no problem

Something that happened to me recently seems to be a perfect example of how our new ability to co-create works. During a storm in early December, my car was severe damaged by the carport that tore loose and smashed it. I saw the damage while I was on the phone after an intense night with howling winds. My wasband had put the carport up for me as a birthday gift and was very disturbed that the car was so severe damaged and seemingly experienced some guilt about it. I refused to get upset and was remarkably calm. I could hardly believe it myself. Roads were washed out so he was unable to come immediately to survey the damage which included a downed tree. I was in the midst of the experiences that were forcing me to heal my challenge with overwhelm and perhaps that is why I stayed calm; I simply didn't have the space or energy to be disturbed. Also I did not my wasband to feel bad or guilty which was another factor in my neutrality. I certainly care more about him than my car. I was able to do what I suggested in an earlier post:

"Whatever the hell happens, say this is what I need. It may look like a wreck, but go at it as though it were an opportunity. If you bring love to that moment, not discouragement, you will find the strength there. Nothing can happen to you that is not positive. Even though it looks and feels at the moment like a negative crisis, it is not. The crisis throws you back, and when you are required to exhibit strength, it comes." 


- Joseph Campbell, the Follow Your Bliss Man 

I was only a little concerned when the adjustor almost had to total the car, an eventuality I very much did not want and did not happen. Instead it really did turn out to be an opportunity.
I took the car in this week for the repairs. One thing after another turned out miraculously. First they have to repaint the entire car so I am having them paint it the color of my prior car, a color I loved. The only thing I did not like about this car was the color so I got a wish I never imagined would come true; a car a color that lifts my energy. Then the car rental place had a run on cars so when I arrived with my reservation they had to upgrade me to the only remaining car while keeping my low price. Thus I am driving in a very cushy, comfortable car. The insurance gave me a flat rate for the full amount of time allowed for the rental. The shop thinks they can be finished more quickly and I chose an inexpensive car (even though I got a fancy one "coincidentally.") Plus I had some very minor details of the repair skipped. So in the end I will have a car painted the color I love and come out with almost a $1000 in my pocket while driving a fancy car in the interim. I had no idea it might turn out like this, better than I could possibly have imaged. The way I see it by staying absolutely neutral, the situation unfolded beautifully and actually turned out to be a good thing in my life. I mentioned it to my wasband to assure him there really was no problem. I just love it as it clearly demonstrated to me the possibilities of living a miraculous life of co-creation when we decided not to get attached or upset by external circumstances. We live in a new world of very new possibilities, opportunities (that may appear as challenges) and "no problem."

Whose responsible for my life? Finding our inner authority

Three forces have come together to support me in taking a closer look at this question. The first was a blog by Wes from Aquarius Paradigm. Apparently some people are targeting their disappointment about 12/21 at him and making him responsible for what they chose to believe would occur. He is such a delightful, wise, generous kind man I was disheartened to hear others were expressing their frustration on him. The second was a post I saw from Lee Harris, below, where he talked to a channeling friend whose guides told her to go eat an apple. She did it and then they asked her why she did it. She said, because you told me to. They asked, but why? They wanted her to realize that she must be the ultimate authority in her own life and not surrender that responsibility to anyone, including her channeled guides. 

The third trigger was this morning in a conversation with my friend and spiritual partner Uschi who told me one of my blogs didn’t resonate with her. That’s when the big bingo went off in my head. It is critical that we be the authority in our own lives. We have been trained to surrender that inner wisdom to people in positions of “authority” such as doctors, teachers, gurus, religious figures, relatives or even government. This is not desirable particularly as structures continue to collapse and the ground beneath our feet is constantly shifting. We must trust ourselves to know what is best for us and not surrender our choices to anyone else. Only we have lived with ourselves our entire life and only we will be held accountable for our choices, The temptations to let another make the decisions for us can have unfortunate consequences when things don’t turn out as expected. We lock ourselves into the victim/aggressor/savior or rescue triangle. We keep ourselves enslaved, a puppet on the string of whatever authority we want to save us. We are too magnificent to limit ourselves in this way. Please, always check everything you hear against your own wisdom. Does it feel good? How does your body respond? Are you getting red flags. The choice and consequences are ours. 

