red tent

I am doing a rediness ceremony (precursor to a red tent ceremony for girls who have begun or are about to begin their cycles) this weekend in Lake Tahoe with my daughter, all the girls from her class, their moms and one grandma. It feels really important to me and part of the healing of the planet that we begin again to honor the sacred feminine, the vessel capable of creating new life. I would very much appreciate it if you would send good energy to all of us this weekend as we honor this sacred rite of passage. Thanks savannah 

you o.k. you fine you fine you fine

This is just the most reassuring thing I have ever seen- thanks to Mouse for bring it to my awareness. It bring me such joy and hope. Give it a peek.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Ygcl_DQ-Q4&feature

liberation, the body, embracing, teachers

I woke up this morning crystal clear. Apparently what felt like a half baked surrender is already working. Here's what I got: For the last year or so I have worked on my physical reactions to emotional states. I recognized this is where the rubber hits the road (American slang for taking action) to free myself. I had to FULLY allow whatever came up in my body to be free of it. Now I wish I could promise you that you only have to dive into it once to be free. Yet my experience is that the deeper the charge, the more entrenched the pattern, the more times I have to plunge into the feeling tone of it. Now this is so counter-intuitive that it takes real courage to do it. I know it is like I am telling you- look out- you're on fire- here's how you can do to put out the fire- run straight into it-WHAT?!?!?@##%#$^%&^&**(* *&&^%$@! Yes, that's it- run straight into the fire to put it out. Well I have allowed myself that depth for many years now and for the last few I even stopped resisting but could dive into the deepest agony without flinching EXCEPT... not when it is a purely physical experience. I have trained myself to do it when it is a physical reaction to an emotion yet if it is a physical experience that seems to arise out of no emotion, arise more or less spontaneously (perhaps planetary wide frequency shift or whatever) then I freak out and RESIST with all my strength. Now my guides had assured me the energy would shift for me in 2012. So when I felt overwhelmed again yesterday I wanted to throw in the towel. I mean come on! But then I got it as I woke up- I am not following my own advice with this one- I am resisting rather than embracing. I must turn in to even this, allow it fully, totally embrace it when it appears strongly in my body. Then of course I have to do a clean up job, shifting my beliefs. One belief I had was- this will never end. another- I can't handle this etc. So clean those up. Finally then a twinge of discomfort comes, I can shift my vibration consciously to peace, joy whatever, as Abraham and others suggest. For me it is a dance, an art to know when to pull out what tool from my tool bag.
Now the miracle is that when we do this, it WORKS! Many of us are suffering so much that we are highly motivated to shift- this works. I had about six things happen yesterday that would have flipped me out even six months ago and now they just floated right past me. Here's the beauty, the miracle- I had NO BODY RESPONSE to the trigger, my body remained peaceful! Now for me this is worth working toward. I mean some really unpleasant stuff where I had zero reaction. So guess what, the triggers passed quickly and I imagine in future won't even arise in my world. Now this is liberation.
I am going to re quote my blog about responding to anger because this is what woke me up with a huge ahha moment.

 the FIRST step when you find yourself before such (difficult) energies, is to remember WHY they are dong what they are doing. A simple rule of ALL expressions is this: 'What is not Love IS Fear, and nothing else.'

The one before you is literally screaming in Fear, and is crying out for its opposite: Love.

A major shift in our journey occurs when we come to recognize that our OWN fear-based ego meets such expressions with the following: a physical contraction and thus loss of breath, along with a 'bracing' of the muscles. Immediately, the mind JUDGES, for it perceives itself being attacked. It then moves to DEFEND via any number of strategies, 

including doing the same things!

http://www.wayofmastery.com/jayem/blog/3456.html

I highly recommend rereading that blog on anger (post on 1/2/12) as many times as you can. This is a beautiful explanation of how to free yourself. And don't worry bout how long it took me, the energies are moving much faster now so all of you may be able to breeze through this much more quickly than I did.
I have been so blessed with so many gifts; the gift of time, of financial freedom and of fabulous teachers. It is my great purpose and passion to share my blessings with the world, to honor my gifts by extending them, hence this blog. I wish to honor my three amazing teachers here:
Mary Hulnick who loved me enough to help me begin to remember how to love myself
Luis Diaz who taught me how to dive into my pain and shift my beliefs
and Karl Kempler who is teaching me to trust and turn to Universal energies, to surrender to a Higher energy that KNOWS how to heal whatever arises. His partner Jan beautifully brings in the more feminine energies to the teaching. I extend my external gratitude and honor each of you by sharing everything I have learned. Blessings.

surrender- releasing overwhelm and abandonment

I am diving into my exploration of the personal lie or core negative belief. Something is dragging me down and I don’t like it- in a single word it is overwhelm- I am easily overwhelmed. It used to be what I called anxiety but now the more exact word is overwhelm. I have trouble making plans because the plans might overwhelm me when the time comes or I might be in a bad energy that day. Now I know I am not alone in this- a lot of people I know have this. But I am ready to say bye bye.

