there is nothing my holiness can not do

I started writing this two weeks ago but then got caught up in such a maelstrom of energy I had to put all my attention on managing and passing through some very challenging events and beliefs. I had two weeks of gorgeous energies, knowing my holiness, Divinity, etc. and then the party was over with a bang. I got caught in a shitstorm. I immediately pulled out my uzi and started hunting down that bast..rd God for dropping me in another hell hole after so recently emerging from 22 months of serious and sometimes terrifying transformation. Well, my heart closed like Alcatraz and believe me there was no escape. I stayed in that frozen, unforgiving, God destroying state for 36 hours until a tiny part of me was willing to make another choice. Before that I felt so hurt and betrayed I was unwilling to even consider forgiveness. So with a tiny peep I agreed to choose again and lo and beyond almost immediately I was given the vision to see why the other person was behaving in that way and how betrayed and hurt they felt. I saw that they felt I was their enemy and they were fighting for their very survival. I saw how indeed, "Miss I am committed to unconditional love" was in fact hating someone I supposedly love. I saw with astonishment how I have done this over and over and over. I saw how enemy images creep in when I feel under attack and the circle goes around and around in destruction and hate. I chose again and realized that while I thought I had shifted to a new paradigm of acceptance and forgiveness before, in fact it was only under certain conditions that did not include below the belt attack. I shifted and immediately so did the other person and we ended up in a love fest. Since then miracles after miracles have occurred, with solutions coming in left and right. Now, I am not advocating allowing people to abuse you- no way Jose- I am only asking that if you find yourself in conflict, ask what part you are playing in the dance. Perhaps you will see as I did, that I was doing it to myself, that the image I had inside helped co-create the drama. At some point I wish to speak openly about the circumstances because I see so many suffer from similar dynamics yet for now others privacy overrides my desire to speak out.

Beloveds, here is what I learned from my direct experience. It is truly only love or fear. If we choose fear, the consequences now in these energies are much more severe and immediate. For me I immediately get a huge punch. If I allow unforgiveness to fester in me, it as though I feel the poison seeping into my body instantaneously. If I shift to love, all kinds of previously unseen possibilities spontaneously come to my awareness. I see and feel my holiness, I see and feel the unlimited possibilities, I see and feel my immense power, the same power that resides in You. Beloveds, They are not kidding- we have that power in us and lately I have tasted it again and again as one after another miracle unfolds in short order.

Yet if fear takes over, and believe me our little egos have declared all out war as they fear for their own survival, then I am sunk. I had a few days of intense fear just now again. I tried again and again to shift and could not. Then twice I genuinely shifted. In one case, with the power of my vision and intent, I was able to obtain sold out tickets to Crosby and Nash, one of my all time favorite groups (O.K I am dating myself). Through a miraculous series of events, three tickets opened up just as we asked for some and then the song that literally had called me to the concert was the song they played for their encore. The song was Teach Your Children Well and they chose that exact song out of their repertoire of 900 songs. Whoa- I had chills going up and done my spine. I got tickets even though I had just heard about it hours before and was assured it had been sold out from the first day tickets went on sale.
I just saw a clip on how we can get out of our fear, out of our minds and enter holy ground. I have put the link below. Beloveds the time is NOW! There is no time to waste. The energy of light will have it's way. I have read some of the scientific information of how this occurring but it does not really interest me because my body is telling me it IS so. We must pony up or be swept away in the tidal wave of fear immersing our cherished Earth. I write quickly without editing as the fur continues to fly so I must go and allow my holiness to put out some fires. Beloveds, join with me in knowing absolutely, without question, There is nothing our holiness can not do. Beloveds, bless everything that you witness, knowing it is serving a greater purpose. Beloveds, know we are one and that we will see this through. Know that I am with you, know that you are loved!!!!

http://serreal.ning.com/video/tedxnasa-dr-sue-morter-11-20-09

Think with Your heart

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To the Pioneers & PathPavers

The sisters would like to conclude this update with a message for those who have been fighting for years to keep yer heads above water, even thru the high tides and tumultuous waves of the end times….

"To those who have held true to their internal knowing and honored the voice of the One, we say this to you:

Be prepared not only for greatness, but in the sharing of it. The tide has turned and a new wave of energy is arriving at your shore. Nothing promises to be the same again.  For those of you who have weathered the many storms to arrive here, you are the lighted ones, those who others will seek in times of continued destruction and darkness. Redemption is at hand, but it is because you have redeemed yourselves. Be astute to your untapped potential, for there is much yet to be explored, much that will surprise and delight you.  We are the proof of your success, for we are the future of your now.

Remain in peace through the physical changes that arise both within and around you and remember your role as a true bearer of light.  This comes in many forms, not just in moments of greatness, but in the tiniest acts of kindness.  The time to be true is now. The time to be YOU is now.  Pray tell." -Seven Sisters


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seed of an equivalent benefit

