Enlightenment is a Gamble

love this one; i gasped when i read the last line. xoxox

Enlightenment is a Gamble

by Adyashanti


Original Language English

Time to cash in your chips
put your ideas and beliefs on the table.
See who has the bigger hand
you or the Mystery that pervades you.

Time to scrape the mind's shit
off your shoes
undo the laces
that hold your prison together
and dangle your toes into emptiness.

Once you've put everything
on the table
once all of your currency is gone
and your pockets are full of air
all you've got left to gamble with
is yourself.

Go ahead, climb up onto the velvet top
of the highest stakes table.
Place yourself as the bet.
Look God in the eyes
and finally
for once in your life
lose.

living in Christ consciousness, releasing deficiency

Another awareness popped in overnight. Debbie talked about not taking herself too seriously. Combined with something I wrote causally yesterday about spiritual "rules" being similar to Catholic sins triggered the ah ha. It is increasingly clear that I am still in fix it mode, trying to correct my deficient self to be worth of Christ consciousness. Bah humbug.  No way Jose. Still caught in that web. I intellectually KNOW that this is bogus yet my behavior tells me otherwise. I am still focused on healing my errors and restoring myself to wholeness. Wrong on two counts. :P First, given the work I have done on the inner planes, I am past the need to heal myself and that will not restore myself to wholeness. I am like a soldier that never heard the war is over, still slogging through the trenches. Yes, the healing was essential for decades, really. But I've been there and done that. Second it places my attention on deficiency, on error, on always scanning for ways to improve myself. That focus slams the door of the kingdom on my face and then tries to have my ego find the key. HUH?  If I knew how to be it, I'd have already moved into that state of being. It is never going to work. My ego can not drive me home to Myself. Can't be done. I am past the point where my efforts, my attempts at control, my taking this seriously works, this ironically keeps me locked away from my own Essence. Crazy, huh? I get it, trying doesn't work now. I am not the one that can take the final step Home. I must surrender to a mystery and power so far beyond myself. That Force knows what to do. I can fall back into it's arms. Enough with the constant self scrutiny, enough with the serious heaviness of constant improvement. Time to sing, dance, play and laugh. Ready to join me?

getting off the comparison train

Who wants to play the comparison game? Feels like a lot of us are right now. I feel it in the air, especially as some people are experiencing extended periods of bliss, joy , clarity, alignment while others feel totally stuck in the mud. I read it in peoples’ comments and I feel in my body how many others are falling into this bog. For the most part my compulsion to compare myself to others is beginning to fade. Yet when it comes to joy and belonging, I still get caught in the tar baby. When I see others celebrating in community I feel somehow excluded and alone. Now mind you I am a part of several glorious communities yet I feel like the outsider. I can feel  how I create a ring of separation around me when I feel uncomfortable. I am the one that is  blocking others from me yet I feel left out. Crazy I know. Then I read about others having “arrive” and feeling prolonged joy. First of all, I have no clue what that means. Others may read my words when I am a place of such clarity and peace and assume I have it made in the shade. My friend Uschi just told me she thought I was doing great from reading one of my blogs. I was for a few days. Now I am back in ughsville. I am very clear what I am processing is a sense of aloneness. It feels heavy and impenetrable in this moment. Yet just a few days ago I felt powerfully connected to family, to acquaintances, to strangers. I am all over the map. I feel in my body how many others are flipping around or maybe feeling constantly stuck in the goo. I have felt the burden of shame and self blame. I am still feeling subtle judgments for not being productive, for not contributing, for not “working” even though in my experience these shifts in consciousness are the hardest work I have ever done. I get it intellectually yet there is a part of me that still wants to sling mud on myself. 

When this mentor pointed out how stuck I was in spiritual ego I went into major fix it mode. In hindsight I see how I immediately went into my old belief in a punishing God. Based on something he said might happen if I did not clear this, something that would definitely not be my idea of fun, I went into oh shit, I’m doing it wrong and I will be punished. All these spiritual rules and regulations can begin to feel like Catholic sins with a vengeful God ready to throw a thunderbolt at me if I don’t get it right.  Here are some of the “rules”: allow everything, don’t judge, stay out of story, forgive, focus on the positive, focus on Love, Be Love, dive into your difficult emotions, stay out of your head, etc. Exhausting, right?   And the cost of getting it wrong? Suffering. No wonder we blame ourselves. It gives us a feeling of control. If the reason I am suffering so much is I screwed up, then if I unscrew up, my suffering will cease. I sense that isn’t so. We were born human, we are transforming into crystalline based and everything unlike that purer energy must rise to the surface to be detoxed. Nobodies fault, no sin, no blame, no shame.