So what is underneath of it? I thought I’d reached the bottom but more muck is down there. I have worked with not being good enough for seemingly eons but another layer is raising it’s ugly head for exploration. The main area in which I consider myself not good enough is as a parent. Now mind you I don’t know any parents I consider good enough so I have set myself up to fail. For me us fragile, flawed humans are just not up to the job of raising those little balls of unconditional love called infants. Real cute- I get it or should I say it gets me. I have my hand around my own throat and won’t let the pressure off. So I get caught in a viscous circle- the judgment overwhelms me and then of course my parenting goes out the window and I just want to hide under the covers and only stick my head out for a cappuccino or to lay in my hammock. When you are overwhelmed- no need to be productive. O.K, there are some perks. But it’s getting real old. Now let’s throw more on the bonfire. What I witnessed myself do recently was extra adorable and made me wake up a smidgeon more. I experienced intense feelings of abandonment. I first tried to resolve it at the level of form so I got my blowtorch out and started incinerating anybody I could point my finger at. Now turns out this is one of my favorite blame games called “I feel abandoned, you should treat me differently.” Unfortunately I can’t get anyone to play with me anymore and it is definitely a two person game. So I’m stuck and had to look at the four fingers pointing back at me instead of my osculating pointer finger. Opps. So what did I discover? I discovered the person who has abandoned me all my life when the sh*t hits the fan- moi. (I hope that’s French for me) If you don’t love me, I won’t love myself. Or more accurately, I have drawn this situation to me because there is still a way in which I don’t love myself but rather depend on others to prove to myself that I am lovable-

 ouch!  OUCH  OUCH! OUCH!

And why don’t I love myself- because I’m not good enough- the circle is complete. So what’s a girl to do because basking in chocolate while lamenting “Whoa is me!” is getting old. So I pulled the Osho Tarot cards today- commercial plug for those cards- I love them. I got Let Go, Receptivity and New Vision. I also heard two UTUbe’s from Abraham, two from Byron Katie and the New Year UTube I had recommended:

Abraham:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VujIRyDdl10&feature

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&feature=endscreen&v=LKtSVSedii0

Cutting Edge Consciousness:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dvT1LVXrnHY

Byron Katie:

http://serreal.ning.com/video/necesitas-mas-dinero-es?xg_source=msg_mes_network

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xT1pX07nihY&feature
Hopefully these links will jump you there.

With all that input something popped into my little noggin- I am way off track with my analysis and logical brain. Yes, I know that is not where the answer lies. I know it lies in my heart. Yes I get my head is lying to me. It keeps telling me to be better, better, more good gooder GOODER ad nausea-um.  O.k. This concept is so new I can barely grasp it yet here is what I got a glimmer of. To reach unconditional love, to reach our own Divinity does NOT align with my Catholic training of no longer sinning, making no errors- Au contra-ire  (My French attempt again- I have been taking myself  WAYYYYYYY too seriously.) The answer lies with accepting and allowing and surrendering to the whole bloody mess! Now does that sound like a revelation to you- for my twisted mind it sure does- what? Relax, allow, do nothing as Way of Mastery instructs- what- you gotta  be kidding me. “Feel good” as Abraham is known to say. SO easy! Man, have I been barking up the wrong tree. So I am attempting a 180 degree reversal and see if I can genuinely surrender the whole shebang. Please don’t ask me what surrender is ‘cause for me that is one of the most difficult concepts to convey. The one thing I can say is you know it when you feel it because true surrender is always met with incredible grace followed by ease and peace. A toast for the new year to surrender!!

P.S. Anybody got any clues for me, feel free to chime in!

