12/12/12

It's 12/12/12 Beloveds and whatever you are feeling or not feeling, this is hugely significant. The post below says it well. Just a reminder that one of the several worldwide meditations begins in about half an hour if you want to join in on a delicious and historic moment. Yes, my feeling is this month will be remembered as B.C. and A.D. is known marking the turning of an age. An epoch is ending and a new one is beginning and we have the privilege of being witnesses! Pretty exciting.

So far the only thing unusual I have noticed was a thrumming in my upper left breast that woke me up. Otherwise all seems status quo yet that does not diminish my excitement one iota as I know on unseen levels monumental shifts are occurring. I just got the inner message to light 12 candles and have done so. I may update this later if I feel so called or notice anything unusual. I plan to be on the vortex on this land at 12:12 and will see what I will see. Perhaps a message from Gaia? Enjoy this historic day, my loves.

10:30 world meditation

For me the meditation was a scrumptious blend of stillness, extraordinary peace and vastness. What spontaneously came up for me was to cut any remaining cords that bound me, particularly to my father. It was very liberating. I did feel a supreme connection to the ALL. May this increasingly be our everyday reality!

12:35 12/12/12 12:12 p.m. meditation

This meditation felt more forced. The well felt rather dry. I accepted that. Around 12:12 it began to rain from ominous dark clouds. Under the trees, I was sheltered. I allowed it all to be as it was. Moments before I went to the vortex, I felt called to put on a ring of my father's and another of my mother's. I also put on a necklace from my childhood, my snake symbol of the year earring and a dancing kachina earring along with a moldavite ring. Each has special meaning for me. I felt rather empty until I opened my eyes after meditating for maybe 10 minutes. I asked Gaia for a message. Within 2 seconds a squirrel ran down a branch straight toward me, jumping to a tree perched over my head. Talk about a sign! I sat mesmerized. Within a few minutes another squirrel jumped to that tree, ran straight down the trunk and stopped maybe 8 feet, less than 3 meters away. staring at me, I kid you not. I was motionless yet stared back. What do you want me to know?, I asked. He ran off then I looked at the other one who was looking me also directly in my eyes for seconds!!!! whoa, now that is definitely something for me to pay attention to. He then jumped to a branch more directly above my head and sat for minutes. Now I was excited and vibrating with the joy of the connection. I walked out from the bower of trees toward the house and in that moment the sun came out full force and the clouds cleared up magically. Whoa!!!!
I can't wait to look up squirrel medicine in the animal totem I ordered that arrived yesterday. Talk about synchronicity! Love it. I'll get back to you if squirrel has any magical messages for us.

a new site someone sent me today with a lovely message:
cari@carimurphy.com>

also:

http://wesannac.com/2012/12/12/the-ascended-collective-a-message-for-the-12-12-12/

A beautiful chant for world peace:

Samastha Lokah Sukhino Bhavanthu. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=COvSfIxRfV8

I feel the love energy of 12/12/12 already incoming!

Kids, we are definitely not in Kansas anymore (wizard of Oz reference for my non USA readers). The energies are on the move and boy do I feel it. After being debilitated for over 10 days, practically incapacitated with overwhelm and freak out, I slowly emerged to now being in a space that feels almost manic. After so many years of being comatose, I feel an expansiveness that is huge, limitless. I sense so many possibilities. I have moments of such love and happiness!! Once while making love, I reached an ecstasy that was not of this earth. I felt such a sense of union, of connection, of home. I was beyond duality in a place I had never before touched. The beauty was unspeakable, the sense of magnificence, of glory. I have had inklings of that space today. I have been so productive  and calm I hardly recognize myself. My sense is that I am already picking up incoming 12/12/12 energies.

I will post some other blogs about tomorrow I found useful. There has been so much hype about tomorrow that I think a caveat or two may be in order. It is my strong sense that what we will experience tomorrow will be directly related to how much cleaning and clearing we have done of our e-goo. Actually I like Gary Zukov’s term better, frightened parts of ourselves. What we will experience will be directly proportional to how many frightened parts of ourselves that have been cleared out. This is not a race. We each have different parts to play. I have been clearing for about 25 years at various rates as that is what I needed to do to be in position to help the next wave find their true Identity. I know the clearing will be MUCH quicker for those of you beginning now.

