mayan calendar and children

Beloveds,

We are three weeks away from the end of the Mayan calendar, a time frame that encompasses over sixteen billion years. It feels inconceivable. Yet, it is so. Believe you me, my tail is dragging a bit as I adapt to all the energy fluctuations bombarding us.

 I am noticing a revolution under way that I don't hear anyone writing or speaking about- the revolution of our children. These kids know their own minds and beings and are not afraid to speak out. Best as I can tell, we are medicating them, disciplining them but are we understanding them? Seems to me in so many ways we are missing the boat. I hear people try to force things on their kids. I do too when I am frustrated. That is a no go with these kids. They respond to true power but not to force. I hear parent's destroying their relationship with their children trying to force them do to do something- often homework. I hear the parents' and children's profound frustration and confusion. So much pain. I hear so many parents and teachers exasperated at the lack of respect these children show, or so they say. Yet what I am  noticing is that culturally we have made it O.K. to be disrespectful to our children. How often do you speak to a child in a way that you would never use to speak to an adult? I am sure catching myself in that one. These kids are powerful and they KNOW many things and will not be stifled. I am not saying there are not real problems, that parents and teachers do not have genuine, very legitimate concerns about respect,  I am just wondering if we are fully owning our side of the equation.

My eyes awoke to this uncomfortable truth gradually until a few months ago when suddenly the veil dropped and I saw more clearly. Life hasn't been the same since. They say children are our future and that is exciting considering the power these kids exhibit. I hear kids today are coming in with altered DNA; maybe that explains why they are so different from my generation and why the discipline and parenting practices used then fall so flat now.

What must it be like to have a parent who is only half there  if the parent is going through the ascension process as I am, wiped out by the intensity of light bombarding our planet. To me, considering all of what is happening, they are being very considerate and thoughtful overall. I know it is hard for me to keep up with my daughter's learning differences and the school. Now this is a vast understatement but somehow I don't know if it is going to fly to go in and explain, "I am a light-worker and have been undergoing a shift to becoming a fifth dimensional being. I experience huge energy surges in my body and thus often don't feel up to helping her with her school work. She is right brain dominate and so doesn't really fit the current left brain dominant school system. I am not sure the education system really fits these kids anymore so maybe a lot of the homework is not vital to these kids' future. Would you give us a pass until we get through the star-gate 11:11?" Now she is at a Waldorf based school and a lot of the curriculum is amazing and so relevant. Yet even here to me, a lot is outdated. I heard a tutor working with a student with "co-sign this and a-b/c to the 9 degree that"- what? does it REALLY matter as the basis of our education system?

Now, even for me some of this is so far out I can hardly grasp and believe  it. Even a few months ago I was sitting on the sidelines saying, yea, maybe. But after all that has occurred to me I can only say yes and amen. I can only give gratitude to the children for their patience and forgiveness for the wreck of a planet we are bequeathing them thus far. I can only pray and know that we are doing the best that we can to reach unity consciousness so that the future world will look radically different from the last sixteen billion years. I can only pray that my daughter can forgive me all the times I have strayed from love, especially when she was little and pure Love herself. I can only intend to forgive myself, seeing no error. Now that my energy has the same sensitivity it had as a child, I feel how wounding any expression of unlove feels. I can only forgive and intend to blast myself into the Love that is our true nature. What do you think, should we give the kids a break? Should we commit to bestowing a world that feels good and runs on love not greed and power? Yes we can.

co-dependent no more

I woke up this morning and received an inner message to write about co-dependency. I have learned that to have the richest, most delicious life possible I am wise to listen to all inner messages so here goes.

