Monday, February 14, 2011

WHAT IS LOVE?


Happy Valentine's Beloved Soul Friends!
Today is the day set aside to honor love. We send flowers and chocolates to celebrate life's most important value. We immortalize romance and maybe even check our love scales asking how are we doing in the love department? Are we being given enough love? Most of us hope to be showered with the stuff and maybe feel a bit sad if no one bothers. Yet part of the benefit of traipsing through hell last year was beginning to question what love is.
Now for years, O.K., my whole life I assumed love is something you get and give. I am happy if I get more or about the same as I give and a bit pissed off/upset if I get less. Then I share my needs and you better meet them if we are in a loving relationship or else. Of course, a lot of my needs aren't crucial so now, being so mature, I can let those go. But what feel like core needs, that you show me you love me and it better be the way I say it should look, no way Jose am I letting those go without a fight. Well, I can't help but notice it ain't going all that great even on those key needs. Because I can't help but witness that sometimes someone else can meet them and sometimes they might just not feel like it. And I notice I can sometimes meet the needs of others with joy and grace and sometimes I can't. So what's the deal? Now I am left without? That's no fun.
So we've heard it over and over, love is who we are, the treasure is within. Don't look where you can't find it. Yet our whole culture celebrates the romantic view of love. Give it to me or I am empty. Take it from me and I must grieve if I really love you. Hum. What I notice is then I am back in puppet-land  victimville. At any moment my Beloved can jerk my chain and put me in pain. Hum? Doesn't sound very liberating.
My Beloved better never be in a bad mood. My offspring better never be mercurial because it might hurt my feelings. Hum? How do I love and get out of this pickle?
I read something the other day that blew me out of the water. I tried to re-find  the quote and was frightened when I couldn't locate it as it had created a mind-quake. Found it, get ready. Lester Levenson says in the Ultimate Truth, “You will discover that happiness-your happiness, equates to you capacity to love, and conversely, all your miseries equate to your need to be loved.” What????? I thought that was the name of the game. If I am truly honest, haven’t I often been playing the tit for tat game; you give me some love and then I’ll give you some but don’t you dare yank your love or I’ll dump you like a hot potato. I love you but if you are mean or cruel to me, I hate you. I can’t help but recognize that doesn’t feel very loving. But this blows the lid on what I thought love was; no more romance and flowers as the foundation of love? If I had read that quote a year ago, I would either just have been confused or I would have skipped over it. But this last year has made me humble and hungry. I am ready for the real thing. Since I know intellectually it is within me and I can’t be separated from it, apparently it is time to walk my talk. So that means when my Beloved doesn’t want to meet my needs, I don’t even feel sad. I accept it out of the fullness of my being and move on, meet my own need, opps, don’t even have any needs, ideally, that I expect someone else to meet. Not to have needs is not to be human.  Obviously I am not there yet but now I get the game. The game is to meet my own need for love by always adoring myself and let the love spill over, creating a love wave that always returns to me. Now I can’t help but see I keep lifting the bar on love. Just do this one thing with me and I’ll feel loved. Well, now I am use to that, so just one more thing. I recognize I only do that in what the Course in Miracles calls my “special relationship," the one I put all my eggs in, the one that makes me feel safe and loved. The rest of you I can give more breathing room.
Yes, this is my central issue, the one I was born to heal. Each of us comes in with our own special flavor of believing something outside of ourselves is causing us to suffer. I am ready to let them all go. So that means when Beloved chooses not to meet my needs, I feel my stomach drop out, tears come to my eyes and I allow that!! No story, no hatred, no judgment, no fire energy directed to them. Just allow, grieve how deeply I have believed I am not loved, give compassion to myself. I tell the truth about what I am feeling. And then I am free! I am not miserable. No one can yank my chain because I don’t have one. Yippee! Until then, I allow, allow, allow. 
I wrote in my first blog in November “Where’s the keys?” about my lived experience of KNOWING what I am writing about, KNOWING love as the ground of my being. I knew it for a few hours. The longest I have known it, with all my being, was about three days. I must accept that the KNOWING  comes and goes. I must accept that I still feel separation, a distance between me and love. I must love myself even though I can’t fully love. I guess that is what love is for me now, as they say, a journey without distance. I am glad I am not walking it alone.
The whole thing seems to be a giant paradox. What motivates us on the way is our need to be loved, our bottomless yearning. It prods and pokes us not to give up. Apparently at some point we really get it and feel whole, love flows and we no longer need it. Like is attracted to like and then we  are showered with love. It is my experience that the more I follow this way, the more that laughter, joy, connection, yes, even love is showing up in my life. Of course, I don’t stay in relationships where the other person is not interested in my needs and preferences, is unwilling to give or care for me. But I do not make another my Source. So I will use that carrot to keep me moving, knowing that when I finally get there, that which I have sought sometimes so desperately will be something I no longer need, rather something I am. Go figure. Like I always say, let’s ride the wave and enjoy it. 