I just read a book by Napoleon Hill, of Think and Grow Rich fame. It seems he was one of the first expounders of manifestation consciousness, how to think and feel your way into a new experience. He was speaking about the "seed of an equivalent benefit." I didn't get much from the book but that. The idea if you have suffered great loss an equivalent benefit awaits you if you look for it, intended it. Well, I like that. I figure after a year and a half of almost pure grief, terror and sorrow that I was endlessly allowing, then four months of fairly intense challenges, the seed of my equivalent benefit must be the size of New York. There's just got to be a pony under that pile of poo. Last week I began to taste it. Three fabulous days where I experienced a never before known wholeness, a clarity, a joy, a certainty that was delicious. My intuition was firing on all cylinders, miracles were my daily fare. If you've been following this blog, you know I don't pretend. I hate the "I"m fabulous" that I get whenever I met someone one from a New Thought church. I'm fabulous even though yesterday I tried to slit my wrist- no thank you. I mean honest to God great. What a relief because I figured pretty soon no one would be interested in this journey, this path except to use it to know exactly what not to do. Then I had two quite good days, one yucky day and now a neutral day. But I tell ya, the synchronicities are flying and everything is flowing. I am chewing on another challenge but the experience is entirely differ, I feel guided and held, supported with knowledge from beyond. I don't even try to figure it out. I wait to hear the answer. I truly feel like I have entered a parallel universe where things are easier and life can be so wonderful. Like I said, today is so so but I still got a good feeling. We'll see what the future brings.

This is all very good news as I was beginning to wonder if I could still promote this path, given my experiences and seeming lack of results. Yes, yes I can. That is if you are interested in absolute freedom mixed with unconditional love and joy. It is the only way I have found that can lead me back to the realization of my own Essence as my lived experience. Yes, it was way more intense then I thought, yes, sometimes I didn't think I'd make it. But now I can say from a place beyond pure faith- it is worth the ride. My mentor told me people would flock to me when they saw how magnificent my life was. Since I was mired in misery, I was like, yea right. I felt lost in the goo of my own unconsciousness. Would I ever emerge from the tunnel? Yes, I would and I am. Hang in there. We all will too.
(reporting live from the Edge...)

FABULOUS

Yesterday, I felt fabulous almost all day long. I KNEW that I am on the right track. I KNEW my wholeness. I KNEW joy. I felt a sense of profound oneness with the river, our land, several people I met, our daughter and her friend. I KNEW that an amazing sense of home, of belonging, of unity is arising in me. I KNEW that it is good, and very, very good.

resurrection or crucifixion?

I seem to have passed through some portal beyond the rings of fear I have been frequently being crushed by. Something has shifted. A few days ago a friend told me, after being squeezed and deeply challenged for so long too, that she was seeing light and hope. That somehow gave me a glimmer of relief. Then I asked my mentor about his experience moving through fear and how long and painful it was for him. I had started to feel crucified, cursed. He assured me that I was just being rapidly cleansed of fear, taken through all the rings of fear very rapidly, because of the emergency on the planet brought about by the acceleration of time, and the intensity of light bombarding the planet. I have a role to play in the clean up and must be prepared and in place at the right time. This is not and will not be a sacrifice rather it will be a source of great joy.
Saturday night I had to pass through perhaps the final phase of one of my most profound fears, that I can be separated from Love, that I am separate from Love. It was not fun but in the end I had the most peaceful, delicious evening.
Yesterday I attended a day long intensive about our unlimitedness. That completed the shift for me. For some hours I KNEW, beyond the level of thought, that this was happening for my best, that it would lead me to great joy and Love, that it was a rebirth, a resurrection, that I would be glad beyond measure at how it all occurred. What a relief. I am still deeply tired with many more thing on my plate. The difference is now I KNOW (o.k., o.k., yes, doubt still creeps in) it is all good.
I am guessing some of you following this blog may be in the same position so I send this message of hope out unedited or jazzed up. If your experiences are like mine, you'll understand my exhaustion and celebrate with me that this period of passing through fear is finite and that the end is in sight. What joy!

pure grief

Beloveds,

Today I ride the wave of raw grief as the second and more challenging phase of my clearing the pain of separation in my being unfolds in these moments through my life circumstances. Sorrow breaks my heart open.  Only faith and love carry me through. Now I can see the light and know that this is all part of the unravelling and will lift me to my deepest knowing, the space of unconditional love. I already see how much my compassion, Presence and Love have expanded yet I never realized, that at least in my case, it would lay on such a foundation of grief and loss. Even in this moment of such immense anguish, I can do nothing but surrender and trust the wave of love to carry me to its shore.

oneness or seperation

My primal fear is up again. I know it comes down to separation and it is just my particular flavor I need to heal. It is heating up to the core and it seems I just have two more layers to release. My two final barriers- the first is believing someone is essential to my well being, to my ability to be grounded and be safe. I am down to just one special relationship. After years of effort, I have finally cleared the only other special relationship I was still using to shield myself from the pain of separation. The second barrier is death but luckily that is not on my plate right now.
Some days I feel wonderful, deeply connected to myself, whole, trusting, relaxed, peaceful, calm. Other days like today I feel afraid, edgy, doubtful, desperate to connect outside myself, lost. A whole new physical element has been added to my experience yet I want to write about that later. For now, I am trying to ride wave after wave of feeling separate. I watch myself scramble to arrange fun activities, meetings and so on. I no longer even try to delude myself that I can eat or shop these feelings away. Sometimes the waves feel endless and I fear drowning in them. I am so tempted to answer it with another relationship, phone call,  external connection. And I am reaching out and meeting others. Yet I know that is not the answer, that leaves me as a puppet, on the string of external events and people. I know it is time to heal this for the last time. I am laying in my hammock, breathing deeply, trying to hang on to the feelings of trust that felt so solid just yesterday. I see clearly, oh so clearly. I have the taste in my mouth of that profound freedom and liberation. Yet for now fear is nibbling at my heels. All I can do is allow it to be as it is, to let go of yesterday's faith and trust, to surrender to today's doubt and anxiety and say YES to even this.