too “heady”, find a way to say thank you and this will bring you back into your heart where transformation happens so much faster when you are in non-resistance. Ans, believe us, you are doing SO much better than you think you are.

With so much love in my heart for you,

You are LOVEDLOVEDLOVED……… THE MYSTIC

June gratitude and abundance

lots to be grateful for:

huge healing seeing Amma, fun time with college boyfriend, wonderful trip with Karin, going to the river with kids on last day of school, cool mornings and evenings, deer passing by, TWYH, phone call with new friend Aliyah, gorgeous new bracelet, last day of school, cappuccino, new wisdom and understanding, time and space for my inner growth, wisdom, such intimacy and harmony with daughter, KNOWING my role and value, healing my cracked identity, all of you. the river, waterfall, friendship, hugs, skills support daughter and riding a wave of loss and grief, school's over, pizza, Lucia, air conditioning, community, releasing guilt and unworthiness. fun dinner, in town beating the heat, not getting up for school, increasing feelings self worthy, deeper understanding our true nature, innate sense the journey is worth the price, increasing stamina and trust cool morning! slept almost 9 hours, hugs, interesting conversations, cool breeze in this moment, connecting to fascinating people, finding my tribe at TWYH (thinkwithyourheart.com), increasing awareness and understanding, increased appreciation of my own value, time in silence, beauty, friendship. cool morning, deep sleep. freezing at night, yum!, instant answer to a prayer for information, loving support, clear guidance, writing class, bird song, wasband cutting grass, COOL MORNING, MADE IT TO YOGA, SUCH A CREATIVE DAY YESTERDAY, DINNER CELEBRATION FOR END OF WRITNG CLASS, feeling clear and powerfully creative yesterday, daily more clearly seeing my own value and the blocks that keep self doubt in place, the joy of writing., harmony with daughter, health coach session, cool days, unexpected healing session, silence, space, relative financial freedom, healthy, many insights, community, understanding, intimacy, shifts, hot springs, abundance, peace, waterfalls, generosity, mini miracles, rain, cold!!, slippers, day to myself, endurance, Virginia City, beauty, bunny O.K. after accident, growing plants, birds, my reliable and gorgeous painted car, intuition, opportunities, minuscule faith, slept almost 9 hours, sound of rain, enjoying writing and editing my piece for writer's group, so much time to myself, Moonlight is ok after accident, inner love increasing, constantly increasing insight and clarity, easy 43 hour fast, increased acceptance, coll night, sleep tight, wonderful pot luck with delicious food, great company, writing group outside on the deck, slept great, friendship with Janah, cleaned my bathroom!, house much more organized and clean and I didi it!, breezes, plants doing well, Moonlight fine, calmer, straightened out tickets, lovely evening for party, driveway repaired, caused hardly anything and I thought could be VERY expensive

healing a cracked identity

Another unedited comment I posted on TWYH. ( Warning: My writing teacher tells us it is inappropriate almost always to extend unpolished writings yet for me the energy of transformation is so intense, I do not have the space now to polish what i write. REad at your own risk.)

Huge realizations pouring in for me daily. June feels so much more spacious and light than May. May was a humdinger for me energetically. Here are some of the things I am discovering. 

The primary thing is a shifted identity. I see how in so many ways I saw myself as defective or inadequate. My relative calling me an irresponsible numbskull is so wonderful for me now as over 20 years later I get the gift, recognizing how I accepted that definition of myself. Combined with my other relative’s comment about whether or not she dared mention the “j” word, J. O. B., it ties together to help me now witness how not having a full-time job since 1987 (harmonic conversion) and not having a regular source of income (irresponsible numbskull) wove together with societal expectations of success to create this cracked identity, despite all my intent, focus, hopes, healing to reverse those false concepts. I am now recognizing how a large part of me still bought it. I saw myself as somehow wasting my life (know that this was all at a fairly unconscious level) by sitting around processing energy. Reading Eckhart Tolle’s A New Earth about what he calls frequency holders brought tears to my eyes as I began to witness some value to my life. Yet deep inside, I still judged myself and wondered why I couldn’t just be “normal.” Part of me was waiting for the day when I would just wake up and kick into gear.

Flash to now. Daily I have a felt sense of my contribution and value. I witness how I have a level of understanding and consciousness that is still quite rare. Even people I respect and think must have themselves together because they published books, are accomplished teachers, are yoga masters I often find are still limited by judgment or a dark view of the current world. I see so much progress and change and feel deeply encouraged. I see so much love and compassion and feel glad, finally, to be human.