Welcome new friend from Austria. I thought you were my best friend checking in but she swears it’s not her. I am sooooo curious about all of you. Hugs 

role New Zealand plays

New Zealand this is for you- the information is super out there yet my intuition told me to share it especially with you and with anyone else interested. Seems you are sitting in a very powerful energy of transformation- can you feel it? Here is the link for the VERY long and rather bizarre but interesting blog- be forewarned, it's really out in left field:
http://www.eraofpeace.org/newsletters/additional-arch_dec_11.php

To help facilitate this facet of the Divine Plan the Company of Heaven asked us to take a group of Lightworkers to New Zealand. The reason we were asked to travel to New Zealand is because of the critical role that sacred land is playing in Earth’s Ascension process. Pulsating within the Etheric Realms above New Zealand is a complex of Temples that serve as the Elemental Training Center for all of the Elemental Beings serving the Earth. These are the Beings who cocreate and sustain the physical substance that comprises the physical, etheric, mental, and emotional bodies of Mother Earth and Humanity. The Elohim and the Directors of the Elements are presently training 5th-Dimensional Elemental Beings who will reinforce the battered and abused Elemental Beings serving the Earth at this time. The 5th-Dimensional Elementals will assist in cocreating the patterns of perfection for the New Earth.

Another reason New Zealand is playing such an important role in Earth’s Ascension process is that she receives the first impulse of Light for every new day on the planet. This meant that the first frequencies of 11:11:11 would enter the planet through New Zealand and then spread around the globe in a wave of resplendent Light.

The Beings of Light revealed that the North and South Islands of New Zealand serve as the Hands of Mother Earth. We receive and transmit energy through our hands, and every acupuncture meridian associated with our Chakra system is represented within the acupuncture pressure points in our hands. The Light flowing through our Chakras and acupuncture meridians is from our Father-Mother God. It is our Lifeforce, and it nourishes and sustains every cell, gland, muscle, organ, and function of our physical body. This is our Gift of Life that allows us to live, move, think, and breathe in the physical plane.

When we receive Light through our hands it is transmitted through every acupuncture meridian to help unblock the areas in our body that are having trouble receiving and assimilating the electronic Light substance from our Father-Mother God. The Hands of Mother Earth likewise receive and transmit Light through her Crystal Grid System to help unblock the areas in her body that are having trouble assimilating the Light of God.

responding to anger- Way of Mastery

I just found an incredible post that explores anger from the point of view of Way of Mastery.This way is certainly not easy, yet I have found it leads to true freedom, peace and joy. See what you think. It is a blog from Jayme- here is the link:
http://www.wayofmastery.com/jayem/blog/3456.html

Hello Everyone,

Susan asked Jayem a question, and we felt his response was something everyone would benefit from hearing, as it is a 

universal energy, so we have chosen to share his response here with you all...

Enjoy!

Question: What is the best way to respond or not respond to other people's anger, insults, bullying, angst, and sarcastic 

remarks and attitudes?

Hello, Susan, and thank you for asking a question that is one we all share in this world Jeshua reminds us was made in order to PROVE we are separate from God, we are alone, and that Fear is necessary.

I've written that statement purposely to expose WHY anyone expresses anger, insult, bullying, angst, and sarcastic remarks and attitudes!

Thus, the FIRST step when you find yourself before such energies, is to remember WHY they are dong what they are doing. A simple rule of ALL expressions is this: 'What is not Love IS Fear, and nothing else.'

The one before you is literally screaming in Fear, and is crying out for its opposite: Love.

A major shift in our journey occurs when we come to recognize that our OWN fear-based ego meets such expressions with the following: a physical contraction and thus loss of breath, along with a 'bracing' of the muscles. Immediately, the mind JUDGES, for it perceives itself being attacked. It then moves to DEFEND via any number of strategies, including doing the same things!

Ego will believe it is misunderstood, does not deserve this, and perhaps the most cunning, something Jeshua once replied to me when I was complaining about such things: "Beware the great temptation to perceive yourself unfairly treated." WHAT!!!!!???? It was so 'obvious' that I WAS being mistreated!

However, this is NEVER TRUE. Nothing arises by accident, whatsoever, and ALL moments can serve our healing, growth, and awakening IF our commitment is not to defense and 'being right about what is wrong with others', but are devoted to

a) Growth of our own capacity to 'be in the world but not of it', AND to realizing our Essence as Love itself by BEING the presence (and intelligence) of Love in the moment.

The GOAL of all moments is this: PRESENCE. Presence requires that we cultivate a few basic steps, first.

1. Turn TOWARD the fearful one crying out for love, and immediately 'make your home in your breathing', down into the belly.

2. ASK them if they would be so kind as to fully REPEAT their words, because you want to be with them, and truly hear them. (Ego will scream at this suggestion, won't it?)

3. Do your best to repeat back to them exactly their own words, and ask them if you have fully heard them, AND if they feel complete in their sharing, or want to share anything else.

4. THEN ask them this:  What is it you truly want, right now, and how do you perceive it will bring you to happiness and peace, for that is my deepest desire for you.

