new moon and astrological new year

Today is the new moon and I understand another huge portal and energy influx. Given the intensity, if it feels strong to you, I recommend you rest as much as possible,  S L O W    D O W N.
Spend time in nature, move your body. All these are excellent tips if they work for you. Breath. I also understand it is the astrological new year and the ideal time to seed our intentions for the year. Perhaps write them down, dance them, shout them to the wind, sing them, move them. And if all of that makes you feel tired, take a nap. It's all good.

And a gorgeous new site a beloved just led me too. Speaks so clearly to the same intent my blog is about, gives the same message in enlivening language. Check it out:

http://johnsmallman.wordpress.com/2013/03/31/when-you-are-focused-on-third-dimensional-issues-you-are-only-about-1-present/

spinning the joy thread NOW

  Lately I have been feeling anything but joyful. I have had heavy emotions and thoughts and yesterday could barely function for part of the day. Today the air is so crisp and clear and I feel good, even a taste of joy! It is inspiring me to repost this delicious poem with alterations in my answer to this poem. Feel free to add your additions in the comments. We are coming up on another huge portal on the 11th, I understand. Let's pass through with joy. ANd if you feel like sh*t, enjoy being non joyful as I have had to do countless times. Love to us all.

This poem inspired me to form a powerful intention to declare myself for joy about five years ago. I lost track of it and someone just forwarded it to me. (2010) Let's ALL DECLARE OURSELVES FOR JOY!!!!! What a perfect poem for the this next portal.

The poem is Testament (Or Homage to Walt Whitman) by Erica Jong.

     I, Erica Jong, in the midst of my life,

     having had two parents, two sisters,

     two husbands, two books of poems

     & three decades of pain,

     having cried for those that did not love me

     & those who loved me- but not enough

     & those whom I did not love-

     declare myself now for joy

    

     There is pain enough to nourish us everywhere;

        it is joy that is scarce...

     Unhappiness is cheap,

          Childhood is a universal affliction.

          I say to hell with the analysts of minus & plus

          the life-shrinkers, the diminishers of joy.

     I say to hell with anyone

          who would suck on misery

          like a pacifier

          in a toothless mouth.

          I say to hell with gloom...

     Doom is cheap

          If the apocalypse is coming,

          let us wait for it in joy...

     I resolve myself for joy.

     If that resolve means I must live alone,

          I accept aloneness.

     If the joy house I inhabit must be

          a house of my own making,

          I accept that making...

     No joy-denyer can deny me now.

          For what I have is undeniable.

          I inhabit my own house,

          the house of joy...

     The soul is contagious.

          One man catches another's

          like the plague;

          & and we are all patient spiders

          to each other.

     If we can spin the joy thread

          & also catch it-

     If we can be sufficient to ourselves,

          we need fear no entangling webs...

     How to spin joy out of an empty heart?

     The joy-egg germinates even in despair.

     Orgasms of gloom convulse the world;

          & and the joy-seekers huddle together.

     We meet on the pages of books & by beachwood fires,

     We meet scrawled blackly in many-folded letters.

     We know each other by free & generous hands,

     We swing like spiders on each other's souls.

Reading this inspired me to further my intention to declare myself for love, for joy, for self acceptance. I invite you to join me and pass it on.

     I, Savannah Hanson, in the midst of my life,

          having two parents, two siblings,

          one former husband, one child, three careers,

          & over four decades of pain.

          Having cried and despaired for those who did not love me

          & those who loved me-but not enough

          & those who I loved-but not enough

          & those whom I did not love

          & for not loving myself, for wanting to leave this gorgeous planet for a better place, for not being able to love with my whole being, for feeling lost and devastated, confused and incapable, unworthy and weak, empty and meaningless, heavy

declare myself forJOY!!!