I AM NOT CO-DEPENDENT ANYMORE.  For those of you who know me, this is such astonishing news it bears repeating. I AM NOT CO-DEPENDENT ANYMORE! Given the level at which this dynamic has ruled my life this is nothing short of a miracle. I recognize that I am not alone in having sourced love outside of myself. It seems a planetary epidemic, at least in the western world. (I don't know enough about the East to speak of it.) I have been aware of this charge in me and working diligently on it for over 15 years, really for my whole adult life. I remember my daughter going to kindergarden and having the visceral feeling that love was leaving my body and driving off. Ouch! This belief caused me so much agony over the last two years I mourn for the torment I experienced. Yet by diving into that belief again and again and again I have finally cleared it and it as though I have entered a new world, passed into another dimension. In this world I am free to say yes or no. I am free to go or stay. I am free to let others go or stay. I have more friends then I have had since college yet I no longer NEED them. I luxuriate in being alone (that has been true for a long time) and I relish spending time with others. I speak to strangers as long lost friends. I exchanging knowing glances of joy with people I have never met. I guess the reason I am sharing this is that this one seemed like it would never end, never heal, never leave me in peace. And this rainy morning I am basking again in peace. I know that most likely there will be more waves that will knock me hither and yon yet I no longer question if these energies crucify or resurrect (a blog I wrote in August where I was pretty convinced it was crucifixion). I know that this unraveling is bringing me ever closer to a constant remembrance of Who I am, of the Love that is my original nature. For now I have more than glimpses. I have hours and days. Whoa, what a ride!!!

BLISS AND SLIMY MONSTERS FROM THE DEEP

    In August something occurred that has changed my life. I have a refrigerator magnet that says ” I am one epiphany short of a paradigm shift.” Well this was the epiphany.

To get to this paradigm shift was not fun, in fact it was one of the most unpleasant few hours of my life in terms of owning my shadow. It began with a conflict with a family member and escalated quickly to defcon 2, just short of nuclear holocaust.  We were both convinced the other was totally wrong, outrageously mean and ruining the other’s life. I felt absolutely certain I was right and being grossly mistreated, that this behavior was inexcusable and adding immeasurable stress to my life. It got super ugly super quick. Expressing my outrage was like pouring gasoline on a bonfire. Please understand, I was absolutely convinced I was right and that my moral wrath was totally justified. The only thing that gave me pause and made me ask if there could be another way was the fact that I could see a chasm opening in my relationship with this loved one. It felt as though we were fast approaching a breach that would not be able to be healed. By now I was a fire breathing dragon and it took all my self control to rein in my rage but I did. I prayed to be shown another way. I made myself breath deeply and take a time out. I hired heavenly assistance to support me in shifting the energy. The energy did shift and we went on with our day yet the slimy monster was still lurking in the depths.

Well, big surprise, about a week later the demonic fiend arose in similar circumstances. Luckily it was in a public place so I can report there were no dead bodies. But my heart shut down like Fort Knox and I realized I felt hatred, HATRED!!!!! toward this person I profess to love. I sat with it for about 36 hellish hours. For perhaps the first time I was willing to fully face and observe this horror within me. At this point, I was still convinced I was right and the other person was an unreasonable sadist. I could not see any other way to view the circumstance but the energy was so uncomfortable, I was finally willing to sincerely ask to see it differently. My prayers were answered almost instantaneously as another family member explained to me what he perceived was going on. When he explained it, a lightbulb went off and the epiphany resulted in the life altering paradigm shift. To say I was stunned is putting it mildly. He gave me vision and altitude to see the situation completely differently. I was able to see the other’s point of view, I was able to see how unkind and really vicious I was in the way I stubbornly insisted on my way of perceiving the dynamic. I could see the other’s extreme frustration and pain. I have tears in my throat as I write because the ground dropped away from me and I realized how often my categorical certainty has been based on blindness, on only seeing from my vantage point. I had to eat my own darkness and it was a very unpalatable meal. Like how they say you see your whole life reviewed at the moment of death, it was as though I had a panorama of my self righteous blindness parade before my eyes. I could not believe how obtuse I had been. How could I not have seen the other’s pain? How could I be so utterly convinced I was right? The self loathing that arose was almost unbearable. Ugh! It was as though these gruesome sludge energies had been lurking in my unconscious wrecking havoc without any awareness on my part. My life has not been the same ever since. How? First I had to forgive my own behavior, see myself as also being one who was crying for help. As A  Course of Miracles says, everything is either an act of love or a cry for help. Now I see that sincerely in myself and others. When the shit hits the fan I am no longer able to blithely point my finger. Instead I must catch myself to ask how I am projecting my own goo outward, what part I play in the drama, where is my responsibility? When I can do this completely and honestly, usually the dynamic shifts before it even gets uncomfortable. I ask for assistance to have the vision to see the other’s perspective. I repeat to myself over and over “innocent, innocent.”  This is pure Way of Mastery and A Course of Miracles. After over two decades of study, the concept of forgiveness finally dropped to my heart, out of my brain. I saw that when I judge another, the poison immediately surges through MY bloodstream. I SAW that everyone is doing the best that they can. I SAW that it is another’s wounds that I am dealing with, not some strategic attack on me. I SAW that attack always hurts me and results in counterattack and the overpowering sadness of having to experience my own heart closing. I SAW how this was one of the biggest obstacles to embodying my life’s deepest desire, unconditional love. Holy, moly, how had I never seen this before. Now this doesn’t mean I don’t set boundaries or that I become a doormat just so I am not judging, not at all. Yet I find when I drop the judgment, my life unfolds with such grace everything seems to effortlessly fall into place.