20 comments:

  1. "It is my experience that the more I follow this way, the more that laughter, joy, connection, yes, even love are showing up in my life."
    reading that brings me joy - it is such a confirmation of your personal journey.

    You are walking in beauty, my friend.
    Joceline
    www.crowingcrone.wordpress.com

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  2. Finding your name in my comments has brought me joy this rainy morning! I love your phrase "walk in beauty." It reminds me how precious every step is. Yes, my journey has been long and sometimes just short of unbearable yet now the gifts are unfolding so I know that it was all worth it.

    I delight in the sense of connection with someone who was a stranger just yesterday and now feels like a friend. What can be more delicious?

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  3. I appreciate the part you wrote about how acceptance causes what seemed like needs to reveal themselves as something different. If they weren't needs, what were they? They were the things I thought I needed, the things that would prove to myself that I'm in fact loved. And while expecting or agonizing over those things, I missed the ways that I actually was being loved.

    When I've identified with my preferences, and believe them to be my core needs, someone can indulge me by accepting that about me. The deeper truth of that kind of gift is that I come to realize that I didn't need it at all, that in fact it was getting in the way of what I did need, which is nothing.

    So I agree with you that we can give the best gifts to ourselves, through acceptance and the freedom that comes with it.

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  4. Uschi said...

    In your last blog, it is interesting to follow the river of your thoughts,
    I can feel the tension at some points, then the release...again tension...but
    then hope at the end...the solution might be to Be Love.....beautiful !

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  5. Nathan, thank you for your thoughtful comments. It is all such a paradox and I can get tied into believing I need something to complete me. Yet I can't let it go prematurely or artificially- that does me no good. I must ride the wave where it takes me, allow my belief in my needs until they disappear.

    "And while expecting or agonizing over those things, I missed the ways that I actually was being loved." Just yesterday I go to witness myself doing this. So many beautiful and loving things occurred yet I found myself focusing on the one perceived need of mine that wasn't being met. I got to witness myself suffering until I was able to shift. I swear part of me is addicted to the upset and has to feel the thorn in the roses. I felt in my body how uncomfortable it was to focus on the lack and somehow was able to shift my attention. The rest of the day ended up being filled with an overflow of lovely experiences.

    Yet part of the paradox seems that we need the friction of the feedback caused by our rubbing against the edges of others to find where we are in error. We need the carrot of the love we are initially sure we need so desperately to keep seeking that which we never lost. Go figure.

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  6. Comment by tabharitta 7 hours ago

    ... if you allow me to enter into a dialogue, "how is it that we lose touch with love?".  I dont know.  We are bombarded with anti-love propaganda.   How do we regain love into our lives?  Ah... That is the question! 
     
    There is a salutation in japanese which means "please be kind to me".  When they meet someone, instead of saying "nice to meet you", they say: "please, be kind to me", and they tell that to each other.  If we put a conditional as prefix, love does not flow.   "If you are kind to me, I will be kind to you".  Or, "the minute you stop being kind to me, I will stop being kind at all".  Or, "if a number of people are unkind to me, I will reach my kindness limit, and I will be unkind too".  All of these are known scenarios?   How do we get depleted of love, and is there a way to prevent it?   I am not sure that the depletion of love can be prevented in alll circumstances.   Remember that we are depleted of life-force and we die, and although life-force is all around us, we, as individuals, in this body, lose all of our life-force.    In what regards to love, maybe in some circumstances we are depleted from all the love we were carrying in our body-mind.   But just as life finds its way to grow, love, if allowed, finds its way to regain space in our hearts.    Are there ways to strengthen the process?  
     
    Yes, there are ways to strengthen the love in our own hearts.  And, there are ways to share love with others as a way to help them regain love in their hearts.   The arts, the laughs, the joy, the caring, the sharing.  Honesty, respect, altruism, empathy, self-care, ... all of those are medicines for the weakened of love.  
     
    I think that we all know the recipe.   Is it that we do not DO it enough?  
     