DEveloping our own inner authority and wisdom can be hard work. I have spent decades developing my inner strenght. It feels easier to depend on another and then blame them if it doesn't turn out as we wish. I know I have done this numerous times. Yet as I continue my commitment to my own inner growth, this choice is no longer accepatable. This is not to blame those who are doing this as clearly it is done from lack of awareness. It is just a little wake up call. Always consult the oracle within. But hey don’t listen to anybody about this, including me.

http://wesannac.com/2013/01/07/shifting-focus-to-repair-our-world/

Lee Harris   http://youtu.be/GDWBxOhmvOk 

go outside! spending time in Nature

A quick note. Has anyone else noticed the shift in the sun? It is higher in the sky relative to where it was prior to 12/21 and it is brighter. Two of the best things to help adapt to this intensified energy is to just spend a few minutes outside often. Even if it is cold out, bundle up and do it!! Gaia is best able to help us balance our energy when we allow ourselves the embrace of the  sights and sounds of the natural world. Since 12/21, I have found even just a few minutes of being silent while listening to the wind and birds can restore me to inner harmony. I have developed a relationship with the land and animals and it brings me great riches. Like any relationship, it requires nurturing to have the most ideal connection. Experiment and see what happens. I do recommend giving it some time to see what develops.
I also recommend glancing at the sunrise or sunset for a few seconds to absorb the sun’s new frequency which will then bring you up to speed. This new energy has many gifts if we can adjust to the higher frequency.

we have arrived; let's begin to create the new planetary heart matrix

Beloveds,

As I read the post below, I felt truly inspired. I felt a strong sense of expansion and possibility. I will write more on this later yet would be so pleased if you would take the time to read the (long) post below. Let me know if you need me to post the entire blog so that you can translate it. It is a call to action, a call that has been germinating in me for a very long time. That call lifts me from victim to conscious co-creator of the world I yearn to live in. As the feeling of home, of tenderness, of such exquisite Love continue to flourish within me it become absolutely essential for me to extend my inner aliveness outward. I call to each of you, my Beloveds, to join me/us in the creation of the evosphere, the new heart Matrix where Love is the only legitimate guiding force. We have arrived, the time is Now. Let’s begin.

http://newearthdaily.com/2013-the-blank-slate-by-nicolya-christi/

Remembering our loving essence while exiting lala land

I seem to have passed through the latest wave of fear. It was strong and for some hours nothing seemed to relieve it. Yet I must acknowledge that it has been months since I was completely trapped in fear with no memory of my true nature as Love. Yes, it was just a little peep of Presence yet a tiny window reminded me it was temporary, illusion, a lie I was telling myself and finite. This helps!

Here is what I am realizing. I and a lot of other people were looking to 12/21/12 as some magic mythical event. I secretly hoped it would reward me for all my hard work releasing frightened parts of myself with some major dispensation clearing much of the forgetting and blessing me with more total recall of my true nature. Of course, I hoped this would happen to many if not most "lightworkers" or anyone devoted to Love. Then from this exulted position of knowing we would extend ourselves to the next level of beings ready to remember. In many ways, I think that is what occurred. Yet the way I perceive it is as a choice rather than a dispensation. Now I must stay more focused to make that choice. My old habits of sugar addiction and chaos in my environment have definitely been my experience for the last weeks. When people say nothing happened I can hardly fathom it as, for me, the intensity of the upgrade has swamped me in many ways. I sense I am finally adjusting and landing back in Sophia's embrace. I was able to spend an hour cleaning up the debris piled up in my house, clean the bunny cage and even do the wash! Now these were beyond my reach for quite some time. I was wise enough to acknowledge the intensity and cut myself a break so I had no judgment about the mess, just fear that it would not end and that I would again become semi functional.

