O.K. Russia, it is so good to see you here. I am so curious where you live, what your name is, how you feel. Would you be willing to tell me anything about yourself. Russia is such a big country- I am trying to picture you. Would you be open to me? No worries if it is too scary or you just don't feel like it- know you are in my heart.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Thursday, December 1, 2011
self hatred
waves of self hatred are washing over me in this moment. it is very hard for me to admit, especially here. It is important for me to own this so I declare it is so in this moment and I allow this. this is what i try to share with others, we must allow what is. this is what is in this moment so I allow it to have its way with me and I say YES! through my tears. i am afraid i will scare away new readers but so be it. Please send me light to pass through this wave. I intend to love myself through this self hatred.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
new friends
Beloveds,
Welcome- it is wonderful to see so many new friends checking in today. Please feel free to comment, dialogue, disagree respectfully, sign up to follow this, as your heart desire's. Just recently I began to comment on ThinkwithyourHeart.net and I have developed such amazing connections and support. This is a dream come true, a circle of loving support as I have always envisioned and my desire is to create the same sense of belonging with this blog. I wish all of you to experience this same delicious sense of family, if you so choose. Please feel most welcomed and appreciated. Know, as I do, that we are all indeed the Beloved!
I also want to share my new friend's site. For those of you into magic, fairies and being given a mission to add sparkle to others' lives, please check out Kate's site at:
http://myeverydaymagic.com/my-everyday-magic/
Welcome- it is wonderful to see so many new friends checking in today. Please feel free to comment, dialogue, disagree respectfully, sign up to follow this, as your heart desire's. Just recently I began to comment on ThinkwithyourHeart.net and I have developed such amazing connections and support. This is a dream come true, a circle of loving support as I have always envisioned and my desire is to create the same sense of belonging with this blog. I wish all of you to experience this same delicious sense of family, if you so choose. Please feel most welcomed and appreciated. Know, as I do, that we are all indeed the Beloved!
I also want to share my new friend's site. For those of you into magic, fairies and being given a mission to add sparkle to others' lives, please check out Kate's site at:
http://myeverydaymagic.com/my-everyday-magic/
forgiveness, again and "them"
I had a small yet powerful experience the other day. I wanted some lunch so went to my local co-op. Turns out I was early and they were still serving breakfast at the food bar. The only lunchy type food was soup. The one I wanted had no spoon so I borrowed the spoon from another soup and served myself. A man came out with more serving spoons and I told him what I'd done. He became unglued and yelled at me, "Don't do that!" He explained I'd mixed up vegetarian and non vegetarian soups and that the soups weren't ready. I felt a mild charge in my body yet stayed neutral. Now the first miracle is that the charge in my body was very mild, the second that I could stay neutral. I said evenly,"Sorry, I wasn't thinking." He immediately calmed down too and explained why it was important. What could have escalated into something unpleasant actually turned out to be a gentle exchange. Now this for me is true forgiveness. I did not make him wrong, saw no "error" in my "brother" and we were both able to go on our way. For me forgiveness has been to slowly retrain my nervous system not to perceive attack. If it does perceive attack, I often can override it with my powerful intent to stay neutral. I notice every time I counter attack, I suffer. Every time I stay neutral I remain at peace. Duh, which do I prefer.
I have an official announcement to make. It appears I am channeling a group I call "them." I have been receiving messages since 2005/2006 usually to tell someone something or to do something for someone. I never gave it too much attention. I sort of played it down within myself. My new dear friend Hein suggested to me yesterday basically to own "them." I recognized I never thought of it as channeling as I don't hear anything I just KNOW. Now I don't have a clue if this is a group of aspects of my Higher Self or energies from elsewhere. I just know that when I relay their messages people often burst into tears or have some revelation. I am speaking about it here to get over myself and own this. I sense some unworthiness, as though to admit this would be some form of grandiosity. I am getting more and more clear about how we are unlimited, powerful beyond imagination. As Marianne Williamson has said, who are we NOT to own our own magnificence. We short change ourselves and the Universe when we play small. I feel fluttering in my tummy when I write this. Too bad, I'm coming out of the closet.
I had an unique experience when I listened to them the other day. Someone I have connected with on ThinkwithYourHeart.org was having a meltdown while at work in a skyscraper in Seattle. This was happening in the moment. I got this urge from "them" to light a candle, go barefoot out on to my land, recognize the sacredness of this land and all life and call out her name. She, Jenn, had said something about looking out the window at the clouds to help calm down. So I told her I'd send her a friendly cloud to support her. I wrote to her that I would do this and proceeded to get a bunch of thorns in my feet as I hopped out on to the land. I called Jenn's name nine times. I truly experienced how sacred Gaia is, how blessed I am to be the steward of this hallowed land, how vast my connection to Jenn felt in that moment. She got my email hours after the fact. She said she was stunned because she suddenly started saying to a co-worker that she was feeling much better, she did not understand but her energy changed rapidly apparently at the same time as my ritual. She also had the urge to take a picture of the cloud outside her window- all this BEFORE she received my email. I ask you, is something up? I tell you for sure, we're not in Kansas anymore. (For you readers from other countries, this is a reference to a famous line from an American classic movie, The Wizard of Oz.")