    Is it a problem of perception -- or partially a problem of perception?   Is it that the anti-thesis of love fights back strongly?  Is it that we are fed with lies like the news and the media that Is it a problem of perception -- or partially a problem of perception?   Is it that the anti-thesis of love fights back strongly?  Is it that we are fed with lies like the news and the media that show us a dangerous world where "trust" is a stupid word?   Is it that we walk around with masks, so that we dont know each other, and do not share love? 


    It seems to me -- and this is tentatively my opinion -- that we can expand love in ourselves, and we can provide it to others, and others can provide it to us.  I think we can do that in spite of feeling sometimes that the love force in us is diminished.

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  7. I'm adding some comments for Tabharitta from Costa Rico:

    Comment by tabharitta 19 hours ago

    Love is a compound word. It is made of caring, acceptance, cherishing, and other elements. Some of the elements of love are required for survival. We need love when we are infants and absolutely depend on others for staying alive. Love is additional to the act of feeding us or even holding us. Is it an intention? ... We need love when we are grown ups and can provide ourselves with material things that sustain life. Maybe the "force of life" is one of the elements that compose love, because we can "feel loved" in nature; we can feel whole, fulfilled, not-lacking.

    People can give life-force and receive life-force from others. People can also rob life-force from others. In terms of relationships, love needs to flow. Sometimes people withhold their love. Sometimes they are very stern about withholding their love, and very selective about whom they give it to. Sometimes they say they love, but their actions deny it.

    Sometimes people assign the word love to elements that, in my opinion, are definitely not elements of love. Jealousy, for instance, or possessiveness, or the want to control. Those things are not the other side of love. They are simply not related. Maybe the could be called "lack of love".

    I am wondering if having a definition of love help people be more loving and feel more loved.

    Love as an action verb. Love as synonymous to life force. Love as appreciation. Love as caring.

    Will it spread more?

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  8. Yikees, Tabharitta is from Costa Rica not Costa Rico. Opps, sorry, just saw the mistake.

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  9. Comment by tabharitta 2 hours ago, posted by savannah

    So, sometimes we are immersed in unloving environments and we are unloved. If the situation lasts long enough, we get depleted, and we become unloving, and we risk to believe that we ARE unlovable.

    Let me limit the scenarios to those persons who are close, like family or a lover, or close relationships that are within our area of influence. If we have a close one who constantly tell us unloving remarks and acts in unloving ways, what to do? Can we bring love with our magic wand? Can "loving techniques" be applied with success?

    If we are in a less extreme scenario, where our relationships are more neutral, maybe appreciation needs warming up; maybe fear has resulted in dishonesty and distance, can we improve those? Can we create warm, close relationships? Can we promote or favor goodwill in others?

    Can we come from love-depleted and "unlovable" to "feeling loved and loving"? And if we can, and we do it, will that eventually affect extreme unloving scenarios, or will those always exist? Is it fair to continue speaking about love in scenarios that are the extreme opposite of love - be that violence in the family or war and torture, or business greed, or extreme selfishness? Or, shall we stop our conversation and our thinking about love, in the first sphere of personal influence?

    What comes to my mind now, is that I have personal power in regards to love in my small circle of influence. And that my personal love-power is not enough to change others, only to influence them to a degree. In my experience it is self-defeating to try to apply the love scenario to those situations where the extreme opposite of love is prevailing.

    (I hope I am still on topic)

    Tks Savannah for the discussion.

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  10. [There is a salutation in japanese which means "please be kind to me"]

    This sentence illustrates perfectly something I've been thinking about for a while. I've come to realize that I go into interactions with people not wanting to hurt or be hurt and that becomes the foundation on which my relationships are developed.

    Trying to break this pattern mystifies me. It seems complicated and confuses the hell out of me. I don't want to barter at a trading post anymore ("I will give you this, you will give me that") and yet it's how I've lived for so long. I learned to stay clear of egos and then later was taught to listen to them and offer soothing words of encouragement. But that is not caring for myself or the other person. From where I stand now it's an empty interaction done to perpetuate a feeling of safety ("I will keep you safe, you will keep me safe").

    I have no answers in my head and I suspect this is something that will develop with more awareness. However, I'm definitely open to hearing others' thoughts on the subject.