The other caution is regarding how to understand those having a very onerous time now. If one is experiencing a lot of inner darkness and a wave of love/light energy arises, it pushes the problems to the surface. A friend told me her son is extremely challenged today and can find no way out of his despair. I also just saw a headline about a mass shooting in Oregon. This makes absolute sense yet is so painful to witness. Please join with me in sending healing energy to anyone for whom these energies are very arduous to assimilate.

You undoubtedly have your own unique role to fill which will affect what you experience tomorrow. I was shocked to walk through town last week and have people tell me they were experiencing nothing unusual. I was like, what?!?! I could barely move and they felt nothing? 

I imagine tomorrow will be like 11/11/11 last year. I got a clear sense energy was shifting yet it was no big thing. The sift gradually became clear as time went on. (station break for sunset. It looks like the backdrop for an MGM big budget biblical movie. It looks like the sunset heralding a new age, I kid you not!) I feel this energy shift more directly but don’t be surprised if you feel absolutely nothing. Trust that your timing will be impeccable. When it is time for you to return to you Essence as Love it will be like a train coming through, nothing will stop it. If you are interested in reading this, the train has probably already left the station. Trust that whatever happens for you is perfect. In the end it comes down to one question. Is your commitment to love or fear? If you can whole heartedly choose love, the rest will unfold with Divine grace. I can already hear some of your little noggins spinning. Was I whole hearted in my commitment, you may be asking yourself. Don't worry about it. It just requires a smidgeon of willingness and then all the power of the Universe will stand behind you and lift you slowly to the heavenly realms of a return to love.

As I have said, I have felt relatively incapacitated for a few years. My understanding is that the next wave of people waking up will get a much smoother ride. Now part of me is a little pissed off about this yet most of me says, shew, thank God. 

The main thing I want to convey is that I now have zero doubt. This unfolding is wonderful, for the highest good, earth shaking in a magnificent way. There are no words big enough to describe how miraculous this shift is. Imagine all your greatest dreams, multiply by 100,000 and I still don’t think we can begin to touch what is unfolding. An era of complete peace and love, cooperation, community, joy, integrity, health....I now KNOW that whatever needs to be released will be released with as much ease and grace as possible. I want to thank the forerunners for their pioneering work. I personally know some that paid a rather high price to pave the way for the rest of us. I am so happy to see them reaping huge rewards.

My energy is winding down. Take the time tomorrow to focus clearly on what you want, calling in the feeling tone of it. Perhaps write down exactly how your life would be if it was a miracle come true. Join in the global meditation. Give thanks to be alive at this turning point in the history of the earth!!! Join me in imaging living a life way beyond your wildest dreams, filled with a love beyond what you can hardly even envision!!!


I often post many blogs. Please use your intuition to see which ones would be valuable for you.

http://the2012scenario.com/2012/12/natalie-glasson-archangel-metatron-ascension-shifts-121212-2/

http://wesannac.com/2012/12/11/reflecting-on-catalysts-as-we-reach-the-12-12/

http://the-golden-age.blogspot.com/2012/12/this-phase-is-over-december-10-2012

http://aquariuschannelings.com/2012/12/10/salusa-december-10-2012

A beautiful act of forgiveness:

http://sports.yahoo.com/blogs/nfl-shutdown-corner/jerry-brown-mother-wants-josh-brent-ride-her-

And some of my favorite sites:

http://leeharrisenergy.blogspot.com/

http://thinkwithyourheart.com/

http://ascension101.com/

good news, what to expect and meditation for 12-12-12

Wow, it sounds like planet Earth is doing fantastic. Here is a long blog about what to expect on 12-12-12 and a very long meditation. I will also post a global mediation which i sense will be fantastic and help shift the planet to an entirely new energy of love and peace. Please join in!!!

http://the-golden-age.blogspot.com/2012/12/what-should-we-expect-dec-12-dec-21-22.html

global meditation:

http://the-golden-age.blogspot.com/2012/12/global-meditation-at-1212-of-ascension.html

another sweet article about the energies of 12/12, article dated 12/11

http://www.dreaminginterpretation.com/

melting iceburgs

I have always visualized my family background as a frozen tundra filled with iceburgs. Yet when I read this poem, I did not recognize it and wondered who wrote it. I was struck by the power of the imagery. Imagine my surprise to realize it was me. I am impressed by how accurately it portrays a major aspect of my healing. I am also moved to see how far I have left that landscape behind!!!!!!