Now, I am guessing none of this sounds too fun. And sure enough it is not. Yet here is the kicker. Guess what awaited me when I had finally owned all of this. A life altering openness arose and has lead me to delicious feelings of joy, love and bliss. My heart opens to a breadth of love I have not previously known. It as though the world is bowing to my new awareness and offering me priceless treasures. I feel such a connection to everyone and everything when I am in that state. Bliss arises with lacy fingers of grace. The world sparkles with a new delight. In other words, it is all worth it. So let those slimy monsters do their thing and surface as quickly as possible. I am ready, willing and able (at least on a good day) to transform the little darlings.  Bliss, here I come.

peace beyond understanding

Beloveds,


A quick note. The energies are quite intense as I am sure many of you are feeling. I have so much I want to write about and two longer blogs floating through my head but find I am not able to write in detail. We are in the ninth and last wave of the Mayan calendar blasting our way to unity consciousness. There are just six days left of the final night of the long count that has lasted thousands of years. We are on the home stretch- hang in there. I have begun to actually embrace (sometimes) and welcome these fiery energies as I realize they are rocket fuel of transformation. I am alternating between bliss, a profound peace I have never known and hellish constricting energies. Last night I experienced a peace truly beyond what I ever could have imaged. I sat with a fire I had built (not my previous expertise), a glass of amazing port, Tarot cards and a good book followed by a hot bath with bath salts of heartsong and tranquility, gazing out my window onto an empty landscape, alone and feeling all one. I had such a sense of completion, of love, of mySelf. Before you get jealous, it has already begun to slip away a bit yet I know it will be back because I know it is who I Am, who you Are. We have just a short time until the end of the Mayan calendar October 28th. From there until December 21, 2012 my understanding is that we will continue to experience windows and portals of profound transformation to fifth dimension unity consciousness. I am noting that those who were in my group of shape shifters who experienced one of the first bone crunching energies of healing and release are now coming out of the tunnel and a new wave of people are just passing into it. Which ever group, if any, you are in, have faith and trust. My mentor assured me in August that I was about to pass through and begin to live a life that served as an example to others of what is possible and help give them the courage to go on. I would have slapped him if he were present (it was an email) because I was at the end of my rope and almost in despair, so exhausted and weary I felt I could not take another step. He was right! I see it now and know it has all been worth it. I have burst of such unconditional love, such a heartfelt feeling of connection with even strangers, such joy that I know it truly has been worth all the anguish, terror and despair. Yes, when the killer energies hit me as they did just last Wednesday I do tend to run my story, "I  can't take it. I can't handle one more second of this vise squeezing the life out of me, compressing me, freaking me out of my bloody mind!!!  %^%$%&&^*E$%*)*()&(^&*^**" That last one was one of the worst and luckily I have learned to hire the heavens- the name of a book and a whole other blog- who came to my rescue and gave me the space to just be with those diabolical, fiendish energies.  Oh yea, trust me I wasn't singing about unity, I was cursing and ranting, screaming enough!!!!!! But my heavenly friends carried me through my depression and flu like symptoms, gave me a smidgeon of faith to hang on till it passed. Well, my darlings, my little note has turned into a love letter. I truly feel such love for all my unseen friends out there in Malaysia, Germany, Austria, Canada, Russia and the good ole US of A as well as all the rest of you who are checking in to my experiences. Perhaps one day we will meet and talk about how we survived these planet altering times as great heros of the revolution from a planet based on greed and suppression to a planet filled with love and unity. We are the ones we have been waiting for and we must all do our part to make it happen. Armageddon or utopia? the choices is ours.