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  11. Funny, I just heard that Japanese greeting recently for the first time. Thank you Chris for your thoughts. It seems something is in the air again. I thought I had some answers and they crumble as soon as I feel rejected. What is up for me now is that the ethereal love of the Divine sounds good but I can't hug it so it is not enough incentive to plow through, except in my mind. Love is slowly dropping into my body yet for now I still crave love in relationship. I still feel like a little puppy- happy when it is there in me and/or when it is extended to me, sad when no one wants to pet me. I feel I have the answer formulated in my mind yet my body can still be highly reactive. It is settling down and is much less reactive to the charge of "unlove" than ever before.

    It seems we attract relationships where one feels entrapped and the other engulfs so that we can heal ourselves of these dynamics and finally find it where it always rest within. Yet as I say for now I want a full bodied experienced and right now that means I want some skin, some touch, some embrace. I have the sense that is the game. That is what keeps us willing to play until we finally reach end point, knowing with the totality of our being our own identity as Love. Some times I want to quit the game but haven't found any space ships out of here or other ways to stop authentically. So I guess it is onward through the fog, offering as much kindness as I can, allowing my heart to break open. Whatever it takes and for me for now that means feeling in my body the pain of separation. That pain can feel excruciating so I reach out to someone else to make the pain go away. Sometimes it seems to work and sometimes that neediness just creates more pain. Back and forth we go. I notice tabharitta that I can never really influence another and that I tend to get a slap if I get into their business. All I can do is increase my personal love power so that I can extend love in more and more circumstance. Now often I can still stay in love when my ego is getting kicked. I am getting stronger and stronger. But if you hit my core issue it is still like electric shock and I have a tendency to grab for any handhold I can find, even if it is someone else's neck. As I see it that is my cutting edge, to hold for myself, to learn over time to diminish the reaction of my body no matter what button is pushed. To have compassion for all involved that I am not there yet. To forgive. To tell the truth. To embrace it all, the love and the pain. I deeply appreciate all of your input. It greatly decreases my sense of separation. I see so clearly how we are all wrestling with the same questions. May all of you be met with kindness and love. May the road rise up to meet you, Beloveds!

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  12. p.s. I have another blog site that also is getting some other interesting feedback, especially to this exact post. Let me know if any of you want to see the other site or have your comments posted over there. It is something called Ser Real an I could let you know how to make the jump or post the comments for you. I'm not tech savvy and would just post it but honestly don't know how exactly to access it but sure it can't be too hard to figure out.

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  13. For Mariola Innes:


    What is Love? That is a question.  We all yearn to be loved and often feel unloved.  To me knowing and feeling if you are loved is a barometer of how far we are removed from source of Love.  So what separates us from love? If you knew what it was would you do anything about it or would you just move on on the pathway of never ending search.
    Some 20 years ago I had aninteresting experience.  I began to go to a center where people were giving sessions of energy called light.  At first I was rather perplexed by the experiences and decided to give it a good thorough investigation from more scientific side of equasion to see if this practice would be of any interest to my patients.  Since the "experiences" were very subtle I concluded that perhaps in order to understand how it worked was to accumulate each experience like drops of water in a glass.  And as one needs more then a drop to quench a thirst, I decided to wait for the effect untill my cup was full.
    Some three months later and perhaps some 20 sessions of experiencing light I had this realisation.  I have been a chocoholic for most of my life. I didn't eat just any chocolate.  My chocolates had to be the best, hand made and picked selection of my favourit belgian or swiss chocolate.  Not the cheapet addicion, especially that I ate them like most peple eat bread and butter.  On that day I have just gone and purchesed my sellecion of chocolates, and to make sure that no unauthorised person (big or small) would put their hands on them, I hid my box on a shelf high above in the pantry.  In the evening I would sit down to watch my favourit TV programme and munch on the chocolates.  As I got up to fetch my chocolates a thought enetered my head. "See how long you could go without chocolate, knowing you have it in the house."  In the past when I have tried to quit my addiction I simply didn't buy any chocolate, but then would suffer withdrawal torment.  So with this new idea that just poped into my head, Sorry, it looks like I was cut of in a midstream.  I am pleased you liked my comment/story.  So here is the rest of it. Continued...
    I sat down to watching my favorite program.  Imagine my surprise when six months later I found my stash of chocolate in my pantry.  I could not believe that I have forgotten all about them.  I was gob smacked!
    In many light sessions that I attended it was explained to me that Light is love, wisdom and will of Creator God.  He knows what we need (it may not be what we think we need), where we are heading and where we have come from.  He knows when we are ready to hear His call, his voice and when we are ready to come home. 