In this moment on April 9, 2013 I declare myself to embody and live in joy, noticing the beauty and the wonder, reaching out with open arms to embrace life, to embrace you, to embrace the suffering and magic of this spectacular planet, to say a giant 

YES

to the whole magnificent tapestry, to live with my heart wide open to all that I meet, to be limitless power dancing unity, to undulate with the moment, frolicking through life's gifts, capably allowing it to be as it is, in vibrant health, with amazing abundance and wealth, in  joyous celebration of all that we are and all that we do, caressing it all with tender love.

deep breathing and balance

My loves, my intuition is telling me to incorporate deep breathing to assist me in remembering ever more fully Who I AM. I have committed to at least a month of a daily deep breathing/ meditation practice I just discovered to support me in staying in balance during these very potent transition times. I share it here in case it speaks to any of you. Beloveds, I send you courage, faith, wisdom, strength, love and joy as we surf these powerful waves of transformation. May we all Know with every cell of our being Who we truly are.
Here is the technique I am using.

http://www.ronnastar.com/messages-aam/messages-aam/638-aam-12-2012.html

The post below explains the infinity breath used in the meditation above.

http://www.dewegvanhethart.com/lichtwerk/InfinityBreathMeditation.html 

forgiveness and living one's purpose

I just read an excellent article on forgiveness I want to share with you. I share it here.
http://www.thepowerpath.com/index.php/power-path-home/the-power-path/articles/articles-by-jose-stevens/518-new-article-by-jose-stevens-the-power-of-forgiving-yourself-and-the-world

Here is also a lovely post from Archangel Michael to provide encouragement:
http://the-golden-age.blogspot.com/2013/04/traversing-upward-passageway-into.html#more

I had a dream last night about my beloved teacher Mary. I somehow ended up in her house uninvited. She looked startled yet was kind. I asked how she was doing and she said excellent and I felt the resonance of how fantastic she was feeling spread through me like an elixir. I KNEW in that moment that she was experiencing so much joy and abundance despite the intensity of the energies because she was fully living her life's purpose. (I have known her 20 years and she has not visibly aged one bit.) I KNEW the same would be true for me. Afterwards I tried to find my car in the underground parking lot yet I couldn't find it anywhere. I went into the mall to ask directions and there was a valet parking lot and a regular parking lot. The valet parking  was very exclusive. I still didn't find my car in either. I was walking down a sidewalk and a man offered to help carry my things. I believe he was foreign and I was a little suspicious yet I let him help me. Then someone else came to help and again I felt a bit afraid yet allowed it. I can't remember the rest.
Normally I am not so good at dream interpretation yet this one is fairly clear. I know living my life purpose will eliminate the feeling of heaviness that still often plagues me. I am feeling stuck in this quest. The car represents movement and is underground, lost. I think there are valet purpose and more mundance. I recently found myself judging my life compared to all my uncle's accomplishments. I need to release that very false belief. I am ready to accept support and help in clearing this stickiness and finding my way, living my purpose even though the support may feel very foreign. I would be wise to trust and allow this support. Pretty good, huh?
I am getting huge awarenesses about the function and purpose of the body, about releasing the need to plan and control and about how absolutely essential it is to be vigilant about my thoughts and negative self images as they are the creative force in my life. I hear myself making limiting statements and am now self correcting. I caught myself planning for the potential for future illness or scarcity and quickly erased. I see where all of this is headed more clearly than ever. It is also critical for me not to resist this clearing, this release of obstacles. To be honest, I have generally viewed incoming energy waves with trepidation given how they often affect my body and mind despite knowing how much liberation they eventually bring. Yet since February when that resistance took me into a bottomless well of meaninglessness and despair, I have to stay away from that error, but big time.

I plan to teach an introductory class to abundance as I am absolutely clear on one thing; all abundance, all life, all love and joy come from Remembering Who we are. This is the key TO EVERYTHING. It is essential I stay vigilant to anything that speaks, feels, suggests limitation or scarcity. I  understand abundance does not come from planning and scheming. It comes from knowing with every cell of my being my essence as love and joy. And same for you, my sweethearts. May we all remember.

spin out, addiction, I Am, CMR. law of attraction

I am noticing how quickly I can spin out of control and land in murky waters. Last week I revisited my sugar/shopping addiction and could not help but notice they REALLY don't work. but really. just read how addiction can be really intense now yet it is also the perfect time to release them if one is committed. I am right on target as this month I had committed to another food release program where I intend to have little or no sugar. (I will gage this as inner sense directs). I have spun out 3-4 times in the last 24 hours. I am witnessing how I can now longer afford that. Reading this post helped me understand why this is so.

http://www.thepowerpath.com/index.php/power-path-home/the-power-path/monthly-forecast/526-april-monthly-forecast

I see how quickly I can be caught in the momentum of a downward or upward spiral. Having been caught in a few life destroying vortexes, I am choosing to be very vigilant and catch and reverse the downward spiral. How best to do that? For me this is an art that one must develop for oneself. Sometimes it serves me to dive deeply into the emotions and fully allow it as taught in Cellular Memory Release :http://www.cellularmemory.org or google cellular memory release by Luis Diaz