In your silence
I bury myself under the cold snow
Forget the warmth I grappled my way back to
Climbing over generations of bodies 
Frozen
Their lips unmoving
Hands uselessly at their side
Unable to feel the heat of human touch
Emotions in solitary confinement
A million perceived rejections pile together until 
I too
Consider the tundra
Allow myself to give into to the cold
First a toe disappears, then a finger, a bit of my heart
Lost to the ice
My hand unmet
After a lifetime of trying to keep myself safe
Freeze the pain 
Lop off frostbitten body parts
I recognize
The only way for me to stay safe is to say
No 
to safety
To swim through the icy snow
To claw push shove grapple my way to the surface
To watch my mind like a caged beast
Refusing to let it pull me back into the prison
Over and over
To put my hand out
My heart unguarded
To say yes to silence to cold to avalanches
Whatever it takes
I turn from the frozen wilderness of german irish blood
Stiff upper lip east coast control
I spit scrape defecate
Bloodied and bruised again again again
Let the pain dance the tango
Bare my chest
Taunting
Give it your best shoot
I will not give in
I will love again

Snapshot of my shadow and frayed nerves

I recently received some from very astute criticism. This person revealed a number of things “wrong with me.” I was astonished how accurate it was, with one exception. I was surprisingly neutral about it. Almost unbelievably, (drum roll please) I GENUINELY WELCOMED IT. Most of the criticism I recognized ias accurate , yet it helped me dial in more precisely some areas where I can clear up some ego. One comment was so spot on that I giggle every time I think of it. The words were so accurate it gave me a very clear picture of a part of my shadow I knew about yet had never seen so precisely. The words give me a little snapshot to keep me honest.I feel such gratitude for this person’s sharp intuition and clear seeing. The message did come with charge. I had a little feeling of separation which I kept digging deeper to release. I did a gestalt to clear up any charge between us on my side. I now feel very complete although there was no resolution between us. 

I remember Byron Katie saying she welcomed criticism and I thought, no way! It is so delicious to have more appear in the neutral category of my life. It is so liberating. If I had any idea how fun it could be, I would have been much more receptive when people “insulted” me in the past. Maybe I would have even given them a hug!. 

I realize my big opportunity now is to tame my nervous system. It remains easily triggered with these heightened energy. I get how this personal lie, this negative self image of my self as incapable because my nervous system has been so easily pushed into overdrive has shaped my life. I keep challenging that scared part of me by doing the opposite of what it commands. Yesterday I drove in the dark and rain even though I felt so hyped up and frightened. I did a number of errands, even though I just wanted to sit in silence. I break it down bit by bit by continuously doing the opposite of what it swears is essential in order for me not to flip out. As I see myself doing more than I ever imagined possible, the negative image begins to fade and my nervous system literally calms down. This has been one of the most astonishing awarenesses for me, how linked my body/ mind is. I would have sworn to you that this aspect of me could not be changed, that it was innate and just bad luck. Now I know many gifts of intuition and awareness come from my sensitivity. Yet it felt like bad luck as it seemed to limit me in countless ways. It continues to amaze me how I can shift my physical experience so that I remain calm and balanced in so may more situation, situations that use to send me into the stratosphere. I am constantly reminded of how powerful we are.  We are truly unlimited, yet only if our mind agrees it IS SO.

I heard an interesting online conversation today with Barbara Hand Chow. She was talking how a catastrophic event happened millions? of years ago and wiped out a large percentage of the population. She said the cellular trauma still has an impact on us today and makes these doomsday scenarios harder to ignore. This can trigger panic even when totally unwarranted, even when the mind knows the end of the world stuff is pure nonsense. I found this fascinating and somehow it fits for me. I realize that the level of nerve activation for me this last weekend was totally disproportional to what was factually occurring. It felt like my nerves were flayed. I sense it is giving me the awareness and motivation to put this one behind me for the last time. Doing so would free up so much of my life force that has been lost to this trigger. I know it would give me a whole new reality. So I will dive in, trust and keep challenging that voice that says I can’t by saying, yes, I can!

O.k., now smoke alarm firing with ear splitting noise, just what my frayed nerves needed. I see what road overwhelm wants to take me down. See how I want to run and escape that feeling of my nerves being attacked by fire-ants.  I went and sat outside in the fog and asked for help. I steadied my breath. I watched my thoughts circle like a sand storm. I slowed them down and questioned them. We tried prying the fire alarm apart, smashing it, shutting it down, nothing worked. I finally thought **&&^^%$#@#@#$$%^&&** I am shutting that *&&^%$$##$ alarm off. I studied it again and finally figured out how to disable it yet it was jammed. I wanted to get furious at how stupid it was. Instead I stayed with it and finally disabled it. The feeling of triumph and elation was intense. I had overcome the voice that said I could not. 