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  14. continued for Mariola:

    So this was my first step to coming home.  God knew how hard I have tried to kick my addiction, He also knew I was using it to feel good, perhaps even loved.  Isn't chocolate perceived as the food for lovers, gift as expression of our love and appreciation?  Indeed, the compounds in chocolates give our nervous system an emotional boost, sadly short lived.  This is why so many people suffer highs and lows as they become addicted to its consumption. Originally  I ate it for I believed it boosted the brain power, and used it as food during cramming and exams. More interesting facts on chocolate can be found at http://www.chocolate.org .But as with anything, moderation is best.
    As I tried eating the chocolate I found that I could not even tolerate it in my mouth without feeling nausea.  God showed me I did not need this crutch and that His love was more powerful than any human could offer.  His Love is great love, a love of a thousand mothers.  And at this point I have realized that I have not felt unhappy once, that I had strength and determination like never before.  No longer a 'failure' was a tragedy, it simply was a lesson in perseverance.  What followed after was more amazing than what I could ever imagined. 
    In Cristianity we have a saying: "Ask, and it shall be given. Knock and the door shall open".  At that moment God entered my life in spectacular way.  He knew that I wanted to stop my addiction.  He knew I was eating it not only because I was hoping to energise my brain, but to feel "loved".  So many of us reach out for something like chocolate, alcohol, cigaret or even sex so that we may feel "loved".  But this is not true love. Infact we become numbed to the inner pain so we would rather have an addiction than face the truth.  So as the repeted sessions of light removed the spiritual clowdiness, mental fog and physical cravings I was able to experience Great Love of God.  I felt as if a giant hands held me up like an infant who has no hangups or judgement and just accepts her mother's love. This love is so transforming, so warm and embracing that even a sceptic like me just melts like chocolate in the sun.
    At that point I knew that what was stoping me from being happy, fulfilled, healthy and wealthy were just my own impurities.  As they were removed one by one with each session of LIght I was able to come a little closer to the source of eternal love.
    The paradox of love is that we all crave it in one form or another from someone else, a partner, a lover or even an animal. Yet in some way we hurt them, or they hurt us and we get disillusioned, dispondent, depressed and even suicidal.  So you may ask why do we attract people or circumstances that lead to such disappointments. And this is where it becomes interesting but you need to step outside the box to embrace the truth. 
    So if you feel you are ready, let me know and I shall share with you what I have found.  Just email me with your request at spiritualauthor@gmail.com.  Love and Light

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  15. Comment by Mariola Innes 1 hour ago
    Delete Comment Hi Savannah, We all wrestle with the stuff which makes us constrict, rejected, hurt. We may even feel that we are wearing a straight jacket. And it is this straight jacket that keeps our soul blocked, unable to beat with the rhythm of life and love. That straight jacket is the cloudiness of our soul some of which we have not only brought with us from our previous incarnations but also inherited from our ancestors. What I have discovered on my pathway of search for truth that this unique spiritual art of True Light dissolves the bindings of our straight jackets, allowing for our souls to stretch their wings and truly embrace love of God, our Creator. And when you have love of God flowing through your spiritual cells melting all the grief and sorrow of the past, in the process our present situation begins to improve. We release the pain we may have felt, begin to understand the pain we may have caused to others and thus develop compassion and desire to offer apology. Gratitude follows and in effect we release our past karma and repay our debt to those we have hurt. In this way we stop the vicious cycle of karma from repeating itself. In this way not only our children don't have to inherit and suffer for our transgressions, we return in our next lifetime to a clean slate. This is what to me true spirituality means. The cleaner our slate is the closer we are to God, His Wisdom, Will and Love. Therefore we naturally attract positive, happy, healthy and abundant life. This is a shortcut to Love and Happiness.

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  16. Comment by Mariola Innes 20 minutes ago

    hi Savannah,
    I am glad you like my comments and yes you may transfer my comments to your other site. Please let me know your other site address. The stuff I have written about is practiced by over one million of people in 82 countries and they all report a significantly high number of interesting and at times miraculous experiences. What I have written about love, experiencing God is my interpretation of the spiritual teachings that go with the practice. They are universal and do not clash with any religion or releasing technique. Yes CMR can release the pain in your body but it cannot release the pain of ancestors or other souls we or they may have hurt. When you hear about families having repeats of the same unhappy phenomena it is non other than the vicious cycle of karma replaying itself again, until we have learned the lesson and wiped off the debt. You can always try experiencing the light just like I did to see if what I have explained is possibly true. Perhaps then we can compare our interpretations of how much love we feel and generate, how we can kick a habit or save unhappy relationship. You can call 1(949)4590374 to find out where is the nearest person to you who could let you experience this art. You may still continue working with CMR for it has its palace and validity. Love and Light