As a 4 on the enneagram this is my tool of choice. Yet lately I am noticing if not used with complete honesty I can easily spiral into a negative, victim pity pool. So I am noticing it is often better for me to use tools from Abraham and law of attraction such as this one I posted yesterday:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_u1aeHwLBQ

or try googling Abraham Hicks -- Cleaning Resistance, April 1, 2012

Yet the one that stops me in my tracks is calling on my I AM Presence. I watched the DVD Awake in the Dream yesterday that helped reinforce that; i felt my myself spin out three times already today and had to take time to recenter in my own Essence. Seems like it is mandatory in these intense times. Luckily this time around I see the value and understanding I am gaining from going though these experience. I am accessing so much freedom and neutrality. I also sense and hear that it continues to be vital to move our bodies and spend time in Nature in order to absorb these higher energies. I feel myself begin to spin as I rush for time so I will respect my own boundaries and wish you godspeed in these exciting time. 

embodied bliss and abundance- April

Because times are so intense it is easy to get stuck in "the problem" whatever it may be. To antidote that I am creating a forum (or maybe a monologue) to share our joy. I will post five or more things I am finding joy (now with a focus on at least one moment of EMBODIED joy) in each day. I'll do it for as long as it feels good. Feel free to add your list in the comments or to do it at home on your own. Know that if you choose to do this you will be adding to the aggregate joy of the planet and right now she needs it. It will train our attention to focus on joy (EMBODIED joy in particular) and thus, by law of attraction, our joy MUST increase. 

I am also realizing I need to focus on abundance as lately my attention has been diverted to lack, especially financial lack so I am know adding abundance to my list. Below is a wonderful exercise that helps turn our attention to what will lift our energy. 
It was published a year ago today, April 1, 2012: 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_u1aeHwLBQ