there is nothing my holiness can not do

I started writing this two weeks ago but then got caught up in such a maelstrom of energy I had to put all my attention on managing and passing through some very challenging events and beliefs. I had two weeks of gorgeous energies, knowing my holiness, Divinity, etc. and then the party was over with a bang. I got caught in a shitstorm. I immediately pulled out my uzi and started hunting down that bast..rd God for dropping me in another hell hole after so recently emerging from 22 months of serious and sometimes terrifying transformation. Well, my heart closed like Alcatraz and believe me there was no escape. I stayed in that frozen, unforgiving, God destroying state for 36 hours until a tiny part of me was willing to make another choice. Before that I felt so hurt and betrayed I was unwilling to even consider forgiveness. So with a tiny peep I agreed to choose again and lo and beyond almost immediately I was given the vision to see why the other person was behaving in that way and how betrayed and hurt they felt. I saw that they felt I was their enemy and they were fighting for their very survival. I saw how indeed, "Miss I am committed to unconditional love" was in fact hating someone I supposedly love. I saw with astonishment how I have done this over and over and over. I saw how enemy images creep in when I feel under attack and the circle goes around and around in destruction and hate. I chose again and realized that while I thought I had shifted to a new paradigm of acceptance and forgiveness before, in fact it was only under certain conditions that did not include below the belt attack. I shifted and immediately so did the other person and we ended up in a love fest. Since then miracles after miracles have occurred, with solutions coming in left and right. Now, I am not advocating allowing people to abuse you- no way Jose- I am only asking that if you find yourself in conflict, ask what part you are playing in the dance. Perhaps you will see as I did, that I was doing it to myself, that the image I had inside helped co-create the drama. At some point I wish to speak openly about the circumstances because I see so many suffer from similar dynamics yet for now others privacy overrides my desire to speak out.

Beloveds, here is what I learned from my direct experience. It is truly only love or fear. If we choose fear, the consequences now in these energies are much more severe and immediate. For me I immediately get a huge punch. If I allow unforgiveness to fester in me, it as though I feel the poison seeping into my body instantaneously. If I shift to love, all kinds of previously unseen possibilities spontaneously come to my awareness. I see and feel my holiness, I see and feel the unlimited possibilities, I see and feel my immense power, the same power that resides in You. Beloveds, They are not kidding- we have that power in us and lately I have tasted it again and again as one after another miracle unfolds in short order.

Yet if fear takes over, and believe me our little egos have declared all out war as they fear for their own survival, then I am sunk. I had a few days of intense fear just now again. I tried again and again to shift and could not. Then twice I genuinely shifted. In one case, with the power of my vision and intent, I was able to obtain sold out tickets to Crosby and Nash, one of my all time favorite groups (O.K I am dating myself). Through a miraculous series of events, three tickets opened up just as we asked for some and then the song that literally had called me to the concert was the song they played for their encore. The song was Teach Your Children Well and they chose that exact song out of their repertoire of 900 songs. Whoa- I had chills going up and done my spine. I got tickets even though I had just heard about it hours before and was assured it had been sold out from the first day tickets went on sale.
I just saw a clip on how we can get out of our fear, out of our minds and enter holy ground. I have put the link below. Beloveds the time is NOW! There is no time to waste. The energy of light will have it's way. I have read some of the scientific information of how this occurring but it does not really interest me because my body is telling me it IS so. We must pony up or be swept away in the tidal wave of fear immersing our cherished Earth. I write quickly without editing as the fur continues to fly so I must go and allow my holiness to put out some fires. Beloveds, join with me in knowing absolutely, without question, There is nothing our holiness can not do. Beloveds, bless everything that you witness, knowing it is serving a greater purpose. Beloveds, know we are one and that we will see this through. Know that I am with you, know that you are loved!!!!