My sense is frayed nerves may be par for the course right now. Little triggers that create the feeling my nerves are being sawed with a jagged tomahawk would normally not even register in my awareness.This is a period of time that will go down in the annals of history as perhaps the moment of the greatest transformation the world has ever know. We are living through it in this instant. With the huge solar flares and major astrological events practically daily, it is no wonder there is no status quo. We are all in unknown territory. There is no precedent for this epoch. Trust whatever you are experiencing is perfect for you and your soul growth. Yet pay extra attention. I see extremely aggressive driving and other signs things are definitely "not normal." 

 My loves, spend as much time as you can in silence and/or nature. Take it as easy as you can this whole month. Pass on all unnecessary busyness. Stay centered and alert. May the Force be with you.

what's happening?!?!?

Found these posts reassuring and accurate to me, wanted to pass them forward:

THIS FIRST ONE FOR ME SPEAKS SO MUCH TO WHAT MY MESSAGE AND PASSION ARE ABOUT, AT LEAST THE FIRST PART, (NOT THE SEX PART, ALTHOUGH NOW MAYBE YOU ARE INTRIGUED)

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Flf4mJFm3p4

other sweet posts:

http://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/

http://www.magnifiedmanifesting.com/energy-forecast

authentic power

Somehow reading Gary Zukov’s book Spiritual Partnership has proved critical for me at this time. The key point I got is the pursuit of authentic power. Somehow this framework has helped me dial in where I am losing power. It has helped me find my hidden, negative  intentions. Just yesterday I caught myself being what he calls a friend, making nice nice rather than supporting the person in finding her true power in the situation she was sharing with me. 

Yesterday I was still in spin energy. The image I have is a scene from Wizard of Oz  where the house is twirling in the sky and everything is flying past the window. I was freaking myself out with the old thought that in the future, I wouldn’t be able to handle any more intensity. I was imaging future negative fantasies which were scaring the bejesus out of me. I was lost in my old self image as just too sensitive to live my life as I dream. I had gotten through those four days of challenging circumstances that had kept my nerves fired up. I was at peace through much of it yet it had a cumulative effect. By Sunday I was teary and very ungrounded. I could not regain my balance. I remembered to allow it and surrendered totally to my sadness and grief. Yet I forgot to welcome the anxiety so, of course, it lingered. 

I realize anxiety pulls me into the future were I fear I will finally collapse or some other nonsense. In the now, I am handling whatever arises. Yet in the future who knows? That is how that particular mind f*ck messes with me. I somehow calmed down and slept deeply last night. I woke up and grabbed my trusty Course in Miracles and got the lesson that tells me to place my future in the hands of God. HOW PERFECT!! Now that was a mini miracle as it was spot on. I KNOW these little lessons are setting me free of my own limitation and mind traps. I KNOW they are serving me I KNOW I will handle what arises. I KNOW there is a force greater than me guiding the whole process.

We received a package from Austria with goodies for Nicholas day (St. Nick) and there was a bar of candy. For some reason I looked at the date, something that is quite atypical. It was dated 3-21-13, spring equinox and the date this portion of the shift will be complete, in my understanding. It felt so reassuring, another little gift/sign from the Universe.

Overwhelm loves to tell me I can’t clean up and my house has been in such an uproar from the other cleaning necessity. I felt helpless to respond and clean. Yet I dug deep, challenged that belief and accessed my authentic power. AS a four on the enneagram my challenge is to act even when I feel emotionally overrought. It is a big deal for me to challenge that old pattern yet I did it!!!!!! I cleaned for almost and hour and will do more. I feel so relieved. I feel like a heroine. I keep waiting for a ticker tape parade or at least the keys to the city. No such luck. We are all heros/heroines in these times as we dig deep and find our courage to keep on trucking. My loves, my thoughts and prayers go with you as we move into this beautiful new earth that awaits us just around the corner.

Laws to support trust in what is:

Law of Detachment:

1) When it begins (relationship, job and situation) it is always right.

2) Who shows up is exactly who needs to be there.

3) What happens is the only thing that could have happened.

4) When it is done. It is done.

from:
 http://newearthdaily.com/gemini-lunar-eclipse-power-of-love/