by Marianne Williamsonfrom A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles
I have an official announcement to make. It appears I am channeling a group I call "them." I have been receiving messages since 2005/2006 usually to tell someone something or to do something for someone. I never gave it too much attention. I sort of played it down within myself. My new dear friend Hein suggested to me yesterday basically to own "them." I recognized I never thought of it as channeling as I don't hear anything I just KNOW. Now I don't have a clue if this is a group of aspects of my Higher Self or energies from elsewhere. I just know that when I relay their messages people often burst into tears or have some revelation. I am speaking about it here to get over myself and own this. I sense some unworthiness, as though to admit this would be some form of grandiosity. I am getting more and more clear about how we are unlimited, powerful beyond imagination. As Marianne Williamson has said, who are we NOT to own our own magnificence. We short change ourselves and the Universe when we play small. I feel fluttering in my tummy when I write this. Too bad, I'm coming out of the closet.
I had an unique experience when I listened to them the other day. Someone I have connected with on ThinkwithYourHeart.org was having a meltdown while at work in a skyscraper in Seattle. This was happening in the moment. I got this urge from "them" to light a candle, go barefoot out on to my land, recognize the sacredness of this land and all life and call out her name. She, Jenn, had said something about looking out the window at the clouds to help calm down. So I told her I'd send her a friendly cloud to support her. I wrote to her that I would do this and proceeded to get a bunch of thorns in my feet as I hopped out on to the land. I called Jenn's name nine times. I truly experienced how sacred Gaia is, how blessed I am to be the steward of this hallowed land, how vast my connection to Jenn felt in that moment. She got my email hours after the fact. She said she was stunned because she suddenly started saying to a co-worker that she was feeling much better, she did not understand but her energy changed rapidly apparently at the same time as my ritual. She also had the urge to take a picture of the cloud outside her window- all this BEFORE she received my email. I ask you, is something up? I tell you for sure, we're not in Kansas anymore. (For you readers from other countries, this is a reference to a famous line from an American classic movie, The Wizard of Oz.")
Our Deepest Fear
by Marianne Williamsonfrom A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Friday, November 25, 2011
this lousy world- Pema Chodron
Here is a delightful little video about how to deal with a lousy world. I hope you can get to the site- you might have to join serreal-. it is a lovely community you may wish to join anyway.
http://serreal.ning.com/video/pema-ch-dr-n-this-lousy-world?xg_source=msg_mes_network
http://serreal.ning.com/video/pema-ch-dr-n-this-lousy-world?xg_source=msg_mes_network
Thursday, November 24, 2011
happy thanksgiving
Beloveds,
I am so thankful for each of you and the connection we have. I hope each of us finds something today that makes our hearts sing with joy and gratitude. I am extremely thankful to have come through the bone crunching energy of transformation- at least for now. For now, I have vision and see where we are headed and IT IS GOOD! For those of you who can not see clearly today, I hope you can borrow my faith as so often I had to borrow trust from others that I would indeed survive. A year ago yesterday I really wondered if I would make it when my then husband announced that he would be leaving in a few days (he didn't- it took almost nine months which gave me the time I needed to heal.) If you would have told me then that he would indeed leave and that I would see clearly now that it is for the best and truly essential for both of us to reach our heart's deepest desires, I would not have believed it. Now I am absolutely certain that it is true. Luckily, my soul knew better than my mind. I feel yummy peace and gratitude and a slowly unfurling Love. I send it to each of you. For me, you mysteriously do feel like part of my family. A family that supports each other and never fights- perfect! Happy Thanksgiving, my Beloveds!
A gorgeous short video on gratitude:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nj2ofrX7jAk&feature=youtube_gdata_player
I am so thankful for each of you and the connection we have. I hope each of us finds something today that makes our hearts sing with joy and gratitude. I am extremely thankful to have come through the bone crunching energy of transformation- at least for now. For now, I have vision and see where we are headed and IT IS GOOD! For those of you who can not see clearly today, I hope you can borrow my faith as so often I had to borrow trust from others that I would indeed survive. A year ago yesterday I really wondered if I would make it when my then husband announced that he would be leaving in a few days (he didn't- it took almost nine months which gave me the time I needed to heal.) If you would have told me then that he would indeed leave and that I would see clearly now that it is for the best and truly essential for both of us to reach our heart's deepest desires, I would not have believed it. Now I am absolutely certain that it is true. Luckily, my soul knew better than my mind. I feel yummy peace and gratitude and a slowly unfurling Love. I send it to each of you. For me, you mysteriously do feel like part of my family. A family that supports each other and never fights- perfect! Happy Thanksgiving, my Beloveds!
A gorgeous short video on gratitude:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nj2ofrX7jAk&feature=youtube_gdata_player
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Latvia
Hello Latvia,
I must admit I knew nothing about Latvia. I had to look it up. I know it might sound silly but I am so excited. I read there are not many more than two million people in Latvia and I am somehow connected to one of them! That is very delightful for me. I wish I knew more about each of you. I just know we are connected in some mysterious way. How delicious!
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