http://serreal.ning.com/video/tedxnasa-dr-sue-morter-11-20-09

Think with Your heart

This is just such yummy information I wanted to pass it on to uplift. I love her postings so I  included how to access her site. All the information below is from her latest blog. Enjoy!!!


Lauren C. Gorgo
ThinkWithYourHeart.net

To the Pioneers & PathPavers

The sisters would like to conclude this update with a message for those who have been fighting for years to keep yer heads above water, even thru the high tides and tumultuous waves of the end times….

"To those who have held true to their internal knowing and honored the voice of the One, we say this to you:

Be prepared not only for greatness, but in the sharing of it. The tide has turned and a new wave of energy is arriving at your shore. Nothing promises to be the same again.  For those of you who have weathered the many storms to arrive here, you are the lighted ones, those who others will seek in times of continued destruction and darkness. Redemption is at hand, but it is because you have redeemed yourselves. Be astute to your untapped potential, for there is much yet to be explored, much that will surprise and delight you.  We are the proof of your success, for we are the future of your now.

Remain in peace through the physical changes that arise both within and around you and remember your role as a true bearer of light.  This comes in many forms, not just in moments of greatness, but in the tiniest acts of kindness.  The time to be true is now. The time to be YOU is now.  Pray tell." -Seven Sisters


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seed of an equivalent benefit

I just read a book by Napoleon Hill, of Think and Grow Rich fame. It seems he was one of the first expounders of manifestation consciousness, how to think and feel your way into a new experience. He was speaking about the "seed of an equivalent benefit." I didn't get much from the book but that. The idea if you have suffered great loss an equivalent benefit awaits you if you look for it, intended it. Well, I like that. I figure after a year and a half of almost pure grief, terror and sorrow that I was endlessly allowing, then four months of fairly intense challenges, the seed of my equivalent benefit must be the size of New York. There's just got to be a pony under that pile of poo. Last week I began to taste it. Three fabulous days where I experienced a never before known wholeness, a clarity, a joy, a certainty that was delicious. My intuition was firing on all cylinders, miracles were my daily fare. If you've been following this blog, you know I don't pretend. I hate the "I"m fabulous" that I get whenever I met someone one from a New Thought church. I'm fabulous even though yesterday I tried to slit my wrist- no thank you. I mean honest to God great. What a relief because I figured pretty soon no one would be interested in this journey, this path except to use it to know exactly what not to do. Then I had two quite good days, one yucky day and now a neutral day. But I tell ya, the synchronicities are flying and everything is flowing. I am chewing on another challenge but the experience is entirely differ, I feel guided and held, supported with knowledge from beyond. I don't even try to figure it out. I wait to hear the answer. I truly feel like I have entered a parallel universe where things are easier and life can be so wonderful. Like I said, today is so so but I still got a good feeling. We'll see what the future brings.

This is all very good news as I was beginning to wonder if I could still promote this path, given my experiences and seeming lack of results. Yes, yes I can. That is if you are interested in absolute freedom mixed with unconditional love and joy. It is the only way I have found that can lead me back to the realization of my own Essence as my lived experience. Yes, it was way more intense then I thought, yes, sometimes I didn't think I'd make it. But now I can say from a place beyond pure faith- it is worth the ride. My mentor told me people would flock to me when they saw how magnificent my life was. Since I was mired in misery, I was like, yea right. I felt lost in the goo of my own unconsciousness. Would I ever emerge from the tunnel? Yes, I would and I am. Hang in there. We all will too.
(reporting live from the Edge...)