I want to wave a magic wand and stop all of us from judging, comparing, blaming. What a waste of energy. Sometimes I can do it, sometimes not. I love what MattKahn says now, that in order to complete this transformation, all we have to do is survive it. We don’t have to like it, accept it, allow it, just survive, what a relief! Anybody else tired of all the spiritual hoops we have had to jump through? Really, reminds me of my catechism lessons. So I am taking the pressure off and enjoying that at best, with a few stellar exceptions, the most I experience is a quiet joy. Often I have a strong sense of peace and this is an invaluable gift. If you are reading this, and do not feel peace, I beg you not to compare yourself to me or I’ll kick you ass. 

 I am currently transforming aloneness and the process is definetely not my idea of a good time. Matt Kahn calls it ultimate surrender where one surenders even their preferences. When I first read that I was like, no way, forget it, never. Yet I now see that is the only way out of the prison. My bigest charge and yet greatest offering has always been about Love. I see how I got over having my child, husband, future soul mate be my reason for feeling loved. Yet I transferred some of that energy to friends and a yearning for community. Of course, I desire these things yet they will never transform the emptiness I feel. I get it. I am in the no exit place. I get all the poems, books, teaching that say that ultimately, if we look to anything outside ourselves, we are trapped. I get how formless emptiness is the answer. I get why this saying is so accurate: “why are you so unhappy, why are you so unhappy? Because 99% of everything you do and everything you say is about yourself, and there isn’t one...” That was esoteric bullshit until recently. A friend that I depended on (co-depended on?) was not sure she wanted to come to my ritual but rather preferred to attend another. When I felt how much that shook me up, it was back to the drawing board. My little mind wheels are spinning wildly, trying to figure it out. How does one transform unpleasant emptiness and aloneness to ecstatic formless Presence? That’s the million dollar question, isn’t it? I know a million ways it doesn’t work. I know that I don’t know the answer and never will. I either trust the Universe to get it handled or I’m screwed. So I am going to go with door number #1 and do my best to trust the Universe. Yes, it still feels like trying but hey, that’s the best I can do today and that is plenty good enough. Why, cause I love myself. 

So I hope you can save yourself some anguish and join me on the the no blame, no shame train and ride off into the sunset happily just surviving whatever arises. Hey if you can do so with joy, more power to you. If not, all is well, all is well, all is very very well. I love you.

Lost children of Christ

I found this long article very helpful (thank you Debbie). It was written in 2000. I have highlighted for you and myself the parts that were most relevant to me. May they guide you to a knowingness of your own vast magnifcence. May you begin to taste your own true power. I love you, always.

p.s. I went back and tried to find the dates for those he calls the lost children and I could not find it but  it is those born after the world wars until, I believe, the 70's.

"The Lost Children of Christ"

Presented at the Crimson Circle
January 15, 2000

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For others, at night it was like the greatest love you had ever felt slipped out and walked away from you. That is why we call you the Lost Children of Christ, for as children, each of you became lost. You closed the door and nailed it shut.

You felt within your being, ever since that day, the greatest of despair, the greatest of loss. The attempt to come back, to bring that back - oh, there is still remembrance within you of what that was like, an energy remembrance, perhaps not of the specific event but the feeling of the connectedness, the crystalline Christ structure within you, the shame that you felt, the need to put this away until the appropriate time. All of this, my dear friends, was by design. There was no mistake. There was no accident. For indeed it was necessary for you to hold this energy in a safe, hidden place within your being until the appropriate time. Oh, if you had allowed this Christ energy to come out in full in your teen years, in your early adult years, you would have been committed or killed or ridiculed. It was important for you to put this away. You, the Lost Children of Christ. You, the seed bearers.

We would like to apologize to you, if that is even possible, for what you have carried, and for the burdens you have taken on, for all the healings and the counseling and facilitation that you have had to go through to try to find what happened. But, my friends, you have chosen the path, and we have honored it. The feeling of loss, the feeling of abandonment, thatÕs where it comes from.

And now for the good news. Now for the good news, my friends. The seeds are beginning to germinate. They are beginning to shed their blankets, the ones that have made it, and not all have, but the ones that sit here, the ones you call family and lightworkers all over the world. You are the seeds that begin to germinate. This is the time for the seed that is awakening and feeling the discomfort but yet the joy of bursting forth, that is confused but yet filled with ambition. This is the time for the divine connection to take place, for the analogy that we used of the seed, for the lightning bolt to strike. We assure you, my friends, it will not be like a painful lightning bolt. It will be a stream of love that begins to come in, that connects with the seed that was within you, the Lost Children of Christ. It begins to help you sprout and to break through and to become the tree, the fruit, and the way...

That is what has been happening with you in these months that have passed - the preparation of the space and the beginning of the divine self integrating with the human self. We told you there was a chasm to cross, that it would be difficult for you would not know how far the chasm was or how you would get to other side but that by trusting in yourself and trusting in Spirit, you would suddenly emerge on the other side of the chasm. And that is what we are seeing with this group and spiritual ones all over the world.