I can not describe what it feels to wake up daily with an increased appreciation and understanding of my contribution and value. It is a paradigm shift for me and so delicious. As I embrace myself with incredible love, as the feeling of coming home to myself increases, as my need for others’ love or approval diminishes to almost nothing, it as though I have done a complete shift. It is surprising to me that I could not see myself clearly before. I am only glad that now I do and I hope to share that wisdom here in the hopes that anyone who may still be lost in self loathing will wake up and see their exquisite beauty.

I was at Amma yesterday. She is known as the Divine Mother and for me is the embodiment of unconditional love. Being in her presence blew another awareness into me. It relates to what Sara was saying about abundance (on THWH) and not truly trusting that new earth is real. Sara, for me your contribution is clear and very valuable and certainly not too detailed or long. Reading it after returning from Amma helped me anchor what my realization was. This part was particularly critical:

 “I am trusting this to be a clearing of a very deep level of fear that this whole new earth thing isn’t going to work (can’t believe that’s still there but it is!). That no matter how lovely it feels/looks and how much it seems we have done it, it could be taken away/get reversed/be fake. I think this is actually where all this is coming from because it’s about being thrown back into a world that runs on money and fear, and having none whilst being in it because I spent it all in a spiritual delusion (this is making me chuckle but it is apparently a hugely real fear!). Plus Atlantis/Lemuria etc where this ‘didn’t work’, which is coming up for clearing now.”

Here’s what unfolded for me. I always buy a bracelet worn by Amma when I am there to help anchor the frequency of unconditional love in my body. I bought one a little pricer than usual. Later I saw an extraordinary bracelet I wanted. It was very expensive by my standards. Obsessing about the bracelet, I could not concentrate on being with Amma. The energy felt so intense I could not even stay in the hall where she was. I had to be outside to try to manage the intense squeezing in my skull ( wished it was numb ha) As I considered buying the bracelet, a million judgments were coming up: you can’t afford it, are you crazy, you are greedy, you are selfish, you are irresponsible, etc. I had to stay outside as my mind circled about buying the bracelet or not. Plus I’m thinking, yea, real spiritual. You are going berserk trying to decided about some bracelet when all the other spiritual people are chanting so nicely and focusing on service and world peace while you are focused on acquisition. Slap, slap. Upper cut to the jaw, you little spiritual faker. Get a life. Etc. The pressure in my skull was so intense I thought the top of it would just blow off. The pressure increased and like a maniac I kept going back and trying on the bracelet, than leaving it. I hid this shopping mania from my friend as I didn’t want her to know what a shallow, materialistic creature I was. I managed not to buy it, knowing how ungrounded I was. Then it was finally time for darshan, for getting in line to receive my hug from Amma ( she has hugged many millions of people, bestowing her love amma.org) 

I was still very distracted by my shopping question. This sort of dilemma was very common to me for many years and recently returned after many years absence in one other memorable situation with similar dynamics, berating myself for taking a vacation I couldn’t really afford and buying some beautiful but expensive (by my standards) clothes. As the line moved forward, I slowly started to calm down. By the time I was close to Amma, I felt serene and was crying. Her embrace was exceptionally long and deliciously loving. I sat bathed in love and self acceptance afterwards. The pressure was gone. I was at peace.

So here’s what I realized. The whole situation came up to help me heal this whole belief in scarcity, in me being irresponsible. Like Sara, a part of me doubts this is real and I am thus afraid to act on any belief in abundance, to take my beliefs to the bank so to say. It is irresponsible to spend when I don’t have certain income, is what I was telling myself.  I also chose to repair my car rather than keep a very large check from the insurance. Yet I was filed with doubt. What if this feeling inside of abundance and faith is a chimera. What if I crash and burn as I did in Lemuria. All that stuff. The pressure in my head was the incredible weight of my own doubt and self judgment. Being near Amma literally blew it out my crown chakra and I reached greater clarity about my purpose, my value, my wealth, my true nature. And yea, I bought the bracelet and is it very spectacular. Why shouldn’t I since I have unlimited abundance, right?

wonderful video from Abhram

liked both Abraham videos especially the goosebump one:

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hugs xoxoxox

the power of self love

Two big awarenesses dropped in. Again I have to steal my unedited comment on TWYH. I am feeling subtle yet major inner shifts for the better. YEA! Will see Amma tomorrow. YUM!