5. Encourage them to take all the time they need to get in touch with this, that you are with them.

They may respond to any of the above, or not! What matters is YOUR growth in meeting Fear, with Presence. IF they do seem to respond, change your language into a joint invitation. In short, shift from 'I, and you' to 'we':          

6. Since we are here, right now, together, let's see if we can join to find a real solution. I know we can if we are willing!

By now, something will be very self evident:  you will see and know what they are TRULY committed to!

If it is attack in any form, then its time to let them know, calmly, that it is clear they are hurting for some reason, and that remaining committed to it is not something you can join them in, as you have learned that this can never be a solution for them.

Let them know you see the real capacity in them, and are always ready to join devoted to healing, finding real solutions, and growing in real happiness, whenever they may be ready. End by saying, 'thank you' for sharing as you have, for all moments are opportunities for me to grow my own ability to be with you as you are.

And simply move your body in the direction of your true commitment, and what needs your presence, elsewhere. Later, it is wise to reflect on WHO you have called into your life. Those energies are not present by accident! Yes, you may need to do some self-forgiveness work on when those energies were expressed through you as well. You will need to reflect on HOW you have habitually met such energies, and deepen your commitment to your own transformation, and nothing serves that goal better than the very real moments of life that activate our own ego patterns, themselves born of Fear.

Here are a few KEY wonder questions to explore:              

What requirement do I keep making of others?

What belief do I carry about how others 'ought' to be?

Might I be placing more emphasis on this, than on my own transformation? 

Am I willing to learn increasingly how to be the presence of Love, under ALL conditions? I always remind myself (and 

others) of this fundamental truth:

NOTHING IS HAPPENING TO YOU. IT IS HAPPENING FOR YOU. THE WORLD CAN ONLY MEAN WHAT GOD WOULD HAVE IT MEAN AND IT CAN ONLY HAVE THE PURPOSE OF OUR WAKING FORM ILLUSION TO TRUTH, FROM FEAR, TO LOVE.

OF COURSE the world will disturb us, for it was NEVER capable of being our source of Love, though we are all 'guilty' of believing (and insisting) it OUGHT to provide what it cannot ever give. Thus, to see the world truly is to see the uses WE have demanded of it, and of all others, who we have chosen to give us safety, security, approval, and love. And it is NOT their role to do so!

To 'forgive the world' is to see through the requirements WE have placed upon it, to see HOW and WHY the world can ONLY fail us, for the rule of EGO is to 'seek, but never find'. (This loop justifies our judgement, and our guilt, thus keeping us separate from Love and Reality).

Our journey is to stay present with our own Fear, and see what requirements, secret hopes, and demands are fueling it, and to forgive ourselves. Each moment is an opportunity to realize the supreme freedom of Love by NOT responding to the voice of Fear WE have made, and worshipped too long.

Let all beings become your messengers and saviors, by seeing how they trigger the places within us that ARE fearful, needy, demanding, and perhaps unwilling to choose Love and let it teach us of itself. Where can it do that? ONLY in the very midst of where we use to react with fear, projecting all manne of requirements upon others.

Let me end this brief sharing on a question that has such rich depths to show us, with this:

No one in this world is made to love me, keep me safe, nor uphold the image of myself I wish to believe is true. The world is given me as it is that I might discover and learn that Love IS the essence of my only Reality, and that I am free to Be what I truly am, under ALL conditions. Only in the conditions of the world can I ever learn and realize that ONLY Love IS Real, by BEING it.

From this moment forward, I welcome all messengers and saviors, showing me what I truly want no longer, offering me the chance to incarnate my True Self. This alone is what makes the world precious to me: not what I can get from it, but what I can discover I have the capacity to give, to it. For this is the only path Home. Thank you, Lord, for helping me to finally see this great, and essential Truth.

Blessings,

Jayem

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012- power words, symbol and intentions

I already started on my intentions and my symbol this year is snake. I have one of my words for the year following my annual tradition and it is POWER. I like to choose two or three so also under consideration are creativity, unity, balance and dance- we'll see what unfolds. Feel free to share your intention, symbol or word/words for the year. I am glad we have arrived in 2012. I want to give a special welcome to Ireland. Most of my ancestors were Irish and I feel a great love for your country, especially after my visit in 1989.
I have the feeling this will be a very magical year. I celebrate each of you and wish you joy and magic in the coming year.

1/2/12 I woke up this morning with the word unlimited so that will be a keeper- I sense it will be four words this year- why not be unlimited- I sense the other two will be unity and dance but not yet 100% clear.