Now as you begin to truly emerge and awaken, and there is the divine integration and the uniting power of the seed of the Christ consciousness that you carry, there will come to you a new type of entity, entities that will come to serve you. These will be different than what you have felt or known from what you have called your guides. Your guides were there to hold the balance of energy safely, the spiritual quotient around you. You are now beginning to accept all of your spiritual quotient for yourself. There is a new group that comes in. They are here tonight - the ones we mentioned earlier that are standing in the second circle. They come in here a service to each of you.

You are now taking responsibility. You are the leader of your own team. You do not need other entities coming in here directing you or keeping you in balance. You are beginning to do that for yourself. But yet while still being a human, there needs to be those who pull strings on the other side of the veil on your behalf. But, friends, you are the commanders. You are the creators. Do not give your power to another – only to yourself and the God-Self and the Christ-Self that you are...

But they will let you know in their way that they are there, and you will feel them. They are not there to answer your questions, for you must ask within yourself. You must go back to the Christ consciousness, to the crystalline structure within you and begin to pull that from yourself.

It is not the commander of the ship that asks the entities, the sailors, how to guide the ship. It is the commander who gives intent for direction, that has the sailors then do the running, the work. And that is the relationship that is being built here.

There were many times when you would ask your guides for advice or counsel. There were many times you went into neutral, waiting for an answer that you did not receive. Do not ask your runners which way you should turn. They simply respond to your committed intent. Ask within, my dear friends, for you are the one that is responsible. You are the ones who have carried the seed within you. You are the ones who are planting the Christ consciousness in the new Earth energy.

We are asking you to learn to work with this powerful energy that you are bringing in. The more you work with your own Christ energy, the more you learn the power that lies within it, the more adept you will become. The runners are there in service to you, to help you carry out committed intent. You will begin to see your creation happen quicker as you begin to voice committed intent and the runners begin to serve you...

We will tell you now that there are certain parameters with this that you have set up for yourself but we will repeat to you. If you choose to use energy of the white light, the Christ consciousness, for totally self-serving purposes, it will not work. It will be blocked. You have set up this energy pattern for yourself in love and honor. Oh, it will not backfire on you, my friends, but if you choose to use this for selfish or self-serving purposes, it will be dormant for that intent. If you choose to use it for manipulation, it will be dormant. Again, you have set up these energy parameters long before you came here. If you choose to use it for the good of all, for the good of the ones that you work with, for the good of the situation or the environment, you will see it respond very quickly.

My friends,the reason we mention this is also to help you understand that all things that you need as humans, all things that you need in terms of your health, in terms of your abundance, in terms of your energy levels - assume that they are there. Do not work from a position of lack, but assume that they are there. You will find that your own Christ-self responds to that when you assume that all things that you need are there, when you have trust in yourself. That is why you set up the energy parameter of not using this new empowerment for things that you need for yourself. It was assumed that you have all things...

Begin walking in that space of trust and knowingness, that everything that you are is in perfection. Begin using the energy of the Christ consciousness with your committed intent and with the help of the runners who come in to work with you.

It is time for each of you to begin creating. It is not time to sit back in the chair and do nothing. It is a time for each of you to begin the true work that you came in for, and we use the word work, but there will be joy in it. There will be joy as you help others. There will be joy, teachers. And each of you are teachers in guiding others. There will be competence as you begin to guide them. There will be a knowingness within you. You will see fast results, for you are now beginning to bring in the new power to help you work both sides of the veil...

the energy of the new Earth is different in that you can sit upon your bike each morning and the environment will change around you. That is meant to say that everything appropriate will be brought to you. You do not need to go out in search for it. All things appropriate from this moment forward will be brought to you. Then it is up to you to open up the energy of the Christ consciousness and to begin creating.

What is it that you should create? You will know, my friends, when you ask yourself, when you ask yourself what it is that you should do. Look around you from this moment on, that everything is appropriate. There are no mistakes. There are no coincidences. Look at each situation and ask "what brings it to you?" A person comes into your life, ask their Higher Self, ask within your being "why is this person being brought to me?" And you will have an answer. Perhaps not immediately. It may take some time but as you learn to work with your own empowerment, it will happen faster and faster. It will amaze you how fast it will happen.

Each and everything that comes your way has a purpose. You have brought it to you. It has been attracted. Begin to work with it. Begin to be creative, expressive beings. See no boundaries, for there are none in this energy of the new world. Be the healer and the teacher that you truly came to be. Allow the Christ consciousness to explode in joy around you.