I just listened to the new year's audio from the oracle report. It confirmed what I already knew; the stakes are higher as those who do not wish us the highest good amplify their attempts to maintain control and pump us with fear. Over the years, I gradually began to question some of the things designed to induce fear. The first time I really got it was when the next major flu that was suppose to wipe out thousands was hyped. I refused to even remember the name of it let alone get some vaccination. I refused to fear for my child (that took more stamina.)  I remember a joke that circulated along the lines of; can't eat pork, swine flu; can't eat chicken, bird flu, can't eat beef, mad cow so might as well eat ice cream!! Then there was the terror alert scale on TV or some such. I have not watched TV in about a decade so I did not have to suffer from that nonsense much yet see enough garbage just opening my computer.

Yet I have had to exit fairy land. Fairy land is where I believe the white knight is going to rescue me. For years it was a man I sought to save me from my feelings of inadequacy, of not feeling capable, of not feeling loved. Well, the dissolution of my marriage cured that one. Yet inadvertently I shifted to some magic energy rescuing me from myself, from my fears and ego patterns. In a very real way they have and are lifting us. There is an astounding energy of love available yet we must choose it continuously. Fear beguiles us with its enveloping web and it takes courage to leave it's sticky grasp repeatedly. I expected great ease post 12/21. In some ways yes. I feel the accessibility of the energy of Love in a very powerful new way. Yet I have had to increase my practices to have the clarity to choose that Love energy. I have a gratitude practice, an embodied joy practice, a meditation practice. Every morning as soon as I wake up I set my intention for a joyful, loving, peaceful day. I surrender to Divine will. I extend an energy field of Love around the globe. All before I get out of bed. I have created a new alter; it is a sand tray filled with powerful tokens of earth energy such as sand, stones, shells, sand dollars and so on. I surround myself with statues of my guides such as Yeshua, Buddha, Ganesh, Quan Yin. I just downloaded paintings of Mary Magdalene whose energy I have recently been connecting to powerfully. I wear colors that lift me. I sit near the sunny side of the deck in silence to absorb Gaia's strength. I constantly read uplifting literature. I go to my Way of Mastery class and connect with high energy people. I move (this one is still a big stretch for me and just in it's initial phase.) I eat natural, whole alive foods which I prepare (this one is still on my cutting edge.) I am using the pillar of light visualization. I only watch uplifting movies for the most part. I constantly allow dark energies to pass through my body. I CHECK MY BELIEFS AFTERWARDS TO SEE WHAT TRAPPED ME. (apparently THEY thought that was worth capitalizing.) In other words, I take constant responsibility for my field of energy, for my state of consciousness.

I bet some of you are thinking, too much work, no way. I know I did. Yet when the choice is crystal clear, as it is for me, love or fear, and the price of both rises daily, the choice is clear and undeniable. Fear feels so devastating, love feel so magnificent, so deliciously home I must do whatever is necessary to stay in that resonance. I know. I too prefer the fairy land where space ships or mythical creature just pop us into the remembrance of Love. I enjoyed my little fantasy while it lasted. (just kidding with the space creatures.) I hope you get my point. The cost of fear is rising daily and the beauty of Love is doing the same. Yes, it takes a tad of effort. Yet is anything else on earth more precious? I'm just saying...