or try googling Abraham Hicks -- Cleaning Resistance, April 1, 2012

I would be delighted if you would like to add your joy list in the comments!!!
4/1/13
- more clarity
- calmer
- appreciating the abundance and beauty of my surroundings
- tears of connection for my Uncle and his family
- DVD Awake in the Dream
- listening to Abraham UTube's and shifting my energy
- feeling my I AM presence 
-many lovely easter gift's from wasband
- his support with lawn and driveway
- knowing my daughter has a fun day planned
4/2
- much more clarity how to stay centered
- beautiful healing with father while listening to meditation in special features of Awake in the Dream
- very productive
- neutral when Horacio no-showed
- tea with Karin and Michael
- hug from Jan
- lovely conversation at gym
- able to pull out of nosedives more consciously
- greater understanding of law of attraction and how applies to abundance
4/3
- delicious kundalini yoga class in my town
- getting so much done
- good DVD
- mail up and out
- less procrastination
- abundance to take fitness classes
4/4
- sound of rain
- fantastic night of sleep
- new clarity about health and role of the body
- staying mostly centered in previously difficult circumstance
- increased understanding of the mind's role in abundance of all shapes
4/5
- made $13.50 with selling unused items
- resolved sticky morning conflict without drama or charge
- good water aerobics 
- seemingly new car situation will get resolved
- slept fine enough
- cuddles
- reading Little House on the Prairie together
4/6
- new lawn mower
- cut grass
- burned wood
- support
- seeing daughter ride
- staying balanced again in challenging situation
- better understanding wasband's feelings/needs and expressing my own
- new gnome
4/7
- lovely party at Luis's
- seeing friends I had not seen in years
- staying centered and ground in a crowd
- not being addictive
- meaningful conversations
- feeling connected in my body while surrounded by so many people
- feeling neutral acceptance and almost a sense of endearment for previously irritating ego quirks of others
- getting at a cellular level how others' ego patterns are mere defenses against some level of inadequacy and thus finding them somehow touching and yes, endearing
4/8
- yoga in the morning
- daughter's abundance
- time to be still
- possible abundance opportunity
- owl hooting
- Moonlight's thumping warning
- my home
4/9
- feeling good again!!
- feeling lighter- 
- able to function again
- lowest weight in over 20 years
- coast is clear; can see over 80 miles to coastal range, so crisp and beautiful
- lovely breath meditation
- getting things done effortlessly
- gorgeous bird songs
-slept well over 8 hours!
- feeling hopeful
- many wonderful events upcoming
- recognizing and releasing heavy thoughts and feelings
4/10
- incredibly blessed, light, enjoyable day yesterday
- knowing the lightness came from an inner state of being
- incredibly productive and able to function
- tears of joy at the beauty of my environment, the birds, the green, the mountains, all of it!
- wonderful new yoga class; teacher has delicious energy
- new skills arriving including powerful awareness and psychic powers
- such peace and acceptance
- cleaned my bedroom!
- clearing papers
- staying centered in conflict
4/11
- little sleep yet staying mostly out of story
- family harmony
- resolving differences
- beautiful bird songs
- support and love from Jan
- getting to sit near my friends at Kane's
- seeing far
- certainty of purpose
- certainty this is all for our highest good
- certainty of support
4/12
- Karin being super supportive in very challenging situation
- major drama resolved with minimal fallout
- feeling more centered today
- Horacio's wisdom and support
- fantastic and eye opening conversation with a parent
- possible fascinating student for my class
- lots of ideas percolating
- feeling more hope and possibility
- feeling more capable
4/13
- greater understanding of my primary fear
- cool evenings
- reading sweet book together
- harmony
- lots of ideas for my class
- feeling of certainty (however fleeting) that all will be well
- wonderful resources available for free on the internet
4/14
- actually enjoyed my volunteer training
- met some new people
- gorgeous strawberries
- not pulled by shopping/sugar challenges,much freedom in a new way!
-lovely, cool day
- tulip festival
- connecting with people with such pure energy
- hanging out on deck with loved ones
- quick tasty dinner with family and friend
- great DVD "The Help."
4/15
- good night of sleep
- yoga helping balance body
- some free cranial sacral work
- wonderful student for my class
- Karin pulling off miracle
- Tel Aviv checking into this blog as I was updating- connection!!
4/16
- fantastic new writing course
- ability to do a lot even though feeling physically flat lines
- wonderful temple lead by Chameli
- Sinzing Bayem checking into blog as I was, more connection and mystery as I do not know where that is and must explore
- feeling the power of my writing to access buried emotions in an extremely powerful way
- sweet time with Karin
- feeling SO supported by writing group
- lovely interaction at temple
- recognizing how heavy thought, beliefs, conditioning have pulled me down most of my life
- able to forgive myself for those experiences
- slowly waking up to the illusion of those false beliefs
4/17
- wonderfully, delicious, present day yesterday
- cleaned kitchen and even detailed!!
- trees on my walk seemed to sparkle like diamonds
- everything so vivid, green and lush
- felt a very real embodied and delightful presence that filled me with certainty
- feeling so capable
- faith
- made my bed today!!
- very calm when car wouldn't start, actual laughed
- yea for AAA who are on there way
- watching a movie about Australia and learning in 2008? the government apologized formally for placing Aborigine children forcibly in white homes
4/18
- despite three initial abnormal results, all my medical test turned out negative!!!!!
- feeling huge relief!!!!!
- staying calm and centered throughout even when they found something suspicious, twice, and needed to test further
- cool day
- loving, new doctor, just as I imagined
- hug from my new doctor
- conscious, present doctor and staff, just as I out-pictured
- free cappuccino to celebrate from Valentina
- support and light from many
- great reasonable organic food at grocery outlet
4/19
- a feeling of profound containment
- such harmony in the family
- new swing chair
- cooperation
- Sarah's joyful water aerobics
- having enough
- crisp, gorgeous day
- fun plans tonight
4/20
- wonderful dinner with Cory and Eva
- very nourishing massage
- slept over 9 hours!!!!!!!!!
- sweet talk with my mother in law
- pulled back from reaction
- sound of chimes
- new seeds I planted growing
- daughter being so careful not to wake me
- mother in laws medical tests also negative
- wasband met us for coffee at the restaurant
- daughter admiring my "hour glass" figure which she is seeing basically for the first time as I unzip the fat suit
4/22
- more weight released
- pulling out of fear
- call from Uschi
- wasband doing so much yard work for me
- daughter doing her chores without resistance
- the courage of the whistleblowers
- the courage of all of us to face our fears
4/23
- slept 9 hours!!!!
- interesting writing class
- self acceptance even when what i initially wrote was so trite and dead
- awakening session
- dinner with Karin at home
- eating outside
- the incredible beauty of my surroundings
- blessed silence
- bird song
- making some money
- major weight release
4/24
- deciding not to buy into my story of ongoing tiredness
- silence
- feeling lifted writing my blog
- enjoying the community on think with your heart
- good session with Michael
- lovely yoga class and release of toxins
4/26
- survived the first eclipse
- recovered some of my energy
- sweet school performance
- lunch with Kathleen
- waking up more and more
- cool evenings
- cappuccino
-Nia
- being totally at peace with sometimes spacing on writing my abundance/ gratitude list
4/27
- sweet laughs on car ride
-silence
-cool air
-visit with some cows
-daughter liking hanging out with the cows
- new place
- new area explored
- the most amazing light being we met
- food at temple
- Karin's friendship
- intimacy and honesty
- shared truths
4/28
- feeling rested!!!
- slept longer!!!
- cleaning up
- wasband mowed lawn
- rebalanced after "blow"
- calm day
- changed sheets (after months?- long time)
- switched out winter clothes
- starry night
- gorgeous irises
- lovely flowers from daughter
- sweet family meal
4/29
- yoga helped me wake up
- breeze
- some cranial sacral to help me be more alert
- happy my emotions are in check
- seeing what opportunity is on my plate
- almost done with 24 hour fast
4/30
- slept about 9 hours!!!!!
- huge shift
- finally able to surrender my sleep
- awareness of attachment and control in sleep area
- shifting beliefs about sleep
- so sweet email from Uschi
- hearing from B.J. and Patricia
- wasband here to help with lawn and wanting to honor mother's day
- cooler out
-777 visitors this month so far 