My dear friends, the most difficult thing of all were the years you spent as the Lost Child of Christ, of hiding who you were, walking with that deep inner knowingness of what you had brought in. But knowing also that it had been lost and hidden, knowing the traumatic event that you went through to hide it, thinking that you had done something wrong, and that God had abandoned you and Christ abandoned you. You did not do something wrong, my friends. It was all part of the architecture of the energy, to bring it out only at the appropriate time, for the seed to germinate when the rest of the world was ready.

We love you dearly. We honor you deeply. There are tools that are available to each of you at this time. It is not a special gift of Spirit. These are tools youÕve placed in your path for when you are ready to call them forth. There are many tools, all the tools that you need. It is again by committed intent that you bring these forward. For when you need a flashlight to shine in the dark, your committed intent will bring it forth. When you need a magnet, a strong magnet, to attract the appropriate things to you, your committed intent will bring it forth. When you need any tool of any kind, you can create it within yourself immediately. For you now begin to fill your own toolbox.

House of Belonging

I have had a radical shift and for a a day and a half had felt better physically then I had in probably over a decade, maybe ever. It is fading a bit now yet the remebrance of how it feels to be energized and clear in the body, how incredibly scrumptious. I felt clear, strong, rested, aware. I had a session Friday with a very gifted local energy worker who helped me clear the fog and exhaustion that had shadowed me almost the entire month of Novemember and in to December. My frontal lobes felt like they were filled with a pushing goo, molasses clouding my ability to function. He said the chanellenge was with genetic material from my father and gradnmother. He also needed to connect the right and left brain hemispheres of my brain in a new link. (don't ask, cluless how it works...:P) I have had so much awareness come up. The next day I listned to Matt Kahn's Angel academy, session #3 and there was a question about aloneness that catalysed even further shifts and awareness. It had me recalling a poem of David Whyte's that speakes to where I am. I have much more I wish to share about these shifts but for now want to leave you with a teaser. I want to share what is helping me sail through these less than easy times.

David Whyte

THE HOUSE OF BELONGING

I awoke

this morning

in the gold light

turning this way

and that

thinking for

a moment

it was one

day

like any other.

But

the veil had gone

from my

darkened heart

and 

I thought

it must have been the quiet

candlelight

that filled my room,

it must have been

the first

easy rhythm

with which I breathed

myself to sleep,

it must have been

the prayer I said

speaking to the otherness

of the night.

And

I thought

this is the good day

you could

meet your love,

this is the black day

someone close

to you could die.

This is the day

you realize

how easily the thread

is broken

between this world

and the next

and I found myself

sitting up

in the quiet pathway

of light,

the tawny

close grained cedar

burning round

me like fire

and all the angels of this housely

heaven ascending

through the first

roof of light

the sun has made.

This is the bright home

in which I live,

this is where

I ask 

my friends

to come,

this is where I want

to love all the things

it has taken me so long

to learn to love.

This is the temple

of my adult aloneness

and I belong

to that aloneness

as I belong to my life.

There is no house

like the house of belonging.

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exercise for alignment- I AM

The best way to start this process is by invoking your I AM Presence and aligning with the I AM Presence of all Humanity every morning. This is easily done by simply stating...

 

“I AM my I AM Presence, and I AM One with the I AM Presence of ALL Humanity.”

 

Then ask your I AM Presence to help you be consciously aware of what you are empowering with your thoughts, feelings, words, actions, beliefs, and memories as you go about your day.

 

Throughout your day periodically ask yourself...

 

“Is what I AM thinking and feeling now what I want to empower and sustain in my life? At this moment, are my thoughts and feelings adding to the Light of the World or the shadows?”  

 

If your thoughts and feelings are not empowering what you want to create in your life or adding to the Light of the World then blaze the Violet Flame of God’s Infinite Perfection through them and ask yourself...

 

“What do I want to focus my attention on and create in my life instead of that? I ask my I AM Presence to reveal to me ideas and viable options that will help me empower and sustain what I want to create in my life while I AM adding to the Light of the World. I want to accomplish this with the highest good of all concerned.”  

 

After you ask your I AM Presence to help you, take a moment and go within the Divinity of your Heart to listen for the answers that your I AM Presence will reveal to you. The answers from your I AM Presence will help you create what you want in your life in the most positive and Loving way. The more you focus your attention on what you want to create in your life, while simultaneously invoking the Violet Flame to transmute everything that conflicts with the vision of what you want, the sooner your life will reflect the changes you desire.

 

The more vigilant you are in paying attention to your thoughts and feelings, the faster your life will change and the sooner the New Earth will become a tangible reality in your everyday experiences. Day by day, as you become the master of your thoughts and feelings, you will see evidence of the shift into Christ Consciousness that is manifesting not only in your heart and mind, but in the hearts and minds of people everywhere. Know that this is not a shift of consciousness that is destined for some future time. Christ Consciousness is beginning to manifest through the hearts and minds of the masses of Humanity right here and right now. And so it is.

 

Patricia Cota-Robles

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