Two big awarenesses dropping into my heart. The more I work with my projected upset with my relative for calling me an irresponsible numbskull the more I own that was my own stinkin'thinkin'. I saw a not so well made yet sweet DVD yesterday maybe called Bonds of Love? with Treat Williams about a man with an IQ of 58 who married a women who had had a very traumatic life with lots of emotional stuff. It is based on actual events. His family tried to legally forbid the marriage and the doctor asked the woman why she would want to marry a man with such problems, She said because he loves me. He was always telling her how beautiful and amazing she is. Made me realize how often I tell myself the reverse and I had tears in my eyes in my yoga class as I kept kissing myself. I felt such love and appreciation for myself and such sadness at my own self judgment. How critical it is that we love ourselves and refuse to speak one word, think one thought against ourselves. Our love has such amazing power for healing.

The second is how I have made myself a puppet to money. I spent 2 1/2 years intensely releasing my need for other people's love once I saw what a puppet I was to that need. It was the hardest thing I've ever done and I had spent 2 decades gearing up for that transformation. Yet I did it at about 90% level and what freedom. Saw today how I've done the same with money, made myself small and kow towed to it. I see how I have given it power over me and it is so engrained in our thinking about survival I can hardly even imagine it is possible not to be a slave to it. There is no end to the need for money, no safety there, no security because whatever you do, it can be yanked. There is no freedom there: investments can go down, $ can be stolen, you can be fired, literally no way to be safe if one depends on money for living. This is why so many of us have been hit at the most basic level, health and money, to wake up to the fact that we have been giving out power away and seeing ourselves as limited by being puppets to a power outside ourselves. WE must claim our abundance and health as an inner knowing otherwise we are slaves forever. I am ready to claim my freedom. Lightworkers unite! Actually I am also seeing it is time to stop identifying as a light worker, for me has it's own limitations. I am "just" me. Me or I is everything, there is nothing more, beyond the totality of my I AM. 

guides and symptoms

I am feeling a bit more human yet still not able to write much except on TWYH in response to comments. I am choosing to pass on this unedited writing in the hopes it may serve others in some way. Sending love as we go through this massive transition! I will be blessed to be able to hug the "hugging saint" Amma this Tuesday. I will add all of you to my energy so if you feel a blast of love Tuesday you'll know why.

I have been having intense hot flashes, a little vertigo and nausea. I was facilitating my class during the moon void phase Tuesday and everyone's voice sound so loud and were pounding in my head. Then Wednesday around the same time, late afternoon, a strong energy woman was talking to me as my body heated up to melting and I had to leave the restaurant, daughter inside, to go outside and breath.

My biggest positive symptom is a feeling of unity, connection, intimacy and connecting love. I am generally at peace and much more trust is coming in. I have no clue how "problems" will be resolved yet for the most part am able to release them to the Universe for resolution. And having the animals show up is lovely although today a very weird bug, almost like a scorpion but one I have never seen and had to toss out of the house.

I have a new guide named Astartay, has anyone ever heard that name? (someone let me know it is Astarte, beautiful goddess of fertility and sexual love, Phoenician). She said mine is an archetypal journey, like the Inanna myth (www.halexandria.org/dward387.htm) where I had to be taken to the underworld and everything removed- eyes, skin, hair until I was reduced to bare bones so I could rise as the embodiment of the Divine. Again, she said it is very rare for people to have the willingness and courage to be willing to release ALL their ego. This is what created the heaviness that has plagued my life. She said it has been more difficult for me than for most people. Yet I sense some on this site are on the same archetypal journey and thus will reap the same rewards, Christ consciousness embodied. She swears I'll wake up 2014 feeling 100 pounds lighter. I am not willing to give any date any power yet it sounds good. 

We are changing an entire planetary code and way of being that has existed for millennium, it does not make sense to me that it can be over from one day to the next and for everyone in the same timing. I have heard numerous times that my way of being is what will do the primary healing for others by enticing them to want to know how I created such an amazingly wonderful life- yes, I must stretch my imagination on that one. Really hope the physical symptoms decrease as I am flying to Europe in July form California and right now I can sometimes barely make it to town. And if not, of course mutiny then is still an option.