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Daniel James "Jim" Hanson, M.D.

Please join me in prayer for the loss of my Uncle Jim Hanson who died on March 25th. He is survived by his wife of 54 years, my Aunt Ann and his four daughters.

HANSON, M.D., Daniel James "Jim", a son of Daniel James Sr. and Margaret (Goode) Hanson, died on Monday, March 25, 2013 at Tampa General Hospital, surrounded by his family. Jim was a resident of Barrington, RI from 1966 to 2012 and began wintering in Avon Park, Florida in 1995. Jim was born on June 18, 1929, in St. Clair, Michigan and grew up in Calais, Maine. He received a B.S. from Muhlenberg College in 1950 and then served for three years as a captain in the United States Army. He received his medical degree from the University of Vermont, College of Medicine in 1958. Following a radiology residency, he joined the Radiology Department at the University of Kentucky Hospital and was on the faculty from 1962 to 1965. He then served as a radiologist at Roger Williams Hospital and Rhode Island Hospital in Providence while also holding a faculty position at Brown University. Jim served as Radiologist-in-Chief at Rhode Island Hospital from 1981 until his retirement in 1994. From 1987 to 1989 he was president of the Rhode Island Hospital Medical Staff Association. He also authored many peer- reviewed scientific papers. His professional affiliations included the Eastern Radiological Society, the European Pediatric Radiology Society and the Radiological Society of North America. Jim served on numerous boards, including those of St. Andrew's School, Emma Pendleton Bradley School, Rhode Island Magnetic Imaging and Rhode Island Hospital. Jim was a member of the Rhode Island Country Club for over forty years and was the club president from 1991 to 1993. An avid golfer, he won many individual and partnered events, including two of the annual Member-Guest tournaments. He enjoyed travel with his family, playing cards and building model ships. Jim is survived by his wife of 54 years, Ann; daughter Julie Hanson Swanson and her husband Alan Swanson of Arlington ,Virginia; daughter Jennifer Hanson and her husband David VanSpeybroeck of Lake Oswego, Oregon; Rebecca Hanson and her husband Sudhir Rajkumar of Bethesda, Maryland; and Erica Hanson of Washington, DC. He also leaves four granddaughters, Radhika and Indira Rajkumar and Nina and Madeline VanSpeybroeck; a sister, Julie Ann Burns and her husband Robert Burns of Milford, New Hampshire; and numerous nieces, nephews, grandnieces, and grandnephews. He was predeceased by his brother, Dr. Joseph Hanson and his sister-in-law Ann Hanson of Toledo, Ohio. There will be a burial service at Arlington National Cemetery later this year. In lieu of flowers, donations designated for the Department of Radiology may be sent in Jim's name to the Rhode Island Hospital Foundation, Development Office, P.O. Box H, Providence, Rhode Island 02901. Stephenson-Nelson Funeral Home - Avon Parkwww.stephensonnelsonfh.com