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  17. I think that we are starting to talk about fear here (distrust). We are saying that we are afraid to love (trust, lean on, come close, be honest, open up).
    Someone told me that the other day that the mere act of taking care of someone is in itself an act of love, and it triggers loving feelings. I think there is some truth to that.
    Also, I know that to stop to notice and appreciate (someone) triggers feelings of love and gratitude in ourselves.
    And I think that our conversation is threefold: love for our own self; love for the other; and love from the other to us. And we go around in circles.
    And we are speaking about emotions. Love is an action verb, but it is also an emotion. Emotions come and go, they change by the minute. Emotions depend on some chemicals and hormones in our blood stream. Emotions can be triggered by outside events or by inner processes.
    I would like to emphasize that the whole explanation is to support the self; not to blame the self or tell it what it should do or feel.
    Part of this discussion is about whether we can (have the power) to influence the level of love; and if we can, how much, and how to do it.
    Sometimes, I feel extremely unloved. So much that I cry in pain. However, I am not sure that I AM unloved. At this point it is more like a feeling, a reminiscense of a time and situation where I have been actively unloved. It is a belief and fear that I can be actively unloved again in the future.

    Are we still in the same dialogue?

    Tabharitta

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  18. Yes, I agree that almost always it is some past resonance being triggered that makes the current feelings so powerful. I am absolutely aware that it is the unlove from childhood, which was often extreme, that fuels my current suffering. Yes, how to release. Sometimes one person is being exceptionally loving to me and another is expressing indifference or rejection through words or action. I notice my feelings tend to go with the negative charge while often minimizing the positive. So I am ready to go into the field beyond right and wrong. When I am there nothing anyone does touches me in a negative way, i merely feel compassion that they are suffering. Yet when my body gets charge, watch out. In the past I might say or do anything. Now I have more dominion of my consciousness so I am not so reactive yet there can be a gaping wound. I have faith that this is all part of a transformation process I just wish sometimes it didn't take me so close to the edge. I have noticed the closer I get to the core of an issue, the rougher it gets. I figure I am very close to pay dirt because there is a lot of turbulence. I have healed so much in my life including life long anxiety. This is just one more charge that it is time to let go of.
    I believe being around someone loving is healing in and of itself. The more loving I am, the better the quality of my life. Yet I do not try to actively influence anyone (when I am in a good place.) I just let my love shine.
    I have been hugged a few times by the hugging saint, Amma. One hug transforms so much. I believe we are all moving towards the same state she currently holds so beautifully. It is just a question of time and faith. Lovely to see you here Tabharitta. Your comments are very rich.

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  19. "I believe being around someone loving is healing in and of itself". I believe so too. My experience tells me so. And there are others who seem to share a similar experience.

    As of our craving for love, when it seems to be temporarily lacking in our life, it might help to remember that we eat an elephant one bit at the time, and deal directly and immediately with that bit. I mean talk with/listen to the other person, or give oneself immediate empathy, or whatever is different to passing this new incident onto the great pile of unlove we have accumulated, which robs our happiness and hope, and gives us a gloomy concept of the world we live in. We may not always succeed, but we may get empowered in the process, and we are moved further away from the phantom of a bad world surrounding us.


    Thank you again Savannah for having been so opened and for offering this space for discussion. It has been very meaninguful to me.

    Tabharitta

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  20. Tabaharitta,

    It is my joy to have this dialogue and really a dream come true. You are most welcome and thank you for sharing that it is meaningful to you. I love your description of eating an elephant one bite at a time. It reminds me to be with what is in the moment and try to stay out of what the past is telling me about the situation. It is critical for me to break my identification with unlove. I am learning more and more not to be so reactive and then I am more able to have empathy and compassion and realize it is never really personal. If I can get enough altitude I can remember what the Course in Miracles teaches- it is always love or fear. If it is fear, I can offer love rather than personally be hurt. Sometimes I can actually do that. I was at an all day workshop today on the Way of MAstery and it reminded me that there is a force of love that is always there to support me in choosing love. I must make the choice again and again, despite whatever resistance or hurt shows up. This is what gives my life meaning. At the same time, it must be authentic, not some namby pamby false fake show. I felt very inspired and it helped me have more faith that what is occurring is assisting me in letting go of all obstacle to love. Sometimes, I really need that support and encouragement.

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