good news from Panther

I wanted to update those of you sending good wishes for our cat Panther. She is sitting beside me in this moment, kneading me with her claws. Since she is extremely shy and skittish, she seems fully recovered. Yesterday, I wanted to take her in to the vet but time constraints did not allow it. I guess she got the message time was short and has staged a miraculous recovery. Thanks for all your support. I am also gaining good clarity about my web site. Big hug of gratitude and Panther sends her love.

* photo at bottom of page

ownership

if you think you own something, it owns you

matt kahn

April

I am having a hard time writing my experience down right now. This post does a good job of describing what I am noticing and experiencing:
Energies of April - Jennifer Hoffman

and this one too:
April '14 Energy Update - Hope Van Vleet

and a hopeful look at April's energies:

http://www.gamabooks.com/4.5.2014.html

“Sorrow prepares you for joy.

 It violently sweeps everything out of your house,

 so that new joy can find space to enter.

 It shakes the yellow leaves from the bough of your heart, 

so that fresh, green leaves can grow in their place. 

It pulls up the rotten roots,

 so that new roots hidden beneath have room to grow. 

Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart,

 far better things will take their place.”

Rumi

sugar

My experience with sugar is so intense I feel called to share. My dear friends at our local restaurant decided to gift me with a very large dessert. It was delicious and I hate half of it, nothing to what I could have socked away before. That night I was up for two hours in the middle of the night unable to sleep. I also was starving and had to have a 3 a.m. snack. If I had not cut out sugar primarily from my diet, I would have no clue how powerfully it is currently impacting my body. Since these times are already intense for me physically, I am determined to be more vigilant in an entirely non judgmental way to keep my sugar consumption way down. Maybe experiment by cutting it out then reintroducing it to see if it knocks you out as much as it does me.

at ease

Today may there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others. May you use the gifts that you have received and pass on the love that has been given to you.  May you be content with yourself just the way you are. Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us."
unknown author, possible Saint Theresa

choppy waves

For me the energy is very erratic. Things that normally roll of my back feel very uncomfortable. The energy in my body feels tense, edgy, very uncomfortable and arose basically out of nowhere. I write this in case you too are in choppy waters. The anticipated energies for April are highly transformational which doesn't always come with a great level of physical or emotional comfort (she said as a major understatement). Don't be surprised if you are all over the place, like our weather. Yesterday snow and sleet, today gorgeous, sunny and clear. I am needing to keep a very tight rein on my emotions as they are directing me sometimes to argue, fight, be right, judge, blame. I thought I'd seen the backside of these behaviors so it is an unpleasant surprise to see them around for another visit. I am taking deep breaths, going outside for a pattern interrupt, praying for support not to unleash negative, charged reactivity. So far I am generally succeeding but it is requiring strong mastery. Hang in there darlings. Do your best to keep your focus on your desires and let the rest melt away.

Important time for impeccable self care; here are some of my favorites

* spend time in nature
* take hot baths with mineral or epson salts to ease the body
* move the body! dance, yoga, swim, walk
* let the emotions flow through tears, shaking, sounding, seating
* meditate
* move extra slowly, lower your voice and slow it down when you feel charged
* take deep breaths before speaking in any charged situations
* take time outs for yourself when charged so as to be able to respond rather than react
* use ritual to create a feeling of containment
* call in guides, angels, ancestors, God, ascend masters for support when in freak out mode
* smudge yourself
* increase saying I love you to yourself out loud in times of stress
* say to yourself when something challenging arises, "this is happening and it is leaving"; don't get stuck in story
* get body work done; we have several local Chines massage centers where a "foot massage" is actually the whole body, is an hour and is only $20
* shift your energy by reading a good book or watching an enjoyable movie

where am i?

So much is in flow, shifting and transforming, I find myself writing little blogs in my head with no motivation to write them down. Part of it is I am busier than ever with classes, clients, preparing for my divorce yet more of it is all is shifting so quickly to try to capture it in words seems counter productive right now. I can say this. After initially being annoyed and frustrated yesterday when my conscious parenting class got canceled due to snow, creating scheduling challenges, I ended up sitting in front of a fire for about five hours, doing paperwork, getting my information ready for my divorce (a task I previously loathed) and being incandescently peaceful. Now that is a miracle. Know I hold you all in my heart.

loving this from Karen Bishop:
http://www.gamabooks.com/4.1.2014.html

The most direct route to finding your way is to forget where you’re going. www.truedivinenature.com