wonderful woman and post which i highly recommend... i might have posted before:

http://www.jenniferposada.com/writings  dec. 23, 2012

also this month's forecast at:

http://www.magnifiedmanifesting.com/energy-forecast 

and

http://www.thepowerpath.com/index.php/power-path-home/the-power-path/monthly-forecast/509-january-forecast-2013 

feeling afraid in this new epoch

The last few mornings were rough for me. I had rather strong fear arising. Especially yesterday morning, I was immersed in the grip of fear and had forgotten all exits. I am continually surprised by the strength with which the forgetting can trick me. I sought control of the fear, sought to escape it with sugar, with busyness, with anything. I dragged myself into a story about being incapable, about it never ending, about being sick and tired of even trying. Guess how those strategies turned out? Exactly, they dumped me unceremoniously on my ass, buried in fear. My body felt paralyzed in fear, my brain was fogged and I was caught in projection and distortion. I had some level of awareness and I kept my mouth shut and did not act on the fear. I had a smidgeon of allowance so tiny it did little to mitigate the fear. I even sat in the sun, listening to the birds and wind and still felt trapped. Finally I remembered to surrender and used my mentor Karl’s words along the lines of “get you ass down here and help me out of this mess” although I used even more choice words. Now I know I am talking to a Source with more altitude than me yet really I am merely talking to the highest part of myself, irrevocably interconnected to the Whole. Something shifted and mini miracles unfolded. The things I feared disappeared like the chimera they are. Instead a couple of my deepest desires unfolded in small ways. I even forced myself to take a tiny walk. I talked to my spiritual partner and gained even more insight. 

Today I woke up calm and saw how I had forgotten all my tools as fear encased me with cement talons yesterday. It is very clear to me that duality has raised the stakes. I thought how wonderful it will be now that those who seek power over others will no longer be able to play with our lives as the boomerang effect will push their manipulations right back on them. I did not stop to see how my own little petty dances with ego would also be magnified. A story Karin told me about how she was initially caught by ego’s demands, pissed off at another who was also caught in a fear response, caught my attention and woke me up to the new “reality.”. For me, any little attempt to maintain control has an immediate backlash. When I try to hang on to the passing shore for dear life, I end up with mud in my face. These energies make it very obvious whether I am choosing love or fear. Yes, it feels like I have entered a new land with new customs which I am not yet use to. I felt so ungrounded when I first moved to northern California and it took me years to find some level of familiarity and comfort. These times feel somehow similar and it gives me unexpected comfort to understand why expecting comfort now is counter productive. I must go with the flow wherever it takes me, comfortable or not. Today’s oracle report really spoke to me, as excerpted below. Beloveds, these are rocky times. Know you are not alone and that unseen forces are at your command. Call on them whenever fear threatens you with it’s siren song. Connect to nature often to stay centered. Breath, move, pray, love, trust!

Oraclereport.com 1/2/13

...But these changes are broad and sweeping, and in turn we are sensitive to the instability, alienation, loneliness, and anxiety that they bring.  In the midst of this, we need to remain open to options because opportunities lie within the changes.  Remember that this month we are like immigrants in a new country.  The energy seems foreign to us.  However, even though things have definitely changed, one things remains  - the guardianship of Sophia.  Most beings in the cosmos are not fortunate enough to be traveling through space with their creator (creatrix).  The way to handle the world now is to continually reinforce our inner connection with the planet.  When things get tough, we have to take a mental time out, take a breath, and visualize being rooted...

Happy New Year 2013

Beloveds,

Happy New Year 2013! As is my annual tradition I have released all that no longer serves me into the fire and will be writing more of my intentions for the new year, completing them within the first ten days of the year, sealing them in an envelope and then reading them on New Year's Eve (if I can find them; 2012 where are those intentions?!?!?) The intention will be vibrantly alive, positive, written in the here and now and 50% believable. I have also chosen my symbol. Over a month ago I chose a painter's palate for creativity and even bought myself a pin and earring shaped like painter's palates yet I now realize another symbol is more appropriate so that will become my primary symbol. It is a tree with hearts at the end of each branch. I had and lost such a silver pendant and will try to relocate one. My tentative saying is 
"joyfully undulating embodied presence" or maybe "frolicking joyfully as embodied presence."  Last year's which I totally loved and was absolutely ideal was "limitless power dancing unity." It is so perfect I will also carry it over to this year. I would be delighted if you wish to join me and write your symbol or power word/words for the year. Feel free to also include any intentions. Sending you love and hope for this complex new year.